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In this episode Nafisa reflects on a phrase her teacher said

“We need to learn to love death, It’s the beginning of the actual life”

For the believer one has to remember that death is the start of actual life!

The whole episode is filled with many reflections of how we view death, why we might view it the way we view it and maybe a better way to look at it!

* Notes to self:

For the believer one has to remember that death is the start of actual life!

So you have to get it right here , take with you the deeds that Allah will have mercy on you and grant you the best of the ACTUAL life

Sacrifice for Him swt and prepare for a life where the currency before you are given an eternal home is in the actions you took in this test of a life.

You will get what you strive for. So oh servant of her merciful lord, look at your life , look at your calendar, look at your habits , look at the day to day activities you take on in this test of a life, are you striving for a good eternal home or the opposite?

Are you filling your books with good actions or the opposite?

Will you be happy to start your actual life today? Your eternal life?

For a believer ( may Allah make us of them), an eternity of happiness, eternal peace, eternal love, eternal happiness, oh

Allahumma inna nas alukal jannah wa ma qarraba ilaiha min kawlin wa amal

Allah we ask you jannah and what brings us nearer to it of speech and actions

Wa na uthu bika minan naar wa qarraba ilaiha min qaulin wa amal

And we seek refuge in you from hell and what brings us nearer to it of speech and action

REFERENCES-

Verse from surah an najm that gives her a reality check

وَأَن لَّيْسَ لِلْإِنسَـٰنِ إِلَّا مَا سَعَىٰ ٣٩

And that there is not for man except that [good] for which he strives 39

Death doula video I referred to around 11:00

Take advantage of 5 before 5 reference:

Your youth before your old age

Your health before your sickness

Your wealth before your poverty

Your free time before your busyness

Your life before your death

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WDwc7NBGA6M

Instagram

Do you know what month we’re in? 🤭Do you know the Islamic months?

Welll we’re actually in a sacred month! Dhul Q’idah!

In this episode Nafisa shares what she’s learnt about sacred months, how we can use this month as a time to actualize the better versions of ourselves we wanted to see right after Ramadan.

Having had a dip in shawwal , where our bodies even physically could not do what we did in Ramadan, we rested and recharged and what better motivation than a sacred month where good deeds are amplified to make the most of and become the better versions of ourselves!!!🤗🥹

Alhamdullilah! Listen to the episode for all the reflections

May Allah allow for you and I to make the most out of these sacred months!

(*****IMPORTANT POINT TO NOTE , Allah can choose to forgive one but in their record the sin is still there but it’s also written that Allah has forgiven it, then there’s a next level that Allah decides that the sin be wiped out from the record completely and then there’s next level could be that if Allah wills he makes that the sin is infact turned into a good deed)

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“So there are four sacred months, Dhul-Qadah, which means the month to sit. You sit back, you do not fight, you do not engage in any type of warfare.

Dhul-Hijjah is the month in which Hajj is, so there used to be a reiteration of Hajj in the Islamic Days.

There is Muharram, which means forbidden. It is the beginning of the year, so it's forbidden.

And then there's the month of Rajab, which is the only month that is not in succession, that does not come in succession. And Rajab means to remove and refrain. So you would remove your weapons, and refrain from fighting somewhere in the middle of the year.”

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Yaqeen YouTube and newsletter on dhul hijja and the sacred months

Imam Tom’s Atomic Habits series

Quran 9:36 - verse about the twelve months written in Allahs Record from the day he created the heavens and the earth, of them four are sacred.

The same way you go through things that no one knows about not even the people that are constantly with you or around you

And someone’s hard on you & you think to yourself

“you have no idea what I’m going through”

“Be a little kinder”

“Does it hurt to say things in a nicer calmer way”

The SAME WAY you go through those things, everyone goes through it too sometimes

soo…

The next time someone says something harsh or their mood is off, say astaghfirullah

remind yourself that they are human too and let it go.

-> soo many verses in the Quran speak about making room for one another, tending to people’s emotions & being of those who pardon others.

- my journal entry

Listen to the whole episode to listen to when the Prophet peace be upon him also had pain that was unspoken. And Allah acknowledged it 🥹 and responded to him🤍

And reflections on trying to be “the ease” in eachother’s lives rather than adding to each others’ hardships🤍

an episode that is very close to my heart

This episode/ sorry voice note has come to you, for everyone going through pain and confusion and losing trust in themselves as you experience your tests in life or your low days , I hope Allah heals you my love. I pray Allah gets you out of this better than you entered it and I pray Allah is pleased with you now and when you return to him.

I want to tell you sister , whatever it is you’re going through Allah is not unaware I promise and if you ask He WILL respond 100%!be . And it WILL be

Whatever you’re going through , how you feel is how you feel, you’re human. You can feel. It’s fine.

