i think i am getting high in the unit i live in at night because. today, there is a curtain that has a problem with flying everywhere, the way i keep it from doing that is binding it with something.  last night, the curtain was flying everywhere, but i could not figure out that i needed to bind the curtain to stop it from flying. today, when its no drug use going on, i was like oh yea you just bind the curtain,  at night i feel like i am dying here. so i will probably move even though the lease is not over.  i also realize what my uncle said about the country being worse after the government pushed for diversity, i realize that it also sounds like an insult toward me too. it s more complicated than that, but i understand what it sounds like.  it definitely was not easy to hear him say that, but i understand what he is talking about. and i actually do agree with him. even though he may not have been saying it in the nicest way.  he was upset about something when he said it. but like, i dont care. i have many years of history with him, and he thought nicely of me.  but you know, sometimes things get harder.

i had an uncle that worked for lockheed martin.  i dont think he was rich. the rumor that lockheed martin is doing things  too complicated for people is probably not true.    he one time told me the country used to be mostly white. then the government was behind making the country more diverse.  he said the country was a lot worse off after they did that.  my aunt and uncle were white.   i agree with them.  now that i know black live matter can traffic people and the creepy rubio effect.  these people are entitled.  whether you realize it or not, because of their race, rubio types and black lives matter have been told they have the right to harm others because of the inequality they deal with.   

their names were aunt kathleen and uncle gerald.  these two were kind of like second parents to susan.  because their personalities were good for each other. one of those things people werent jealous, because you could tell they liked each.  susan kathleen gerald. 

if you talk to someone over at lockheed martin. can you ask someone if they can find out if rubio has been sneaking in my room or watching me on the screens, do you know what i mean. does anyone know where rubio spends time?   vance, trump. like i literally think they are kind of goofy and have some fixation on watching me on a screen for a humiliation.   can you locate rubio and find out what he is doing. do you think you could let them know the election is going to be regular election 

they probably thought i was going to run for president, rubio etc.  if they thought i was , they used some kind of lsd or something to make it so that i could even like do anything. then i became homeless. i remember like twisting my head around a lot  and couldnt hold up my head. i couldnt really do anything.  that disappeared over time. 

just ask rubio trump, when i went to the all womens college. i was doing that  i remember noticing i was doing that in the library for the first time really. kind of didnt realize i was doing that. when i was at that school i believe i did zero homework. because i couldnt do anything. 

it is full rape. they are looking forward to the white parties again when p diddy is release from jail. i am afraid they plan to keep me jailed and then try to abduct me for a white party. probably would die.    there also was a plane crash in china in to a building. reminds me of 911.   probably the same thing they did to the u.s.   and xi is probably going to die soon      but  it seems likely the same traffickers involved in the nba  will probably  take over china   they are going to have a black president soon, china will. 

could it be that rubio and all those guys came back because they wanted to rape me secretly   does anyone know where they go   the rape happens over over over today always painful i move around a lot or leave to try to fix it.  they are capitalizing on that i am homeless and cant really leave     for rubio to rape  married with children    that is what he is doing   sometimes i worry vance, any of those people do this  trump, any of them

i kind of see rubio at this point   as someone that would rape a female  candidate for president   to keep them from running.  he has got the good guy personality, but i think he may be the kind of person that would rape a female candidate for president.       do any of you know how long rubio has been following me around?  its been a long time.  when this started for me, i was mentally ill to the point i could barely keep my head up or do anything.   like it would be really gross if rubio had something to do with what happened ot me, and then he took the opportunity to watch me or whatever for a couple of trumps terms, i think he even would have been able to do that with biden. 

i am gonna point fingers

the competition is real. there once was an african american girl in seattle that told me "oops we took your land"  she was saying an insult. that is what she said. so if you didn know, even african americans see themselves as taking the land of native americans.  which if you think about it historically, it is probably accurate.  they probably helped the settlers take the land. but at the same time were dealing with slavery.     it kind of explains a lot to me now, that that girl , who was african american said "oops we took your land"         i think everyone is past that. but based on what htat girl said, i am going to say i dont even think the african americans are past that history. they still see themselves as taking land.   and to me, it actually explains a lot about what is going on now.    there is just a real unsettling going on about land.  that girl even said it in a town named after a native american.  so, no one is perfect these days.

