especially now that i know he is trying to give shivon the best of the best  all of the time   and it appears to be at everyone elses expense.    he is trying so hard to seem like he is not the guy that is trying to impress his girlfriend, but he is the guy that is just trying to impress his girlfriend. and that girlfriend is a half breed canadian indian girl .  and with canadians, they are mutt europeans but she could have other heritage too that no one is talking about. 

disturbingly there appears to be someone knocking on my walls   i am not going to explain the details   but i think i inspired an entirely new person to become a stalker toward me    i am not able to explain where the knocking is coming from   i am a bit freaked out    and possibly am wondering if i am hearing things   but i do know that at least one time  another heard the knocking   

so thats right shivon.  the quieter you are  the more i think ew 

the last place they left  when i was involved   it was not amish shit    and i was just trying to go on one date like a normal person   not   entertain a compound 

she also seems to wear very oversize dresses which look kind of amish or what i would imagine could be worn on a compound 

she is very quiet. and it seems like it is because people are getting screwed over because of her

you may control elon, but i dont think you control anyone else.     it kind of seems like you are trying to control everyone though. so fucking nasty.

it does seem to be a lot more humiliating because she is indian descent.   i am not sure what that is about.  but actually,  i think that was the point the whole time.  and i think they see a half indian girl like shivon  stringing all these other people along,  as progress  when it comes to race relations    it is a dei  situation i think   because there arent a whole bunch of hollywood stories about the indian girl who got the guy or whatever  i think     i think that is how they see it      

they (being elon and shivon) are just now figuring out that they cant ruin everyones life   to promote indian descent causes 

i really wish elon would have left me alone that july recently.  i was actually at a place that i had moved on.  it is the second time  he has kind of disrupted me moving on. but this definitely was wrong this last time