after I lost my job the day after Christmas I swear I’m not making this up, got into my first car accident with my girlfriend in the car I froze in shock i spent those moments thinking of the future and was a roadblock ultimately in my job search but saved me financially in a bad time. I don’t think it’s enough to make it a good month, I will never forget this period of dread.

What blessing did by 1996

my screams by 1996

Cold sweats by 1996

for Kylee

#unhinged #unrecreatable #lost

#alternative #sleeping #openup

A couple things I wanna say about these two, sticking with the reference and breaking “rules” bending what could or could not be done, could have been a 15 min track but I decided to abide by some “rules” and break some by naming them beyond comprehending, a joke, a representation of going outside the norm. Doing it all. Following some and not others, use the “rules” as reference. Decided to cut the beginning all together of this track it was originally 15 mins.

Every year

purgatory a think I’ve used this sample before cant quite remember, going through hell and planned on creating from the experience but because of poor planning I never made an escape plan. Walking on coals by choice is a fraction of what is happening, you walk through hot coals and can see the other side, it’s so close. I’ve spawned myself in a room a hot coals with no exits for a purpose. Was naive in my intent to produce art. Capturing some, feeling everything, cracking personified.