You are choosing to stay in a space of depression, negativity, pessimism, toxicity, criticism, and judgement......it takes zero effort to stay in this space. It does, however, take an immense amount of work to pull yourself out of that space and to start living a fulfilling life. Happiness is not the goal, but being able to cultivate an attitude so you can navigate the ebb's and flows of life is your moral responsibility to you and those around you.