A Door of Hope

By A Door of Hope Podcast

Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA) is a deeply misunderstood and often dismissed form of trauma involving systematic abuse designed to fracture the body, mind, and soul. In the premiere episode of A Door o

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June 05, 2026 Releasing Somatic Trauma: Healing Trauma-Based Body Memories (Ep. 017)
Trauma doesn’t just live in our thoughts. It can be stored in the body, showing up in confusing ways. Impulses, physical sensations, or reactions that feel out of proportion can sometimes be connected to experiences the body is still holding onto.
In Episode 017 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry talk about body memories and somatic trauma, what it means for trauma to be held in the body, and how to recognize when it surfaces and begins to release. They explore what these moments can feel like, why they happen, and how to approach them safely when it’s time to process and heal

About the Hosts:
Kay Tolman and Kerry Hansher are both survivors of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). Beginning in childhood, the ritualistic trauma they endured led to a long and difficult journey toward healing, marked by struggles with anxiety, depression, suicidal ideation, and dissociative identity disorder (DID). Through many years of walking in healing and restoration with the Lord, Kay and Kerry have found freedom—and now dedicate their lives to helping other survivors who have been ignored, shamed, or ridiculed. Using the freedom God has given them, they offer hope, understanding, and practical support to those navigating this deeply complex and often misunderstood trauma.
To find additional resources on recovering from SRA or to learn how to minister to individuals healing from trauma, visit our website: http://rgmconnect.com or contact us at [email protected].

Resources:
Satanic Ritual Abuse Exposed (Kay’s Book): https://a.co/d/6QUrx5y
A More Excellent Way: Spiritual Roots of Disease, Pathways to Wholeness: https://a.co/d/05ANl1vz

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Tags:
#SomaticHealing #TraumaRecovery #HealingFromTrauma #PTSDRecovery #MentalHealth #BodyKeepsTheScore #EmotionalHealing #InnerHealing #NervousSystem #HealingJourney
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36min
May 15, 2026 Processing Traumatic Memories: What To Expect and How To Heal Safely (Ep. 016)
Traumatic memories can be complicated. Sometimes they surface slowly, and other times they come up in ways that feel overwhelming or confusing. It can be hard to know what’s safe, what’s real, and how to handle what you’re experiencing when something begins to come to the surface.
In Episode 016 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry talk about what it can feel like when a memory is ready to be processed, and the many ways lost memories may return. They also talk about the importance of finding help and support along the way, reminding listeners that they don’t have to process these memories alone.

About the Hosts:
Kay Tolman and Kerry Hansher are both survivors of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). Beginning in childhood, the ritualistic trauma they endured led to a long and difficult journey toward healing, marked by struggles with anxiety, depression, suicidal ideation, and dissociative identity disorder (DID). Through many years of walking in healing and restoration with the Lord, Kay and Kerry have found freedom—and now dedicate their lives to helping other survivors who have been ignored, shamed, or ridiculed. Using the freedom God has given them, they offer hope, understanding, and practical support to those navigating this deeply complex and often misunderstood trauma.
To find additional resources on recovering from SRA or to learn how to minister to individuals healing from trauma, visit our website: http://rgmconnect.com or contact us at [email protected].

Resources:
Satanic Ritual Abuse Exposed (Kay’s Book): https://a.co/d/6QUrx5y
The Truth About False Memory Syndrome: https://a.co/d/078P2LmB

Follow Us:
Facebook: http://facebook.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries
Instagram: http://instagram.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries

