Zaina

This is my most heartbreaking episode yet and I have no words

I have been so screamed down and do verbally abused that most days I don't know what is right or wrong to do, say or think anymore cos I have been that gaslighted. I begin to feel it is all in my head or I am stirring up shit or just so ungrateful to know he deserves this mistress for all his hard work...just as he tells me

I have what I call cry breaks and they all happen in my bathroom. On today's episode I explain why my bathroom is my favourite room in my house through this journey

Everyone ought to know that to kill a dog, you first give it a bad name. That is the way many people get "assassinated" too. It starts with the naming.

In my journey through trauma, I have learned 2 great truths- trauma introduces you to yourself and also, that you cannot give me a hurt and tell me what to do with it but, I've also learned something mind-blowing- girlfriends are great too. Honest ones that is. They tell you through their experiences, how you should do better because your old bag of tricks aren't working and doing same thibgs over and again is just you been too close to the situation to realize it just isn't working!

Questions upon questions plague my soul and advice upon advice from friends and what are you going to do?

I don't presume to be an expert and im not asking for an audience. My heart feels so broken and at the same time full to bursting so this is just me talking about it. I have never been successful at anything so I am not doing this to become a success. If you are going through heartbreak, I am so sorry for your pain too.