the fumes and stuff happen now, kind of morphs in to a feeling of rape  had to leave for awhile 

an image came to mind where you all consumed my life like a roasted chicken. you had as much respect for me as you did a roasted chicken.   that is a desperate group of people.  that means you over reach. i heard one of you say a joke about a girl one time that "everyone touches her but no one wants her"   i dont think the kind of thinking is very smart but i understand what they meant. it is that they had no respect for her and put their hands on her.   every time i tried to walk away. it was like being roped back in to be consumed again like a roasted chicken. that has happened continually for 12 years. at some point when i lived in shelters there were more hands off. but then like for instance, when i was a ride share driver, i started to get ahead, and they shut down the ride share accounts. or that guy proposed to me, etc. then things got shut down.  i started to do better at a job, then the company reorganized and all of that stuff about losing my title, but still being able to log in. these are just a couple of examples. with the job i am talking about, they had actually kind of promoted me, then all of a sudden some girl came in and revoked the promotion.   if i had been able to keep the promotion like the normal way, i would have started making more money etc.  it seems like i was in a semi normal state at the job for about 1.5 years, then i was promoted, then the wierd stuff started to happen. that involved losing my title but then still logging in to the company but had no job, but was still getting paid.  i dont think that happens at companies. these are just a couple of examples.

i would tell savana guthrie. i think we were both captured by the same people. looks like it is the youth. and a lot of them are monkeys.   i got this image of donald trump just minding his own businesses playing golf. and then there all this racket is coming from the west coast .  it reminds me of people who used the smart phone to survive. like secretly, they used the smart phone to dox other people, but secretly it was because they were trying to find themselves.  i am old enough. i think these are people similar to what i remember being marginalized people when i was growing up.  i was not marginalized like that.  i think this is similar to this kind of people.  i think we are both kidnapped. we are older. they are basically youth. but the thing is htat a lot of people that commit serious crimes are usually younger.  if you saw the video i posted about that girl talking about boomers. she was showing a graph that boomers are the only older category that are repeat offenders otherwise it is younger people. 

it is what it is . marginalized people have started kidnapping others. kind of like cartel style.  now its going to be the question, are they going to rape everyone, and hack people to death like the cartel.  i once met someone at a volunteer event. they said they were in ms13.  but they were at the event and said that they were not doing that.  but they said ms13 did terrible things , including hacking people to death.  so if they are starting to kidnap people like that, i think it is the cartel.  i dont know what happened to me 12 years ago, but i was not hacked to death. it was more like the blm protest kind of thing, and something may have happened in my room, not long after i would say i got in trouble being exposed to the media. but i was not awake or able to stay awake to find out.  

maybe the vietnam war stuff has something to do with it.  like the people that were pushed in to the vietnam war, they said it was very wierd.  they just sat there and were like, what was that, that was wierd.    to me the smart phone thing was kind of alien.  but actually i just think it has something to do with the marginalized people. smart phone thing, vietnam war.  the doxers (who i also think are marginalized people) they started doing some wierd stuff to get that mansion or whatever.  they were not going to wait 20 years to get something, they got it tomorrow kind of thing. so that is why there has been a lot of abuse.  the whole doxxing thing  is thievery     it really is.  if they can dox someone, they instantly inconvenience the victim, and the doxxer may get paid , or get like freedom of some kind because they doxxed a person. 

there is nothing to romanticize about kidnapping people. 

