i havent thought about it until now, but based on the way katie behaved back then,  she could have been involved in prostitution   she always seemed to be in trouble back then    people seemed to suggest she was kind of flying off somewhere    i remember hearing about people sleeping around or people sleeping with their mothers (which i think was about my father) and i think i heard some kind of rumor that my aunt katie slept with my grandfather  but i dont know you know, i didnt know my grandfather that way. 

  i remember one time my grandmother took care of her 100 year old aunt, and she was going to inherit a lot of money  from that lady, but i remember she told me she was sitting there with the lady when she died. and i remember when my grandmother said that she said it was something she never wanted to witness again.  and it wasnt like you know a nurse who sees people die each day, it was like, she said it in a way that what she saw was like yuck gross horrifying  to her .    

she also told me that an uncle of hers sexually abused her when she was a child.  and you know what, actually, now that i just said that here, i am wondering why she didnt believe me and helped my brother get the charges dropped. if she has been through something like that also.

i am not sure what my grandmother would say to me if she saw me again in person but i doubt it would be "i love you" 

it is kind of late to the party like i was saying   but i recently   like saw   that girls who are considered taller  like 5'8 or whatever,  they have been called giants

i think the average female actress is probaly 5'5 or shorter   so i mean   it is kind of late to really think about it    but i mean that is a thing

i would not attend an ice protest personally. if you see me at an ice protest i was taken there by force. kind of like a hostage getting a bomb attached to them.  i also dont condone the shooting of alex pretty. i saw 3 seconds of the 5 second shooting. seriously wtf? 

there are definitely details of my life that i am not going to share but none of it is illegal so 

definitely one of them things that makes you feel like you live in a simulation 

also it occurred to me that i am 5'8. i am taller than 90 percent of the females in the u.s. supposedly. so  actually, it is kind late to the party, but now if i think a girl/women has a problem with me, i am now trying to realize they may think differently because we are not the same height. like, if a bunch of girls thought someone who is 5'5 is awesome. they are going to make plans around the girl that is 5'5   and probably would not include someone like me who is 5'8   in their plans     i think it is like this