Tags:
#TraumaRecovery #HealingFromTrauma #PTSDRecovery #MentalHealth #EmotionalHealing #InnerHealing #TraumaHealing #SelfCompassion #HealingJourney #MentalHealthAwareness
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49min
April 24, 2026 Sharing the Secret: Healing the Wounds of Shame (Ep. 015)
Shame often grows in silence, especially when it’s tied to hidden trauma. The things we feel we can’t say out loud can quietly shape how we see ourselves and keep us stuck in cycles of fear, secrecy, and self-blame.
In Episode 015 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry talk about what happens when those hidden places are brought into the light. They explore how sharing your story in a safe and supportive space can begin to loosen shame’s grip, and why it’s so important to identify the lies that formed in those painful moments.
About the Hosts:
Kay Tolman and Kerry Hansher are both survivors of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). Beginning in childhood, the ritualistic trauma they endured led to a long and difficult journey toward healing, marked by struggles with anxiety, depression, suicidal ideation, and dissociative identity disorder (DID). Through many years of walking in healing and restoration with the Lord, Kay and Kerry have found freedom—and now dedicate their lives to helping other survivors who have been ignored, shamed, or ridiculed. Using the freedom God has given them, they offer hope, understanding, and practical support to those navigating this deeply complex and often misunderstood trauma.
To find additional resources on recovering from SRA or to learn how to minister to individuals healing from trauma, visit our website: http://rgmconnect.com or contact us at [email protected].

Resources:
Satanic Ritual Abuse Exposed (Kay’s Book): https://a.co/d/6QUrx5y
Helping Victims of Sexual Abuse: https://a.co/d/0f6OficC
Good Boundaries and Goodbyes: https://a.co/d/04iLVWus
The Wounded Heart: https://a.co/d/044mZ1gb

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Facebook: http://facebook.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries
Instagram: http://instagram.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries

Tags:
#ToxicShame #HealingFromTrauma #TraumaRecovery #MentalHealth #InnerHealing #SelfWorth #EmotionalHealing #SelfCompassion #HealingJourney #SpeakYourTruth
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28min
April 03, 2026 Breaking Free from Self-Punishment: Why You Punish Yourself & How to Finally Stop (Ep. 014)
For many people, shame doesn’t just stay in our thoughts. It turns into a pattern of self-punishment. We carry the weight of what happened or what we believe we did wrong, and somewhere along the way, we begin to feel like we deserve to suffer for it.
In Episode 014 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry talk about how this cycle forms, how to recognize it in your own life, and why it can be so hard to let go of. They explore the connection between shame and the need to punish ourselves, and how we can finally break cycles of self-punishment and self-sabotage.

About the Hosts:
Kay Tolman and Kerry Hansher are both survivors of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). Beginning in childhood, the ritualistic trauma they endured led to a long and difficult journey toward healing, marked by struggles with anxiety, depression, suicidal ideation, and dissociative identity disorder (DID). Through many years of walking in healing and restoration with the Lord, Kay and Kerry have found freedom—and now dedicate their lives to helping other survivors who have been ignored, shamed, or ridiculed. Using the freedom God has given them, they offer hope, understanding, and practical support to those navigating this deeply complex and often misunderstood trauma.
To find additional resources on recovering from SRA or to learn how to minister to individuals healing from trauma, visit our website: http://rgmconnect.com or contact us at [email protected].

Resources:
Satanic Ritual Abuse Exposed (Kay’s Book): https://a.co/d/6QUrx5y

Follow Us:
Facebook: http://facebook.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries
Instagram: http://instagram.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries

Tags:
#SelfForgiveness #ToxicShame #HealingFromTrauma #TraumaRecovery #MentalHealth #InnerHealing #SelfWorth #EmotionalHealing #Forgiveness #HealingJourney
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32min
March 27, 2026 Overcoming a Shame-Based Identity: Who You Are vs. What Happened to You (Ep. 013)
After trauma, it’s easy for shame to take root and slowly shape the way we see ourselves. What starts as something that happened to us can begin to feel like something that defines us. In Episode 013 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry talk about how to recognize a shame-based identity and the ways it can quietly influence our thoughts, beliefs, and sense of worth.
They explore what it looks like to walk through the healing process with Jesus, gently untangling the lies that shame has built over time and rediscovering the identity God gave us long before trauma ever entered the picture. This episode is about learning to separate who you are from what happened to you, and taking steps toward seeing yourself through a lens of truth, not shame.
Chapters:
1:53 Shame
2:49 Shame Shapes Identity
7:19 The Words of Shame
12:52 Your Identity Before Shame
19:25 Kerry’s Experience
24:32 Who Do You Say You Are?

