You have been living from a spirit of fear, doubt and shame.  Why?  This is not the Holy Spirit which God has given you.  God gave you a spirit of Power, Love and Self Control.  Do you feel your life anything but powerful, filled with love and you have any self control?  This isn't the life you want. This isn't the life God wants for you.  It's time to experience life of power and abundance through God's spirit!  If you are struggling in your faith reach out to Nilan on Instagram at Surrendered Strength counsel or coaching.