im not yet healed…

a track from ROADRUNNER

I wrote im not yet healed… on a night when survival felt like motion. It’s about the way we circle our pain, trying to outrun it with noise, neon, liquor, anything that keeps the silence at bay. It’s the part of the journey where you know you’re not okay, but admitting it out loud feels like too much truth at once.

Inside ROADRUNNER, this song sits in the low-light hours ... the part of the arc where you’re not collapsing anymore, but you’re not standing steady either. You’re coasting. You’re coping. You’re pretending the bar lights are enough to lift the weight off your chest.

It’s about loneliness disguised as nightlife, and the strange comfort of meeting someone else who’s lost in the same way. Two people floating, no answers, just a shared inhale in the middle of the noise.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

when you let me breathe

a track from ROADRUNNER

I wrote when you let me breathe in the middle of a reclamation. It’s about the exact second you realize someone never had the power they made you fear, that you were holding your breath because you were conditioned to, not because the air was gone.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, this track is the ignition point. It’s the shockwave that hits after the collapse, when the body pulls itself upright and remembers its strength. It’s about breath as rebellion, breath as clarity, breath as the end of someone else’s script.

Sonically, it’s meant to feel like getting punched by a blown-out bass in a beat-up 1997 Honda Civic .... loud, distorted, and alive in a way that rattles something loose.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

io.IWE (If Only It Were Easy)

a track from ROADRUNNER

I made io.iwe in the moment where everything finally buckled. The point where you’ve tried every fix, every reset, every path forward, and nothing responds anymore. It’s the sound of emotional code crashing, a human operating system hitting its limit. That numb, exhausted space where giving up feels almost easier than pushing through.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, this is the internal shutdown sequence. The quiet collapse before the sprint. The moment where the whole self flickers, freezes, and hangs in that blank screen between who you were and whoever you’re supposed to become. It’s not dramatic. But it’s defeated and honest.

It’s meant to feel like being trapped inside your own circuitry, hearing the hum of a machine that won’t boot, sitting in the static of uncertainty with no guarantee of a restart.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the long sprint toward self-acceptance.)

SPF (Stupid Problematic Fckr)

The 2nd Offering of Roadrunner.

SPF is about the heat of self-deception. The ways we block our own light while trying to protect ourselves from getting burned again. It started as a fuck-you song and turned into a confession about projection, shame, and the masks we wear to feel safe.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, SPF sits at the beginning of this emotional breakdown (breakthrough), when the armor starts to melt and the truth stings. “Cover my love” became the thesis of the track. It’s about the kind of protection that keeps you from feeling at all.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the slow sprint toward self-acceptance.)

bleached

the first offering from ROADRUNNER

I wrote bleached in the middle of a long identity unraveling. It’s about the impulse to start over, to burn down who you were, change your hair, change your name, and hope the mirror finally recognizes you back. It’s about body dysmorphia, but also about the deeper ache underneath: the belief that transformation has to come through destruction.

In the world of ROADRUNNER, bleached is the false rebirth, the moments before acceptance, when you’re still trying to scrub the stain instead of understanding what it’s made of. It’s a song about chasing purity and finding ghosts instead.

I wanted it to sound like standing under fluorescent light at 2am, buzzed on reinvention and self-disgust, realizing you can’t bleach your way clean.

(from the album ROADRUNNER, a spiritual pop experimental collection about ego death, emotional reckoning, and the slow sprint toward self-acceptance. Coming in full soon.)

Wrote this one when everything felt like it was falling apart—online, in the world, in myself. It’s kind of me trying to smile through the panic, like… if I joke about the apocalypse, maybe it won’t hurt as much.

It’s about feeling stuck, overwhelmed, and praying for something to change.

This one sets the stage for Roadrunner, my upcoming project.

This song is an anthem of frustration, liberation, and self-reclamation. This track delves deep into the raw emotions of feeling unseen, the pain of rejection, and the power of letting go. With lyrics that walk the fine line between despair and defiance, it captures the journey of breaking free from toxicity and rediscovering strength within.

While wrapping up the story, this song stands on it's on as a cathartic release for anyone who’s ever felt trapped but refused to stay down.

A song for anyone holding on by a thread. ‘Holding Out For Hope’ is about finding strength in the darkest moments and trusting that your future self will carry you through. Let this be your reminder: you are strong enough. 🌙✨

A song about the war of being exactly here - letting go of what came before, and embracing the future. It's a final send off to an updated version of the self.

On 'im so tired': a raw, introspective track that explores the exhaustion of constantly questioning one’s purpose and timing in life. With honest lyrics about feeling lost, frustrated, and on the edge of breaking, this song delves into the struggle of overcoming self-doubt and the longing for a breakthrough. Its haunting chorus and confessional verses resonate with anyone who’s felt stuck or overwhelmed by life’s challenges.