About the Hosts:
Kay Tolman and Kerry Hansher are both survivors of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). Beginning in childhood, the ritualistic trauma they endured led to a long and difficult journey toward healing, marked by struggles with anxiety, depression, suicidal ideation, and dissociative identity disorder (DID). Through many years of walking in healing and restoration with the Lord, Kay and Kerry have found freedom—and now dedicate their lives to helping other survivors who have been ignored, shamed, or ridiculed. Using the freedom God has given them, they offer hope, understanding, and practical support to those navigating this deeply complex and often misunderstood trauma.
To find additional resources on recovering from SRA or to learn how to minister to individuals healing from trauma, visit our website: http://rgmconnect.com or contact us at [email protected].

Resources:
Satanic Ritual Abuse Exposed (Kay’s Book): https://a.co/d/6QUrx5y

Follow Us:
Facebook: http://facebook.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries
Instagram: http://instagram.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries

Tags:
#ToxicShame #IdentityInChrist #HealingFromTrauma #TraumaRecovery #MentalHealth #InnerHealing #SelfWorth #EmotionalHealing #FaithAndHealing #HealingJourney #ShameFace
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32min
March 20, 2026 The Voice of Shame: How To Stop the Inner Abuser (Ep. 012)
Shame has a voice, and for many people who have experienced trauma, it can become loud and relentless. In this episode of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry talk about how toxic shame can take root after painful or traumatizing experiences, shaping the way we see ourselves and the stories we begin to believe about our own worth.
These internal messages often grow out of moments where something deeply painful happened, leading us to quietly accept the lie that what happened to us defined who we are. Thankfully, we can learn to recognize the voice of shame, challenge the lies it tells us, and slowly reclaim a healthier, more truthful understanding of who we are in Christ.

Chapters:
01:28 Identifying Shame
06:08 Why We Feel Shame
11:57 The Types of Shame
19:34 The Voice of Shame
22:16 How To Overcome Shame

About the Hosts:
Kay Tolman and Kerry Hansher are both survivors of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). Beginning in childhood, the ritualistic trauma they endured led to a long and difficult journey toward healing, marked by struggles with anxiety, depression, suicidal ideation, and dissociative identity disorder (DID). Through many years of walking in healing and restoration with the Lord, Kay and Kerry have found freedom—and now dedicate their lives to helping other survivors who have been ignored, shamed, or ridiculed. Using the freedom God has given them, they offer hope, understanding, and practical support to those navigating this deeply complex and often misunderstood trauma.
To find additional resources on recovering from SRA or to learn how to minister to individuals healing from trauma, visit our website: http://rgmconnect.com or contact us at [email protected].

Resources:
Satanic Ritual Abuse Exposed (Kay’s Book): https://a.co/d/6QUrx5y
Helping Victims of Sexual Abuse: https://a.co/d/0f6OficC

Follow Us:
Facebook: http://facebook.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries
Instagram: http://instagram.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries

Tags:
#ToxicShame #HealingFromTrauma #MentalHealth #TraumaRecovery #InnerHealing #SelfWorth #EmotionalHealing #PTSDRecovery #SelfCompassion #HealingJourney #ShameSpeaks
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31min
March 13, 2026 The Truth About Sexual Abuse in the Catholic Church (Ep. 011)
There are many rumors surrounding sexual abuse in the Catholic Church, but finding clear statistics about it can be surprisingly difficult. In Episode 011 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry take a deep dive into the reality of sexual abuse within religious settings. They talk about the complicated position many survivors find themselves in when their abuse comes from someone who has spiritual authority in the church. It takes significant courage and strength to speak up or report the abuse when leadership is involved.
Confronting this kind of abuse isn’t easy, and survivors are often shamed or gaslit into silence. But telling the truth, even when it may come at great cost, can be the first step toward freedom and healing.

