I feel that I have to make some changes in how I live my life. I have to put more focus on my happiness and making myself feel good. I have to be less focused on how everyone else feels and that's hard, it's how I've lived for all these years.

I don't like feeling this way. Time to find a way to turn things around and change my thinking.

I won't let this Cricut project win. I usually give up on things, but I'm determined to stick with it. 

Dirty windows and plans for the day.

I am rethinking my decision to make a YouTube Channel. I don't think that I can handle the drama and the attacks that come with it.

Today is my daughter's birthday, I have to pick up her cake today. I hope it's a good and happy day for all. 

I've been pushing myself to get out and get to the store, it isn't easy, but I have to go today. The longer I give in to these feelings the harder it will be to overcome them. Time to get dressed and get out. 

Walmart has Clorox toilet cleaning refills and the wand for $132.00 and their are only two left. Who is paying this much money? I get it, it's one of their third party sellers, but still....Go to BJ's, it's only $16.99 and you get more. I'm trying to get motivated for the day. It feels a bit blah since the holidays are over. I'm going to try to stay busy and productive. 

I have some anxiety this morning, but I'm going to try to enjoy the day. Deconstructed stuffed cabbage rolls are so good, give them a try. I put ketchup on mine and it's so good. Takes me back to childhood. My mom used to make them. Now I need an easier recipe for stuffed grape leaves. I have not made them in so long. I kind of want stuffed grape leaves and Armenian pizza. Maybe next weekend. 

Hoping for a safe healthy, happy year for all. Trying to start the year with positivity we'll see how that goes.