no more love triangles for me. i will be happy to be out of that.  i am not sure why but i already get this feeling elon is making connections with amanda seyfried. it looks like she is married too. but you guys do all of that stuff up there. which i wouldnt be with.  you never know who is together and who is not.    so to me, this is not what the internet is for.   love triangles    is the internet one big dating app called internet 

she does have children, elon may only exclusively date people with children these days   

but hopefully this will be the last love triangle.  im sorry elon     i cant do that anymore 

these people believe they are the final authority on the truth so that is why they are following me around: kari jobe, all those people i was talking about earlier.   i dont agree with their worldviews. so i am out.   i hope they will go away  and not do anything creepy like pop up on my front yard or   in some way that is an overreach.  i have written them off completely personally. and now at this point, it is very scary.  if i didnt write the name here  , it is just the people i was talking about earlier any of those people.  

its your journey elon. not mine. ok?  you gotta go on your own now. i will be around like all the other people somewhere else.  but i still will watch the space stuff.  doh! face slap!  you thought you were being nice to me doh!  what an idiot.  bye idiot. finally shit it took you way too long.

i am a bit sleep deprived, but i do wonder how far this will go with them.  i dont have any money to do anything. 

im not really intersted in including kari jobe or gateway in to my conversation from this point on. as far as i am concerned, i dont have anything to do with them. they will not be able to go from city to city to find people there to reach out to them about me though.   that would mean they are using a lot of money to follow me around to humiliate me which is not church like, 2  it is illegal to run people out of places    it does seem to matter to these guys that i am what i am   all they care about is their reputation i think      they are sitting big up there but it makes me kind of gag 

i dont know elon, but i would tell him, it seems all those people that were crowding around you  are glad that i cut ties with you  because they want to be around you and support you    they dont want me there     i guess elon is probably the one that reached out to them to ask about me being on twitter    that is the only thing i can think. then when he reached out, it just became a country club for them. that is the  vibe i get   its fine if elon wants support   but maybe im asking you all to stay away from ripping out my nails or whatever ripping everything off or out  anything that can be ripped out or off  you rip 

i think  there are all these religious people talking to elon, that turned him away from being interested in me.  i dont really want to write their names, because it gives them more attention, but the way this went, with all of them acting like they dont know me,  to me it is kind of like a gang rape. but it is pretty much any famous religoius person you can think of.  robert morris, kari jobe probably gave him advice on how to marry shivon instead of grimes, i get that vibe, kind of girl  competition like that, i dont think kari jobe believes she did anything wrong  , it is the only explanation for why they are still doing these things,  probably pretty much any famous religious person. i think francis chan,  matt chandler who is discombobulated from brain cancer, lecrae, may be the worst of them. any of them, joel smallbone all those guys.  just kind of they all ganged up to give advice to elon  but were like    yea  you shouldnt talk to that girl that got on line   after gateway           the reason lecrae is listed is because he is friends with someone named tedashi.   i lived with a lady named barbara douglas a long time ago. it was a very bad situation. but after awhile, she told me she knew tedashi and his family because they lived down the street.  she asked me if i wanted to meet them.  i told her no.   i am not sure if she followed up with tedashi to tell him i didnt want to meet them, but if tedashi and his family noticed me, and asked barbara to ask me if i wanted to meet them, and then i said no,  i have thought maybe tedashi may have targeted me because of that.  she told me that tedashi and his family lost a child to drowning in a pool. and after the gateway thing happened, i wondered if they lost their kid because of some gossip they were doing about strangers they didnt know.  at that time, because my belief system was different,  i did wonder if their gossip about me   got their kid killed   as some kind of payback kind of thing for harming strangers 

like i think elon is a gimpy armed retard at this point    i didnt think that before.  but with all these folks like being in elons ear for all this time now and he kept like hurting me because of what they would say or tell him to do,  it has gotten to that point though.   

elon is not a child,  but i think they treated him like he is a child. and maybe he is kind of intoxicated by how they treat him    but it doesnt work because he goes out there to like hurt people   when they treat him like that

latin america is kind of weak, that is why they can invade venezuela, and probably rig the election in peru.   maybe watch to see what happens to sanchez. if they rig the election in peru, it probably is a very bad sign for the indigenous people. and also watch to see if kari jobe is in the entourage of the people invading venezuela and peru.  i dont trust that girl now even more.   remember how i told you sometimes images come to mind. today i think of an image of kari jobe running around as if she escaped something. but not in a good way i dont think.  you know, a lot of those people she runs with ask congregants for thousands of dollars in donation and stuff. most of the people i met, couldnt donate 5 dollars. https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/perus-sanchez-claims-fraud-as-fujimori-holds-narrow-lead/ar-AA26pP6U?ocid=BingNewsVerp

in my lifetime, as someone who i think is part of the group that is kind of dual citizen of mexico and the u.s.  but only with citizenship in the u.s. ,  i was kind of taught that central / south america were sort of off limits because of the cartel.  but now, because the cartel ran everything, the cartel is dying, and guess it looks like  non countrymen are going to take over their countries.  it looks like the cartel back fired on the cartel, but also now they are gonna kill and rape the indigenous i think.