You’re human.(listen to the vn to get the best possible understanding 🥹🤍)

The verse reflected on about Sayyida Maryam.(AS)

فَأَجَآءَهَا ٱلْمَخَاضُ إِلَىٰ جِذْعِ ٱلنَّخْلَةِ قَالَتْ يَـٰلَيْتَنِى مِتُّ قَبْلَ هَـٰذَا وَكُنتُ نَسْيًۭا مَّنسِيًّۭا ٢٣

Then the pains of labour drove her to the trunk of a palm tree. She cried, “Alas! I wish I had died before this, and was a thing long forgotten!”

Quran 19:23

Surahtul mulk tafseer by Dr Haifaa

Prophetic sayings - app for morning and evening athkar

Quran app

Dhikr and dua - for athkar, duas and virtues - just checking the app out myself, please do check the references and confirm their authenticity

I created a gmail acc just because I want a break from the instagram page for now so send me an email but like a test message whenever you wanna share something with me sister 🫶🏾🤍

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[email protected]

I pray Allah heals us all and lets flowers grow in the darkest parts of us , the flowers of faith and love and certainty in Him and in His promises and in his Love

Morning athkar follow along video

Evening athkar follow along video

Shawwal is coming to an end!! Have you fasted your six yet???

Abu Aiyub Al-Ansari (RAA) narrated that The Messenger of Allah (ﷺ) said:

"Whoever fasts during the month of Ramadan and then follows it with six days of Shawwal will be (rewarded) as if he had fasted the entire year." Related by Muslim.

We need to learn to speakkk to Allah🥹

An-Nu`man bin Bashir narrated that:

The Prophet said: “The supplication, is worship.”

Then he recited: And Your Lord said: “Call upon me, I will respond to you. Verily, those who scorn My worship, they will surely enter Hell humiliated."

Jami` at-Tirmidhi 3372

The video I watched:

Blackout at The Bridge

References:

- The Hadith about traces of wudu being light:

Narrated Nu`am Al-Mujmir:

Once I went up the roof of the mosque, along with Abu Huraira. He perform ablution and said, "I heard the Prophet (ﷺ) saying, "On the Day of Resurrection, my followers will be called "Al-Ghurr-ul- Muhajjalun" from the trace of ablution and whoever can increase the area of his radiance should do so (i.e. by performing ablution regularly).' "

Sahih al-Bukhari 136

- The dua for lighttt!!:

اللَّهُمَّ اجْعَلْ فِي قَلْبِي نُورًا ، وَفِي لِسَانِي نُورًا ، وَاجْعَلْ فِي سَمْعِي نُورًا ، وَاجْعَلْ فِي بَصَرِي نُورًا ، وَاجْعَلْ مِنْ خَلْفِي نُورًا ، وَمِنْ أَمَامِي نُورًا ، وَاجْعَلْ مِنْ فَوْقِي نُورًا ، وَمِنْ تَحْتِي نُورًا ، اللَّهُمَّ أَعْطِنِي نُورًا

allaahumma-j‛al fee qalbee noor-an, wa fee lisaanee noor-an, waj‛al fee sam‛ee noor-an, waj‛al fee baṣaree noor-an , waj‛al min khalfee noor-an, wamin amaamee noor-an, waj‛al min fawqee noor-an, wa min taḥtee noor-an, allahumma a‛ṭinee noor-an

O Allah, place within my heart light, and upon my tongue light, and within my ears light, and within my eyes light, and place behind me light, and in front of me light, and above me light, and beneath me light. O Allah, bestow upon me light.

- Verse about believers having perfect light and Allah not disgracing the believers on the day of judgement 🥹

يَـٰٓأَيُّهَا ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُوا۟ تُوبُوٓا۟ إِلَى ٱللَّهِ تَوْبَةًۭ نَّصُوحًا عَسَىٰ رَبُّكُمْ أَن يُكَفِّرَ عَنكُمْ سَيِّـَٔاتِكُمْ وَيُدْخِلَكُمْ جَنَّـٰتٍۢ تَجْرِى مِن تَحْتِهَا ٱلْأَنْهَـٰرُ يَوْمَ لَا يُخْزِى ٱللَّهُ ٱلنَّبِىَّ وَٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُوا۟ مَعَهُۥ ۖ نُورُهُمْ يَسْعَىٰ بَيْنَ أَيْدِيهِمْ وَبِأَيْمَـٰنِهِمْ يَقُولُونَ رَبَّنَآ أَتْمِمْ لَنَا نُورَنَا وَٱغْفِرْ لَنَآ ۖ إِنَّكَ عَلَىٰ كُلِّ شَىْءٍۢ قَدِيرٌۭ ٨

O believers! Turn to Allah in sincere repentance, so your Lord may absolve you of your sins and admit you into Gardens, under which rivers flow, on the Day Allah will not disgrace the Prophet or the believers with him. Their light will shine ahead of them and on their right. They will say, “Our Lord! Perfect our light for us, and forgive us. ˹For˺ You are truly Most Capable of everything.”

