i didnt realize that by having those embarrasing photos online, that it would be something i couldnt escape  when it was a photo set of me just participating in something someone asked me to participate in for a few minutes 

like i left those pictures online just kind of trying to ignore them.  but it turns out  because i left them online. you were able to log in every day and laugh at the pictures.  but in my head, i have not used the account for 20 years 

i think i may be a little unassuming. because there were some "compromising" photos of me posted online by someone that was supposed to be a trustworthy source.  and it took me 20 years or so to realize, they posted the photos and were possibly trying to embarrass me when they did that.   i saw the photos before, and didnt really like agree with them being there. but i was trying to be nice so i just kind of ignored it.  i never gave them permission to post pictures of me especially the ones they posted.  the pictures they posted were of when i participated in something they asked me to participate in. and the whole situation lasted a few minutes. they got photos of it. and unfortunately those photos wound up online   its not "compromising" like some situations. but i do in some ways feel like i got set up for a bad photo  so that those people could post those photos online.   it was a "means girls" moment i think. and i didnt realize it until recently. because they were supposed to not people like that. however, they did say some things back then that were red flags.  like literally, i think they posted those pictures as a way to like communicate to others that they did not like certain people.  like, if someone you didnt like went to your party, and all of sudden you decided you wanted to be mean to them for some reason, so you took a compromising photo of them, and then posted the photos online.   but you claimed that you were just posting photos as a friend.  but secretly you disliked the person and just posted bad pictures on them online.  but you told them you were their friend and were just posting pictures that you thought were good pictures.  

if i made something like facebook, and then you made an account, and someone uploaded embarrasing picutres of you on there, and then you got locked out of your account and couldnt get the pictures taken down.   its kind of like that.  but back in 2007 when the pictures were posted i was like not cool with it but i was not the kind of person that was going to ask them to take the pictures down.  even though i didnt spend time with those people. 

i dont want money from that situation. the punishment is that the people that did that are 20 or more years older than i am and i feel like they did that to make fun of me and to cause harm, then i left the pictures online for 20 years .  that is the punishment.  there is no amount of money that can fix that.

i went to school and was involved in all kinds of stuff, but the only thing you see or saw of me was this clown photos from an event i was part of that lasted 5 minutes. 

if you know any one from those contacts, did you know that those people could have asked the police to reach out to me to find out where i was or how i was doing?    i dont think you realize that i became homeless in 2015. and that some of the people that kind of contributed to that situation, because they did contribute by asking me to leave and would not help me when they knew i became homeless. did you know they asked the police to find me when i first went homeless.  

i am closing all my social media accounts. but i guess my question for you, whoever you is, is did you spend time with the people in my contacts? but did not take steps to try to connect to me directly?   it kind of reminds me of like if someone went on american idol and auditioned. but instead of acknowledging the contestant. you looked at their facebook page to find anyone and everyone else that is connected to them to befriend instead. its like you kicked the contestant off of american idol.  so that you could be friends with their connections on facebook. and then you spent the next several years avoiding the contestant but spending each day wiht the people in their facebook connection contacts.  

you all followed me around with TMZ   but you werent able to  think to ask someone who knows me to call the police so that they could reach out to me ?   like, you knew that i was homeless sitting on 32nd street at 3 pm on thursday. and at that point you were a friend of one of the acquaintances i have on facebook. but you werent able to see if someone could call the police to see if they could reach out to me?  no one? instead you follow me around for years with TMZ? while i sat on 32nd street at 3 pm on thursday everyday?

if you auditioned for something. then they sent you out of the room. and then decided to find your friends and family instead for an audition. what is that called?