Chapters:
01:24 Sexual Abuse in the Church
02:44 Stats & Facts
07:29 Healing After Injustice
08:59 More Statistics
16:31 Cover-Ups and Closed Ranks
18:40 It’s Not Just Children
22:24 Abuse in Religious Settings
25:14 Speaking the Truth
28:46 Overcoming Inner Conflict After Abuse

About the Hosts:
Kay Tolman and Kerry Hansher are both survivors of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). Beginning in childhood, the ritualistic trauma they endured led to a long and difficult journey toward healing, marked by struggles with anxiety, depression, suicidal ideation, and dissociative identity disorder (DID). Through many years of walking in healing and restoration with the Lord, Kay and Kerry have found freedom—and now dedicate their lives to helping other survivors who have been ignored, shamed, or ridiculed. Using the freedom God has given them, they offer hope, understanding, and practical support to those navigating this deeply complex and often misunderstood trauma.
To find additional resources on recovering from SRA or to learn how to minister to individuals healing from trauma, visit our website: http://rgmconnect.com or contact us at [email protected].

Resources:
Satanic Ritual Abuse Exposed (Kay’s Book): https://a.co/d/6QUrx5y
Suffering and the Heart of God: https://a.co/d/02ESvDGx
Sexual Abuse In The Church Statistics: https://gitnux.org/sexual-abuse-in-church-statistics/

Follow Us:
Facebook: http://facebook.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries
Instagram: http://instagram.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries

Tags:
#Trauma #Healing #MentalHealth #TraumaRecovery #AbuseSurvivor #EmotionalAbuse #Gaslighting #PTSD #MentalHealthAwareness #Abuse #ChurchAbuse
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38min
March 06, 2026 How Do I Trust God After Trauma? (Ep. 010)
Trauma has a way of shaking the very foundation of our faith. When you’ve been deeply hurt, especially in ways that feel unjust or unanswered, trusting God can feel confusing, fragile, or even impossible. In Episode 10 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry explore the idea that God does not demand blind trust from wounded hearts. Instead, He works to earn our trust by being loving, long-suffering, and patient with us as we walk through our healing journey. They unpack what it looks like to bring your doubts and hard questions into the light rather than suppressing them. Healing often begins with giving yourself permission to wrestle with God.

Chapters:
01:24 Restoring A Relationship with God
07:49 Being Mad at God
08:36 Where is God During Trauma?
11:24 We Always Have A Choice
17:48 The Internal Conflict
19:08 The Character & Nature of God
23:13 The Names of God
33:17 Trusting God After Trauma
42:49 Healing the Breach

About the Hosts:
Kay Tolman and Kerry Hansher are both survivors of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). Beginning in childhood, the ritualistic trauma they endured led to a long and difficult journey toward healing, marked by struggles with anxiety, depression, suicidal ideation, and dissociative identity disorder (DID). Through many years of walking in healing and restoration with the Lord, Kay and Kerry have found freedom—and now dedicate their lives to helping other survivors who have been ignored, shamed, or ridiculed. Using the freedom God has given them, they offer hope, understanding, and practical support to those navigating this deeply complex and often misunderstood trauma.
To find additional resources on recovering from SRA or to learn how to minister to individuals healing from trauma, visit our website: http://rgmconnect.com or contact us at [email protected].

Resources:
Satanic Ritual Abuse Exposed (Kay’s Book): https://a.co/d/6QUrx5y
He Loves Me: https://a.co/d/02ZhErqh

Follow Us:
Facebook: http://facebook.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries
Instagram: http://instagram.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries

Tags:
#TraumaRecovery #SpiritualAbuse #HealingAfterAbuse #TrustingGod #SpiritualHealing #MentalHealthAwareness #SRA
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48min
February 27, 2026 Surviving Spiritual Abuse: Healing After Scripture Was Used to Harm You (Ep. 009)
Spiritual abuse is one of the most confusing and devastating forms of harm because it uses something sacred against the very people it claims to protect. In Episode 009 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry step into the difficult but necessary conversation about what happens when faith is weaponized—when Scripture is twisted, manipulated, or used to control, silence, or shame.
Many who have endured this kind of abuse find themselves not only wounded by people in positions of authority, but they also struggle to trust God. When Scripture has been used to harm you, even opening a Bible or walking into a church can feel unsafe. But there is hope! If you or someone you love has experienced faith used as a weapon, this conversation offers validation, clarity, and hope that freedom is possible.