Quran 66:8

- Verse about the munafiqoon(hypocrites) asking the BELIEVERS for light

يَوْمَ يَقُولُ ٱلْمُنَـٰفِقُونَ وَٱلْمُنَـٰفِقَـٰتُ لِلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُوا۟ ٱنظُرُونَا نَقْتَبِسْ مِن نُّورِكُمْ قِيلَ ٱرْجِعُوا۟ وَرَآءَكُمْ فَٱلْتَمِسُوا۟ نُورًۭا فَضُرِبَ بَيْنَهُم بِسُورٍۢ لَّهُۥ بَابٌۢ بَاطِنُهُۥ فِيهِ ٱلرَّحْمَةُ وَظَـٰهِرُهُۥ مِن قِبَلِهِ ٱلْعَذَابُ ١٣

On that Day hypocrite men and women will beg the believers, “Wait for us so that we may have some of your light.” It will be said ˹mockingly˺, “Go back ˹to the world˺ and seek a light ˹there˺!” Then a ˹separating˺ wall with a gate will be erected between them. On the near side will be grace and on the far side will be torment.

Quran 57:13

يُنَادُونَهُمْ أَلَمْ نَكُن مَّعَكُمْ ۖ قَالُوا۟ بَلَىٰ وَلَـٰكِنَّكُمْ فَتَنتُمْ أَنفُسَكُمْ وَتَرَبَّصْتُمْ وَٱرْتَبْتُمْ وَغَرَّتْكُمُ ٱلْأَمَانِىُّ حَتَّىٰ جَآءَ أَمْرُ ٱللَّهِ وَغَرَّكُم بِٱللَّهِ ٱلْغَرُورُ ١٤

The tormented will cry out to those graced, “Were we not with you?” They will reply, “Yes ˹you were˺. But you chose to be tempted ˹by hypocrisy˺, ˹eagerly˺ awaited ˹our demise˺, doubted ˹the truth˺, and were deluded by false hopes until Allah’s decree ˹of your death˺ came to pass. And ˹so˺ the Chief Deceiver deceived you about Allah.

An episode that might help after this one 🤍

Episode 23

This episode has my heart. I missed recording for you🥹🫸🏾🙈

The reflections in this episode are raw and real and from the bottom of my heart.

May Allah make it a good word that has a meaningful and special positive impact on my dear sister (you🫶🏾)

Fi amanillah!

Please keep the ummah in your prayers

References:

-Hadith on fasting sitta shawwal :

Abu Aiyub Al-Ansari (RAA) narrated that The Messenger of Allah (ﷺ) said:

"Whoever fasts during the month of Ramadan and then follows it with six days of Shawwal will be (rewarded) as if he had fasted the entire year." Related by Muslim.

-The debate between Mehdi Hassan and Congressman :

https://youtu.be/S5JgcMPT3ro?si=OKmpTihC5Bn2NJqN

-Corruption has spread because of what the hand of people have done

ظَهَرَ ٱلْفَسَادُ فِى ٱلْبَرِّ وَٱلْبَحْرِ بِمَا كَسَبَتْ أَيْدِى ٱلنَّاسِ لِيُذِيقَهُم بَعْضَ ٱلَّذِى عَمِلُوا۟ لَعَلَّهُمْ يَرْجِعُونَ ٤١

Corruption has spread on land and sea as a result of what people’s hands have done, so that Allah may cause them to taste ˹the consequences of˺ some of their deeds and perhaps they might return ˹to the Right Path˺.

Quran 30:41

-The video about taking responsibility for:

“Step up, You’re on your own”

Ali Hammuda

- the best thing on the internet!🤭 Names of Allah and His Attributes series by Hisham Abu Yusuf :

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLSFZjjKC3qPYGLinbi1XurRSC3izxodtC&si=rzPoE6mk4Vko_UJK

The last voice note I recorded for you in the morning of the 27th day of Ramadan 1446AH🥹🤍

I miss Ramadan and I’m sure you do too.

Listening to this I remember Ramadan more clearly, I remember its smell, its breeze , its feelings of peace and closeness to the most Compassionate

Keep saying allahumma innaka afffuwwun tuhibbul afuwa fa affu anni

Keep making dua for the things you want

As my cousin said, you don’t expect to go into Ramadan and then thirty days later you’re a completely different person,

growth takes times

so use your Ramadan as a stepping stone

And prayyyy

Speak to Allah

Because la haula wa la quwwata illa billah

There’s no might or power except for Allahs

You and I can’t do it, but Allah can and if he wills it be and it will be.

