I did everything right for a year and a half. Weight lifting four times a week, drinking my water, meditating, hitting my protein. And the scale said I was up 15 pounds.
This episode is about what happens when discipline isn’t enough to fix the problem. It’s the one where you’ve done everything the way you were supposed to and it still hasn’t resolved. I’m talking about my relationship with food and my body, from a health coach telling me I was doing everything right, to the first Easter in over a decade I didn’t binge eat, to ten months on GLP-1s and still wanting a Papa John’s cookie pizza.
No tidy ending here. Just the truth of what it looks like to keep trying anyway.
Full essay on Substack here.