This is Word of God presents Gratitude:UnFiltered III with host Joshua T Berglan.. Please welcome our special guest, Sakira Baez!
It wasn’t long before I got pregnant with my oldest daughter. I was actively involved in witchcraft and had been doing candle spells for prosperity when I got pregnant. She is now 21. Her father was not excited about my getting pregnant. He was a very good friend that I had been hanging out with for almost a year. It was unexpected but not a curse by any sense of the word. It made me buckle down and really look at my life. While I was pregnant, I thought of her and what was best for her.
I met a man, John, when I was 6 weeks pregnant that would have a substantial impact on my life for better or worse. He was 14 years older than I was and the son of a commercial real estate investor and realtor. I was 20 at the time and frankly tired of being poor. He was attractive and was very generous. I told him right away I was pregnant and it made no difference to him at the time.
He was smart and logical and began to talk to me about the future of my daughter. His sister was a counselor who had worked for an open adoption agency. I knew even though I wasn’t in God’s will at the time, the precious life that grew inside of me not just deserved life but an abundant life and I would do anything in my power to make sure she had it. I set up an appointment at just 3 months of pregnancy to begin the process of counseling and looking for parents. I knew under the circumstances that she needed stability and security, things I could not offer while I was going to school. I also knew I did not have the family support I would need to raise a child alone. I knew from my own experience the rejection, humility, and hurt I had experienced with divorce, remarriage, and living with different relatives for different seasons and reasons. I wanted so much more for her and I was willing to be rejected by my family to protect her from those situations that I knew would be inevitable if I kept her with me.
The couple I chose came down two to New Mexico two weeks before I was due. Baby girl was two weeks late, so I got to know them pretty well during that time period. They told me in the hospital they would understand if I wanted to keep her. I told them that there comes a time in your life when you know what you want and you know what is right. Of course, I wanted to keep her but I knew in my heart that she needed more than what I had to offer her. Her father and I signed away our parental rights a week later. Three months after I had her, I wondered what his infatuation was with this drug cocaine. He was a habitual user. I tried it and that began my downward spiral into the life of an addict.
It wasn’t long before I got pregnant with my oldest daughter. I was actively involved in witchcraft and had been doing candle spells for prosperity when I got pregnant. She is now 21. Her father was not excited about my getting pregnant. He was a very good friend that I had been hanging out with for almost a year. It was unexpected but not a curse by any sense of the word. It made me buckle down and really look at my life. While I was pregnant, I thought of her and what was best for her.
I met a man, John, when I was 6 weeks pregnant that would have a substantial impact on my life for better or worse. He was 14 years older than I was and the son of a commercial real estate investor and realtor. I was 20 at the time and frankly tired of being poor. He was attractive and was very generous. I told him right away I was pregnant and it made no difference to him at the time.
He was smart and logical and began to talk to me about the future of my daughter. His sister was a counselor who had worked for an open adoption agency. I knew even though I wasn’t in God’s will at the time, the precious life that grew inside of me not just deserved life but an abundant life and I would do anything in my power to make sure she had it. I set up an appointment at just 3 months of pregnancy to begin the process of counseling and looking for parents. I knew under the circumstances that she needed stability and security, things I could not offer while I was going to school. I also knew I did not have the family support I would need to raise a child alone. I knew from my own experience the rejection, humility, and hurt I had experienced with divorce, remarriage, and living with different relatives for different seasons and reasons. I wanted so much more for her and I was willing to be rejected by my family to protect her from those situations that I knew would be inevitable if I kept her with me.
The couple I chose came down two to New Mexico two weeks before I was due. Baby girl was two weeks late, so I got to know them pretty well during that time period. They told me in the hospital they….
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