CW: This episode discusses suicide, attempted suicide, depression, substance use, and themes of self-harm. Listener discretion advised.

In 1990, Judas Priest stood trial in a Nevada courtroom. Not for drugs. Not for violence. Not for anything they physically did.

But for what their music supposedly said.

Two young men attempted suicide after spending hours listening to the band’s song “Better by You, Better Than Me.” Their families believed hidden subliminal messages in the track pushed them over the edge.

What follows is a lawsuit that combined grief, fear, culture wars, and the lingering shadow of the Satanic Panic. 

In this episode, Heather unpacks what really happened. We talk about subliminal messaging, moral responsibility, and why we so often search for something external to blame. 

Sources:

• Pazder, Lawrence & Smith, Michelle. Michelle Remembers. Congdon & Weed, 1980.https://archive.org/details/michelleremembers00pazd
• de Becker, Gavin. The Gift of Fear. Little, Brown and Company, 1997.https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/56465.The_Gift_of_Fear
• McNally, Richard J. Remembering Trauma. Harvard University Press, 2003.https://www.hup.harvard.edu/books/9780674016764
• Wright, Gary. Dream Weaver: A Memoir. Da Capo Press, 2014.https://www.hachettebookgroup.com/titles/gary-wright/dream-weaver/9780306822374/
• Loftus, Elizabeth F. “Creating False Memories.” Scientific American, 1997.https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/creating-false-memories/
• Liu, Jia & Kanwisher, Nancy. “The Perception of Face-Like Objects.” Psychological Science, 2014.https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/10.1177/0956797614524583
• American Psychological Association. “Questions and Answers About Memories of Childhood Abuse.”https://www.apa.org/monitor/may01/memorie
• McMartin Preschool Trial Overview – Los Angeles County District Attorney’s Office.https://da.lacounty.gov/media/news/mcmartin-preschool-case
• California Court of Appeal Records (McMartin-related cases).https://law.justia.com/cases/california/
• Vance v. Judas Priest, Nevada Supreme Court Opinion (1992).https://law.justia.com/cases/nevada/supreme-court/1992/22575-1.html

CW: This episode discusses adult themes, including sexuality and coercion, sexual and labor trafficking, and sexual abuse. Not appropriate for children. Listener discretion advised.

OneTaste was marketed as a path to awakening, empowerment, and liberation, but in actuality was sexual coercion and exploitation that led the founders to federal court. This episode examines a notable shift in accountability for the wellness world and what this ruling means for systems that sustain abuse. When do healing containers become exploitative systems? How can the law interpret psychological coercion? And what responsibility do leaders carry when empowerment language becomes a tool of control? A reflective discussion on accountability, cult dynamics, and what it means for wellness spaces to be held responsible for the harm they cause.

Supportive Material: Orgasmic Inc. Documentary. Netflix

In 1930s Key West, a man calling himself Dr. Carl Tanzler believed fate had promised him a woman he'd seen in childhood visions. When he met Elena Milagro de Hoyos, she was alive... and battling tuberculosis. After her death, he did not accept the loss. What happened next went far beyond mourning.

In this episode, Heather explores obsession disguised as devotion, the shocking lengths Tanzler went to preserve Elena's body, and the unsettling fact that parts of the community sympathized with him. Was this the unraveling of one man's mind, or a reflection of a culture willing to romanticize something profoundly disturbing?

Sources

“Carl Tanzler.” Wikipedia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carl_Tanzler

“Anna Constantia von Brockdorff.” Wikipedia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anna_Constantia_von_Brockdorff

“Carl von Cosel.” American Hauntings Ink. https://www.americanhauntingsink.com/voncosel/

“The Strange, True Story of Carl Tanzler.” Smithsonian Magazine.

“Carl Tanzler, the Man Who Lived with a Corpse.” Atlas Obscura.

Slatalla, Michelle. The New York Times. Historical reporting on the Carl Tanzler case.

Key West Historical Society Archives.

In 1930s Key West, a man calling himself Dr. Carl Tanzler believed fate had promised him a woman he’d seen in childhood visions. When he met Elena Milagro de Hoyos, she was alive... and battling tuberculosis. After her death, he did not accept the loss.