the last people that are probably hitting out the worst, is chris pratt , his wife and the swazenagers.   i would say to gavin newsom,  like man, i am not from california, but it seems like if i could compare chris prat his wife and the swarzenagers, they kind of are like an octopus effect where their body is in california but their tentacles are out everywhere working to be territorial to keep people from moving near them.  that sort of thing    really gross     i was involved before they got married   it is just kind of crappy their lifes purpose is to be an octopus    chris prat is mad because i said i didnt think he was attractive  8 years ago    can you find a way to eat his cancer of being mad at me for saying he was unattractive   eat his cancer  eww  how did they know about that account anyway    and why did no one pay attention to the whole reason i had the account   it wasnt because i wanted to be online   it was like the only way i could see if i could get help    no one got it?  are you a simulation  this is one shittttttttttyyyyyyyyyy simulation   to me the account was so private,   that it would be like walking outside to talk to yourself   this is supposed to be private   there is probably better example 

chris prat is looking for a compliment. well in this article there is a nice looking photo of him.   so why, if he is a good looking person, would he follow me around like that , gavin.  Inside Chris Pratt And Katherine Schwarzenegger’s $20 Million Pacific Palisades Marvel 

there are other unflattering pictures of ya chris prat.  like you too full of yourself to be a hit man on me  cuz i said you werent good looking   fyuuuuck you

you do realize they are running me around chris , right .    i can feel katherines energy.  you guys should probably stop talking bout religion  cuzz  she is a killer \

you and katherine belong right in the middlez of gateway with kari jobe  this is your religion which is killer religion   then someone need   to get rid of your killing   you all too full of yourself    trying to kill me for no reason    i heard chris prat has some connection to washington so there is probably some west coast thing i dont know about like. if you live in california   you also live in oregon and washington    and then if you live there,  you become an octopus and then keep people you dont want to live in california, oregon , or washington out 

 since you all cant ignore homeless criticism     ive been homeless for like a long time     because i got raped o related to gateway 

i think chris and katherine would be the people to tie me up and then drag me down the road.   then if i survive,  it would be justin bieber to turn me in a slave on his compound. but they would sell me to him for free.  then when i am on his compoud.  lets see i would have to deal with haily and justin   they would probably bring in their friends  probably including megan and harry who knows who else   to shoot me and then probably hang me.   thats kind of what this seems like

like you are even uglier to me today chris  like weheeeeet.  your picture actulaly looked ok. are you not able to ignore if someone said they dont like how you look?   you chasing me around even today on 6/26/26?  do you see the 6 6 6  there   

oo you and katherine look way way way more ugly to me today  ewwww 

im sorry i said i would scalp you and cut off your nose elon.  the place i live in has toxic gas floating through at all times. i actually am dealing with an emergency , i moved to this place believing it would be clearner but the fumes turned out to be more dangerous. i said that to you when i was about to fall asleep and spent hours being exposed to toxic fumes. it comes in waves. it is not 24/7 but the waves are the worst at night.  so i am actually concerned about my health because some of the symptoms are too noticeable. its like i am either rapidly developing dementia, or i am dealing with toxic fumes.  no one seems to believe me when i say stuff like this. but i am a homeless you know, so it is not easy for me to jump to another place.  i felt bad for what i said.  but i would be lying if i said i didnt think about why did the native americans scalp people before, like if people attack native americans mostly by humiliating them, i can see how the native americans chose to scalp people, because i think it is the ultimate humiliation tool. but actually it will kill someone too. so it is not just a humiliation tool for them. but i think they went for the head because it was like an attempt to fight arrogance of the settlers.  i mostly said what i said because i can feel that ashley st clair is a beast  and she came out of no where and has been attacking me    and so i mostly am trying to push you away with saying anything as mean as i can  so she will see that i am separated from you and so she will not attack me anymore   i said what i said because she is probably arrogant scary for sure  that is the crack related connection

she seems kind of like a liar especially talking about putting peoples dna under her nails. when i see her segments show up, i sometimes think it is not actually her but the ai filter of her. and its some other monster sitting there pretending to be her. and the monster is talking about getting peoples dna under its nails.

but yes i am dealing with an emergency of toxic fumes. and i am not sure where to go.   it is actually worse than the place before.   

i have several very strong air purifiers but it is not enough  , one of them has a huge 20 lb filter   it is still not enough     but i dont know where to go