Bella, where the hell have you been loca? Uhhhhh I got into a car accident and received a head injury then lost my favorite person in the world and have no hope for humanity. Today I tackle the hard shit and state where I've been and what's going on with this podcast moving forward. Thank you listeners for being my therapist for the last few years I appreciate you immensely for your support it's the end of just a Mikaela-talking era, I hope you stick around for what 20 f*cking something has to offer next.

Sup fuckers im back and slightly better still a bit more dissociated than everrrrrrr. Hear about what I've been up to recently while driving or walking or running......or showering (; Love youuuuu

In this episode, I talk about where I have been and what I have planned for the new year

This week Mikaela tackles the topic of attraction. What makes someone attractive, do you value looks, are you dressing for the gaze of another person?

I apologize in advance for the confusion that will make this episode sadly the perfect one-take episode that I recorded had become a corrupted file and I am in the process of potentially fixing it so in the meantime please enjoy this 5 take wonder.

ahhhhh this week I talk about all the little things I've been doing recently to heal my inner child, I hope some of these experiences are able to help those who are struggling with allowing themselves to heal. Be easy on yourself you are doing your best <3

Today I talk about my struggles with my digestive issues and how it has affected my mental health

Today Mikaela talks about her period of time spent in her college town and how nothing seems the same anymore. All the signs point to her finally leaving and tackling a new season of life. Oh! and she also talks about her new ex-street cat Casper!

This week I talk on the topic of self-identity, growing up as a multiracial person it was always hard to adapt to the idea of self-identity. It wasn't until recently that I really took to finding out who I was and that's when I discovered my Jewish ancestry. I plan on making several trips in 2022 to learn more self-identity including Israel, Mexico, and Quebec Canada

This week I talk about disassociating with myself and my break from the podcast. Also I am so sorry about the noise my new neighbors love playing music all hours and my jazz music is trying to block it out :(

This week I'm talking about the loss of my aunt, I'm not sure what else to say but you will hear it all in the episode and the unfortunate events leading up to her loss that has sent me into isolation.