i asked the internet: "what groups in history could not find a partner so they invade to rape and take women"  this came back: "The Spanish conquistadors sexually exploited indigenous women as part of their subjugation of native societies in Mexico and Peru. French and English colonists also exploited native women, although they imagined themselves as victims of Indian sexual abuse."   but this time it is americans. 2026.   who are actually mixed often with  indigenous ancestry too, so to me, when i see americans taking over central or south america, i think like the comanches are taking over the machu pichu etc or whatever

its real gross for it to have its origins in gateway and kari jobe

i just want the punishment from gateway And kari jobe apparently, to stop.   it is like they have a leash around my neck like a dog at a dog park. they want to take me on a leash.  that is what i think i feel like a human shield for.  i also had an image like that, but it was actually elon musk who walked me on a leash around a dog park.    its just kind of that red and black  hate  if you imagine the dog park, i am saying it is in red and black colors. that kind of hate. 

i spent like all this time trying to figure out if elon or these guys hated me or not. but i think so.  i think they saw me as the person with the love me or love me not flower.  do you know that flower?  it is a cartoon, where a person sits with a flower, the take the petal off and they keep saying "he loves me, he loves me not"    i think they see me as a person sitting there like that with the flower.  

well im pretty sure all it was is that they walked me around the dog park 

i actually think this may be good news for elon, that he knows, that I know or finally understand that he kind a doesnt like me.  i think this is good news for elon.    but the thing is,  i will still watch the space industry and stuff. regardless of what elon thinks.  like, i dont think he understood that all i was trying to do was be able to watch the space industry if i wanted to.  but it seemed like he was trying to knock my lights out so i couldnt even watch the space industry.      it didnt start out that way, but i was able to figure out he wasnt that into me a long time ago,  but they didnt let that reality come to pass, and they didnt let me move on.     in normal circustances, if you marry someone and your partner cheats even just one time, you can get divorced for that.  i have not met elon, but since i crossed the path, he has had many different partners, that is not really my concern, but it is like if you moved on to even one other person, it is kind of like, oh ok they are not interested.  this is just normal for people , if they see someone pass you and move on to someone else, they are like oh they are not interested.  that is all that i did?  so why did you all follow me around to try to punch my lights out?     is it because you wanted to take venezuela and latin america, with kari jobes help? 

i asked the internet a couple of days ago if oliver trees body was burned so bad that it couldnt be identified. then the internet told me that oliver tree was alive. and that there was no report of any accidents.  i had never heard of oliver tree until news about the accident. i had heard the song miss you , but i didnt look up the artists. 

department of homeland security posts r&b videos.  black white people did literally take over. they used jo jo at the age of 13 to eclipse 18 year old  pop singers.  i am and im not surprised they used this song and singer. whitney houston was a fan of jo jo because she knew jo jo disrupted the entertainment industry. by 13 she sidelined all the older singers. they used her to do that for one album then abandoned her. its actually crazy that they used this song. because this kind of singer disrupted the music industry. kind of used these kind of singers to help the r&b and black artists to completely take over.  they keep bringing in 12 and 13 year old singers these days. this is not really about what this guy says. he agrees with the video. which is kind of sad. it is about the song and the video.   i feel like donald trump is the embodiment of manifest destiny.  the best kept secret about manifest destiny is probably that the african slaves that were brought, also were used to slaughter the people that lived here.    these guys understand humiliation. and i guess whatever biden was doing, wasnt humiliating enough.      i think this attitude is the reason i am in chains.  i am basically these people in the video.  https://youtube.com/shorts/XbH6s_K4NJ8?si=e8v3EH5Mx72cnyFE

this video actually to me, its kind of like what i have wondered about donald trump for awhile. i really hope he is gone by 2028.   but , i have wondered if these people do not see a persons lifespan as to 70 or 80  but instead, these people see a lifespan to 40 or 50.   they have said that people mature by age 16, and i think they just kind of think, people start dating by 13, get married by 16, die by 40 or 50 kind of people.   that is why i was wondering if they time travelled from the 1800s. In 1800, the average life expectancy at birth globally was roughly 30–40 years, heavily influenced by high infant and child mortality. that is what the internet says at least.  in 2026, it is 73.   we really dont need people in office who see the life expectancy as 30-40.  or who will worsen conditions so it goes from 73 to 30-40

this video is   life expectancy to  30-40 year vibes.  vibes of people like that.    

in a way, i am glad they are letting people know their true feelings with this video.     

i am not really glad to go on this journey with you all, but another thing i realized is the puerto rican, kind of taino people, because they are americans, they may feel as if they are a dominant presence in the u.s. compared to central and south americans.  like i told you, i am not completely sure, but i think my father told me he is part mexican.  to me, being this ethnicity, because it is regional, i see it as being as american as the taino.    because it is regional.  but maybe the puerto ricans dont see mexico as welcome in america.  they think of themselves as the only ones that are welcome.   mexico is a separate country, but a lot of those folks live literally 5 inches away from the border. with the whole land thing that happened a long time ago. 

i am being kind of serious, but a couple of questions people may need to ask politicians  or people applying for citizenship is,  what do you think the life expectancy is or should be for people. and ask them if they think people mature enough by 16 for marriage.

 where i live. the air is bitter  metallic     it leave residue on your mouth