Chapters:
02:44 What is Spiritual Abuse?
03:31 Religious Abuse
10:32 Ministering to the Spiritually Abused
17:22 Self-Sabotage Behavior
20:16 The Perversion of Scripture
26:18 A Survivor’s Story
33:10 Hope, Healing, and Resources

About the Hosts:
Kay Tolman and Kerry Hansher are both survivors of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). Beginning in childhood, the ritualistic trauma they endured led to a long and difficult journey toward healing, marked by struggles with anxiety, depression, suicidal ideation, and dissociative identity disorder (DID). Through many years of walking in healing and restoration with the Lord, Kay and Kerry have found freedom—and now dedicate their lives to helping other survivors who have been ignored, shamed, or ridiculed. Using the freedom God has given them, they offer hope, understanding, and practical support to those navigating this deeply complex and often misunderstood trauma.
To find additional resources on recovering from SRA or to learn how to minister to individuals healing from trauma, visit our website: http://rgmconnect.com or contact us at [email protected].

Resources:
Satanic Ritual Abuse Exposed (Kay’s Book): https://a.co/d/6QUrx5y
Suffering and the Heart of God: https://a.co/d/02ESvDGx

Follow Us:
Facebook: http://facebook.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries
Instagram: http://instagram.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries

Tags:
#TraumaRecovery #EmotionalHealing #ChristianLife #SpiritualAbuse #ChurchHurt #ReligiousTrauma #HealingAfterAbuse #TrustingGod #SpiritualHealing #MentalHealthAwareness
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43min
February 20, 2026 Trauma in the Church: When Silence Equals Consent (Ep. 008)
Trauma in the church is not something we like to talk about, but it’s something we can’t afford to ignore. In Episode 008 of A Door of Hope, Kay and Kerry discuss how tempting it can be, even as Christians, to look away from painful situations or offer a quick Scripture instead of sitting with someone in their hurt. But showing up for one another isn’t optional. As those called to be the hands and feet of Jesus—to be “Christ with skin on”—we are invited to step into the hard places, to listen well, and to help carry the weight for our brothers and sisters who may be quietly struggling with unbearable trauma.

Chapters:
01:55 Suffering and the Church
08:22 The Fellowship of His Sufferings
10:21 “Throwing Scriptures” at the Wounded
13:12 How To Be a Good Listener
16:14 The Silent Scream
21:38 Christians and Anger
23:51 When To Voice Trauma
26:32 The Hope for Healing

About the Hosts:
Kay Tolman and Kerry Hansher are both survivors of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). Beginning in childhood, the ritualistic trauma they endured led to a long and difficult journey toward healing, marked by struggles with anxiety, depression, suicidal ideation, and dissociative identity disorder (DID). Through many years of walking in healing and restoration with the Lord, Kay and Kerry have found freedom—and now dedicate their lives to helping other survivors who have been ignored, shamed, or ridiculed. Using the freedom God has given them, they offer hope, understanding, and practical support to those navigating this deeply complex and often misunderstood trauma.
To find additional resources on recovering from SRA or to learn how to minister to individuals healing from trauma, visit our website: http://rgmconnect.com or contact us at [email protected].

Resources:
Satanic Ritual Abuse Exposed (Kay’s Book): https://a.co/d/6QUrx5y
A Letter to the American Church: https://a.co/d/02PnCbXu
Suffering and the Heart of God: https://a.co/d/02ESvDGx

Follow Us:
Facebook: http://facebook.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries
Instagram: http://instagram.com/RevelationGatewayMinistries

Tags:
#TraumaRecovery #HealingJourney #SelfCare #FaithAndHealing #ChristianLife #SpiritualGrowth #EmotionalHealing #HopeAndHealing #ChurchHurt
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34min

FAQs about A Door of Hope:

How many episodes does A Door of Hope have?

The podcast currently has 17 episodes available.