Yeah I was kinda slacking this week because there's been so much going on. Like idk where to start lol

This episode is late so you're getting a two for one.

Sometimes we build friendships with others surrounded by darkness. Ask yourself, is that what you really want? A friend who only sees you in your darkest hour?

I never really put much thought into explaining the depths in which I am a person. That is until someone called me out for being inauthentic. That which I understood wasn't a jab - but a direct result of how little anyone actually knows anyone.

I asked my significant other: What are my core interest?

He honestly gave me a surface level - literal interpretation of skin. This made me realize that I have spent entirely too long engaging in conversations that serve me no purpose. I spent entirely too long allowing people to only come to know me at the surface. Let's be honest here, most people don't give a shit about you. They don't actually want to know you below the surface. They'd sooner learn about the idea of you that makes them the most comfortable. It is in this fact I have come to find the truth.

Discovering this Intracranial hypertension hasn't changed me, but the stigma around any illness is problematic. Being a black woman, I'm supposed to be strong and happy all the time and it's just not happening.

I've had a busy few weeks. I'd like to thank that's a good thing, but it could be avoidance. I'm really good at that.

Had my spinal tap and other life stuff!

Nothing of value have really happened this year, outside of expensive medical bills, my mother move, doing taxes, and the occasional creeps who masturbate to my voice. You know normal things.

Yea. My ex's are like cockroaches, if a nuclear explosion were to happen I'm pretty sure they would survive.

It's been such a long year