So shouldn’t we continue to ask The Only One Who Can

We just need to keep asking🫶🏾

Eid Mubarak sister! Taqaballahu minna wa minkum!🤍

Don’t forget to fast the six in this month, shawwal to get a big reward!!

Abu Ayyub (may Allah be pleased with him) reported that the Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said: “Whoever fasts Ramadan and follows it with six days of Shawwal , it will be as if he fasted for a lifetime.” (Narrated by Muslim, Abu Dawud, al-Tirmidhi, al-Nasai and Ibn Majah).

YouTube videos:

https://youtu.be/1ckTRFRRA1E?si=XQ0X2PUIeRnN3Uqw

- surahtul anfal

https://youtu.be/4cVtCOIZufI?si=NTlHe04y9cFeTFKL

- Loumed

https://youtu.be/IGdrpAQ0iAs?si=WESSu4wwMZFrD-Gm

-Sidney Redjo

https://youtu.be/JRK88YFxwqY?si=bBACLcywZcgDTcDf

- Omar vn diaa aldeen

https://youtu.be/V3rlXNybUDw?si=toG9044sP6we8wxA

- mihed asma

- Remind yourself WHY you’re fasting, and WHY you’re praying the nights, and WHY you’re searching for lailatul qadr - وَذَكِّرْ فَإِنَّ ٱلذِّكْرَىٰ تَنفَعُ ٱلْمُؤْمِنِينَ, But ˹continue to˺ remind. For certainly reminders benefit the believers.”

Narrated Abu Huraira:

The Prophet (ﷺ) said, "Whoever fasted the month of Ramadan out of sincere Faith (i.e. belief) and hoping for a reward from Allah, then all his past sins will be forgiven, and whoever stood for the prayers in the night of Qadr out of sincere Faith and hoping for a reward from Allah, then all his previous sins will be forgiven ."

Reference : Sahih al-Bukhari 2014

In-book reference : Book 32, Hadith 1

You have to go out of your way to not be forgiven by Allah, if there’s a deficiency in your fasting, your qiyaam will make up for it by Allahs mercy , if there’s a deficiency in your qiyaam , qiyaam on lailatul wadr will make up for it by the mercy of Allah

A complete guide to the last 10 nights and lailatul qadr with Imam Omar-

https://youtu.be/eUF_ByyQ7_M?si=WGZRXhgcS2pCHr6O

- If you’ve stayed up all night before, you CAN STAY UP ALL NIGHT TONIGHT ( the last ten nights!) , YOU CAN SLEEP ON THE DAY OF EID

It’s ten nights ! And it’s gone!

a night BETTER than a THOUSAND months not EQUAL TO! BETTER!

- The best version of you is the person you’ve been this ramadan, is the person you are the type of person that goes to paradise?? Are you the type of person you want to die being?

- Reflect on- is the ramadan I’ve lived good enough for Allah to say, yes , I will grant you jannah, I will forgive this servant of mine

- We have to prayyyyyy about the things we’ve given up in ramadan, let it not be a pause! Are you worshipping Ramadan or Allah!?

- be in constant communication with Allah, talk to Allah, tell him , ya Allah you see what I am going through,

Ya Allah help me, ya Allah I’m trying

Dua is WORSHIP!

And correct worship is rewarded ! By the mercy and will of Allah!

- A dua from the Quran I recently started loving:

رَبِّ أَوْزِعْنِىٓ أَنْ أَشْكُرَ نِعْمَتَكَ ٱلَّتِىٓ أَنْعَمْتَ عَلَىَّ وَعَلَىٰ وَٰلِدَىَّ وَأَنْ أَعْمَلَ صَـٰلِحًۭا تَرْضَىٰهُ وَأَصْلِحْ لِى فِى ذُرِّيَّتِىٓ ۖ إِنِّى تُبْتُ إِلَيْكَ وَإِنِّى مِنَ ٱلْمُسْلِمِينَ

My Lord! Inspire me to ˹always˺ be thankful for Your favours which You blessed me and my parents with, and to do good deeds that please You. And instil righteousness in my offspring. I truly repent to You, and I truly submit ˹to Your Will˺.”

Part of Quran 46:15

رَبِّ أَوْزِعْنِىٓ أَنْ أَشْكُرَ نِعْمَتَكَ ٱلَّتِىٓ أَنْعَمْتَ عَلَىَّ وَعَلَىٰ وَٰلِدَىَّ وَأَنْ أَعْمَلَ صَـٰلِحًۭا تَرْضَىٰهُ وَأَدْخِلْنِى بِرَحْمَتِكَ فِى عِبَادِكَ ٱلصَّـٰلِحِينَ

“My Lord! Inspire me to ˹always˺ be thankful for Your favours which You have blessed me and my parents with, and to do good deeds that please you. Admit me, by Your mercy, into ˹the company of˺ Your righteous servants.”