An Inconceivable Life

Did a bit of creative writing, re-thought Neos MBTI type, lots of insignificant social events, putting plants in my room for coolness, Neos two day birthday party, a great rain walk, planned so many trips this summer, finding paid surveys and great comics.

Getting mega addicted to baldur's gate 3, learning quantum physics, having genus thoughts, airsoft, saint patty's day drinking, becoming sick with something and not getting sleep because of it, spending time with all the peoples, going on a spontaneous blade, medieval cage fight viewing, a pointless ER visit. Raging against doctors. Hurting myself through sports.

Revealing all the hard inner work I did, cookies are evil, nuns are cool, spent 4 days at a monastery fasting, getting mega skinny for a hot sec, enjoying food like never before, chess games, getting a ticket, good jake talks and most significantly, meow wolf!

Epic snow walks, Losing in racquetball SO hard, Zack is here from NZ, feeling my cancer for the first time, elders praying over me, riding in a Lamborghinis, started a new chemo regimen, cried in front of grace for the first time in my life and did much socialising.

Chipping my tooth in a stupid way, lots of stuff with friends, using my ENFJ spider sense, starting my ‘get RIPPED’ program, being a surrogate boyfriend, trying yoga for the first time, STILL having cancer, ranting about godel's incompleteness theorem, discovering EPIC, jake stepping down as life update narrator, and reading for AGES.

Many a frisbee golf game, meeting new nerds, kava bar, many pill boxes, beating people in queenless chess, shooting ALL the real guns, shooting all the fake guns, being the Sadducee you’re sad you didn’t see and getting to be sexist as part of a ‘bit’, the meeting of the great minds, a great night out with william and Matthew, street racing johanna (and winning ; D), killing karina with my Te, magic deck building, much working out, Long IV C conversations, a bad LoR anime, home brew christmas with the grace gang, Taxidermied rat as the best white elephant gift, early christmas with the fam, reaching 3.5 speed on spotify podcasts, and getting a 3D printer!

Big brain reperspectiving problems, talking with cancer docs, the Varleys arrive in the states! Many good conversations with my typical friends, many good conversations with the imported friends but especially william, various big fun group hang outs, cooking eggs on a rock, so many pills, Joe's birthday party, lots of cancer reading, watching drama, SO much Intravenous Vitamin C, revising all my magic decks, a thanksgiving without small talk (hallelujah!), hiking with molly, best conversation I’ve had in years with william, and saratoga hot springs.

MD Anderson trip of death, big good and fancy airport lounge, hanging out with many friends on many occasions. Lots of vibe sessions, super laborious pill boxes BUT got help from ray james, got a new oncologist, some good magic, tons of racquetball, katie being a kingly man, lots of cancer reading and some of it was WACK, games in the CSU library, the worst texas trip ever, absolute waste of life, being on a keto diet, missed flight, waiting exorbitant amount of food, lots of new music, learning I have biceps, taxing and ubering for the first time, flower lego sets, starting IV C, mental reprogramming, garbage estes trip, Great news, dreaming again, meeting big smart cancer doc, printing out my whole life history, and fire in a cave.

AI is going crazy and I’m riding the wave. My modified cancer plan, hanging with the LMT people, the worst I’ve ever felt emotionally, being a fancy pant-y dancy man, SO much cancer research, a bunch of new magic cards and the work that comes with looking through them, getting back on my feet after feeling garbage emotionally, pivoting my cancer plan, learning a ton, getting access to the drug black market, super time consuming pill boxes, lots of racquetball, laser tag, and being social once more.

Some thoughts on the nature of empathy, perfecting my nuts, backyard concerts, speed seek, lots of racquetball with benj, rollerblading, good star gazing, the ESFJ talk, a good amount of cancer research, my first LMT hangout, running like a beast, graces 18th birthday party (so much fun), and good walks in beautiful fall weather.