What happened next went far beyond mourning.

In this episode, Heather explores obsession disguised as devotion, the shocking lengths Tanzler went to preserve Elena’s body, and the unsettling fact that parts of the community sympathized with him. Was this the unraveling of one man’s mind, or a reflection of a culture willing to romanticize something profoundly disturbing?

Sources

• “Carl Tanzler.” Wikipedia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carl_Tanzler

• “Anna Constantia von Brockdorff.” Wikipedia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anna_Constantia_von_Brockdorff

• “Carl von Cosel.” American Hauntings Ink. https://www.americanhauntingsink.com/voncosel/

• “The Strange, True Story of Carl Tanzler.” Smithsonian Magazine.

• “Carl Tanzler, the Man Who Lived with a Corpse.” Atlas Obscura.

• Slatalla, Michelle. The New York Times. Historical reporting on the Carl Tanzler case.

• Key West Historical Society Archives.

CW: Brief mentions of child abuse and SA.

In this follow-up episode, we discuss the case of a man now known as “The Rain Boy,” Donnie Decker, who became the center of an odd 1983 case in which witnesses claimed water appeared inside with no clear source. Rather than asking only what happened, this episode, Jeri walks us through a different curiosity: what can happen when the body's survival responses are activated and unresolved? Through the lens of fight, flight, freeze, and fawn, we explore how humans successfully metabolize and/or struggle to metabolize extreme emotional experiences, all anchored in a phenomenon-based theory of how those processes may shape what and how we perceive things.

Ed and Lorraine Warren are two of the most recognizable names in paranormal history. Demonologists, ghost hunters, and the couple behind some of the most famous haunting cases of the 20th century. But before the movies, the mythology, and the merch, they were just two people who found each other and built something much bigger than themselves. In this episode, Heather traces how the Warrens met, how their partnership formed, and how they transformed into the supernatural powerhouses that would shape modern paranormal culture. From early investigations to the creation of their public image, we break down what was real, what was strategic, and what was carefully cultivated…allegedly. 

We also address the more recent scandalous rumors surrounding Ed Warren. Why they resurfaced years later, where the claims came from, and how they complicate the legacy.

Join Heather and Jeri for a deep dive into how belief, ambition, faith, and controversy collided, and how the Warrens became legends.

Sources:

About the Warrens. Warrens.net, NESPR. https://warrens.net/about/

Kranc, Lauren. “The New Conjuring Movie Is Based on the Real Story of a Murderer Who Claimed He Was Possessed.” Esquire, June 4, 2021. https://www.esquire.com/entertainment/movies/a36634853/true-story-the-conjuring-the-devil-made-me-do-it/

Fact or Fearmongering? Dissecting the Warrens’ Novels. USGhostAdventures.com, April 8, 2024. https://usghostadventures.com/haunted-stories/fact-or-fearmongering-dissecting-the-warrens-novels/

Harvey, Austin. "The Disturbing Allegations Of Ed And Lorraine Warren’s Abuse And The Evidence Behind Them." AllThatsInteresting.com, October 23, 2024, https://allthatsinteresting.com/ed-and-lorraine-warren-abuse
“By Demons Possessed,” The Washington Post, Lynn Darling, September 13, 1981. Originally published as “By Demons Possessed: It Began in a Dream House and Ended in Death.” Accessed Jan 2, 2025

What... or who is the Hat Man, and why do so many people describe the same figure? In Part 1 of this two-part series, Jeri explores the Hat Man phenomenon: a shadowy “watcher” reported across cultures and decades. We look at what people consistently report, why these encounters often happen in liminal states like sleep paralysis, half-awake moments, exhaustion, and high fear, and how stress may shape perception.

Editor's note: This episode has a notably different audio quality, and it has been resolved. Apologies from the team for the poor quality and delayed publishing, but we wanted to release it for you all regardless. -Heather + Jeri

CW: This episode includes discussion of child death, addiction (alcoholism and drug use), and mental health crisis, as well as death, grief, and occult themes. Listener discretion advised.

