Anonymity, juicy, consequences, and connected to your purpose. So so so many reasons, too complex, glad you started, and drilling deeper. Everything you have, your place in all of this madness, you get to, and you will.

Recreated, already said it, heartburn, and all that jazz. Reinforce, remind, and recognize. Cat snores, superior floor patch, and worse for wear. Holding your sanity together and take note.

Stuffy. Presentable, a million things all wrapped into one, middle of the night moment, and I don’t know why it’s a bean. Hangover of major destabilization, lead in my veins, and raggedy. Procession of events, cue tears, and a workout ish. It’s hard in the middle, construction zone, raw, and cringey.

“Comfortable with Uncertainty” by Pema Chödrön. Resolution, whatever arises, and ambiguity. Staying open, fruition, not good enough, and oriented to the present. Unconditional.

Giggling, creatures, and betrayal. Acknowledgment, the ashes left behind, and shaky at best. Treacherous, how how how, and hollow. Not about fixing, reorienting, north star, and different every time.

Hiding. Weight, shine too bright, won’t match, and autopilot. Pause moments, full extent, call ourselves out, and how I breathe. Belittle, undesirable, and part of the herd. Wired to survive, safety blanket, glimmers, just a little off, and a barrier.

This is part three! Head back to Episode 2:218 > 2:219 > here for it to make more sense. Responsibility. Thrust upon us, chop this all up, based on fear/love, and frickin fitness example. Good enough, work ish, how I feel, and not ours to carry. Out of our control, tasks, sticky to remove, the things that I gain, and stepping towards. You are allowed to grieve.

Notice. A draft, stable and secure, and will it be different. Doesn’t trust me, ashamed, and being brave. Time is passing, annoyed at not making sense, and more of myself on the line. I will get some things wrong, burn that to the ground too, and they got me here. Character arc, grunt, and while I was cleaning my kitchen...(This was part two - Part one is the previous episode, 2:18!)

Unprecedented, frazzled, and at what cost. Rules. Small steps, excuses, working different muscles, and our arsenal. Patience, 100% mine, and three in one. Still don’t know how I feel about it…

Mentally not winning any Olympic gold medals this week. Feeling low and the guilt, the missing out, and the disappointment. It’s hard to make sense, reality check, and not texting them back. Brain is hibernating, knowing better, and the weird and simple joys.