This is the beginning of PC (personal crisis part 2)

In part one, we had to come to terms with the fact that we are in a personal crisis. And we left off calling out to the gods for help at the end of part 1.

We admitted our truth, which makes us usually think we are good - like I admitted it and I can move on. It's the calm before another storm when the eye of the hurricane passes over. So this starts with that fantasy.

LNC = late night call. This song is about doing the thing you don't want to do. making the late night call. telling destiny you want it. Produced by LEVEL

BTS= between the sheets. This song is about how you thought doing the thing you don't want to do would inspire this great moment. that it would lead you to thing you want most. in this case, its intimacy. Produced by wurlishmouk

but it's just a fantasy. because you still are on the path of a personal crisis.

A.S.S or Another Sad Song . This skit is about how reality cuts through the simulation or the fantasy. and you have to deal with your shit.

But you said no more sad songs - so instead you let the computer tell it for you.

Now we can move along and get real again....

I put these 3 songs together because they don't stand on their own. They exist as one expression of a moment in my life. when the fantasy was interrupted by the fantasy.

these are the demos. They may not sound complete but that's the point. like it was a fantasy... and reality disturbed that.

This is a song about being depressed.

I can always feel the pressure.

This one is also very personal to me.

a song for when you feel sorry for yourself.

you have to listen 4 times before it sinks in.

written during a panic attack.

V PERSONAL

...i cant even look at u w/out feelin like ill stay

You may say "Blaine, this is a hard listen!" but ain't that how a personal crisis goes...

The last year of my life has been chaos. I thought I was headed in one direction, but out of nowhere, I found myself in in the middle of a personal crisis. It has been unlike anything I've ever experienced.

So I turned to music. I wanted to capture the moments of uncertainty. Each of the songs represents a different aspect of my identity crisis.

it may be long, but it's a journey that I want you to experience the way I feel it.

The Track list is as follows:

1. OSIRIS (intro) - part 1

2. wibOK? (Will I be okay?)

3. iis (If I stay)

4. IWSN! (I want something new!)

5. dwtc (Don’t Want To Change)

6. L.G. (Loaded Gun) ft. ChatGPT

7. sos (Symptom of a system)

8. ica_FTP (I can always feel the pressure)

9. HERMES (interlude) - part 2 - sponsored post

10. LNC (late night call)

11. BTS (between the sheets)

12. A.S.S (another sad song) - presented by iMac

13. 4msd(10.11.01-10.27.23)_RIP.bbgrl

14. but wait! (imoverthis)

will i be ok?

I WANT SOMETHING NEW, DAMNIT!

This song was inspired by queer romance and relationships. As a queer person, I find that we are afraid to show our real love in the world because of fear even though our love is extremely real and passionate. I also thought of all the people who have died for expressing their love in the world. I wanted to write something from within a safe place about being scared to show it in a larger space. Taking that sacred love into the bigger world.

This one is extremely sentimental to me. It is written as a safe space for people to feel the love they want to declare. It is written as a victory song.

This is my love letter to the queer community.

This is the first demo that was cut for the track. It is a work in progress, but I wanted my love to be sent into the world, so I thought I would share it in it's raw form. I just really mean the sentiment in this one. I put a lot of my heart into this one.

Produced by Jonah Bru.

I hope you find a connection to this one.

When you've connected with someone and got good chemistry, you know you want them to come thru.

Demo. work in progress. I gotta work on this QUALITY of the recording. but all in all... we learning

Trying to experiment a bit.

Its a headphonebanger

Prod. by Leedz Beatz