Led Zeppelin didn’t just reshape rock music; they became wrapped in something far darker. Tragedy, strange coincidences, and enduring rumors have fueled the legend of the so-called Curse of Led Zeppelin for decades.

In this episode, we examine where myth ends and history begins. From the band’s use of occult symbolism to the personal obsessions that blurred artistry and belief, we explore how mysticism became part of Led Zeppelin’s identity. At the center of it all looms one controversial figure whose influence on counterculture is impossible to ignore: Aleister Crowley.

Was this simply provocative imagery, or did fascination with the occult invite something darker? We unpack the stories, the tragedies, and why this legend refuses to fade.

Sources: 

• Encyclopædia Britannica. “Aleister Crowley | Biography, Teachings, Reputation, & Facts.” Britannica, November 6 2025. https://www.britannica.com/biography/Aleister-Crowley

• “Boleskine House.” Wikipedia, The Free Enclyclopedia. Retrieved November 19 2025, from https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Boleskine_House#CITEREFWall2010

• Banulescu, Eduard. “Jimmy Page’s Occult Interests: From Alchemical Symbols to Aleister Crowley.” Alt77, February 1 2024. https://alt77.com/jimmy-page-occult-interests/ 
  
• The Revolver Club. “The Curse of Led Zeppelin.” The Revolver Club, 18 April 2024. https://www.therevolverclub.com/blogs/the-revolver-club/the-curse-of-led-zeppelin?srsltid=AfmBOopCCb86uUIQoc-RD784hXlku5mnX17TnbAB1xAha9_Ua-KUpACc

CW: This episode includes discussion of suicide, mental health crises, emotional abuse, and coercive or controlling dynamics in spiritual spaces. Listen with care.

In this episode, we take a deep look at Teal Swan; her rise as a spiritual influencer, the community that formed around her, and the serious concerns raised by former followers, journalists, and mental-health professionals.

Drawing from long-form investigations, documentaries, and Teal Swan’s own published content, Heather walks us through how language, authority, and vulnerability can intersect in powerful and dangerous ways. We discuss the ethical responsibility of spiritual leaders, the blurred lines between self-help and control, and why certain teachings raise red flags when viewed through the lens of trauma-informed psychology, consent, and harm reduction.

This episode centers on accountability, critical thinking, and compassion for those impacted. We believe belief systems deserve examination, especially when they hold real-world consequences.

Sources:

“The Deep End.” Wikipedia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Deep_End_(2022_TV_series)

“The Gateway: Teal Swan.” Gizmodo. https://gizmodo.com/tag/the-gateway

“Teal Swan.” YouTube. https://www.youtube.com/@TealSwanOfficial

CW: This episode includes discussion of postpartum psychosis, suicidality, psychiatric hospitalization, and child death. No graphic details are included. Listener discretion is advised.

This episode examines the case of Andrea Yates, a mother whose dismissed postpartum psychosis led to the deaths of her five children in 2001. Jeri guides Heather and listeners through how severe mental illness, ignored medical warnings, lack of community, rigid gender roles, and fear-based religious pressure converged into a catastrophic systemic failure. Through a trauma-informed lens, this episode unpacks what postpartum psychosis is and why protecting maternal mental health, as a society, is critical.

Sources + Resources:

• ​Andrea Yates – Wikipedia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andrea_Yates
• ​Texas v. Yates (2002; 2006 retrial) – Court records summarized in major reporting and academic reviews.

• ​National Center for Biotechnology Information (NCBI) Postpartum Psychosis: A Review.
• ​Psychiatry Online (American Psychiatric Association) https://psychiatryonline.orghttps://www.uptodate.com
• ​Michael Woroniecki – Wikipedia.https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Michael_Woroniecki
• ​Guidelines on psychosis, mood disorders, and forensic evaluations. https://www.psychiatry.org

Postpartum Support International (PSI) https://www.postpartum.net

National Maternal Mental Health Hotline (U.S.) 1-833-TLC-MAMA (1-833-852-6262)https://mchb.hrsa.gov