it was a crazy strong feeling. never had anything like that happen before

i just had this crazy feeling rush across my head. i just held my head and everything. hopefully it wasnt emp technology. i wonder if it was a ghost. i promise i dealt with poltergeist stuff. 

if my brother and father are involved, it would be as if i never moved from freeman street. which was the street we lived on when my mother died.  kind of interesting it was called freeman.

that would mean i am still dealing with the 8 year old self that they knew if they are involved  and they are holding me down at the freeman house somehow 

i dont have any money anyway. i just want to find out if you all know them.

i guess if you all wont leave me alone ill either be trafficked or have to put myself up for sale    sex isnt free

sex isnt free   sounds like a good song 

what else do you all want from me?    i will tell you i saw something that kind of showed me the kind of situation you have with some fellows here in the u.s.   i was just walking up to an apartment one time and i saw some 20 year old men hitting on an 80 year old lady. they were trying to get her to invite them up to her apartment. they were african american. my guess is it doesnt matter the age with people at this point, there are 50 and 60 year age gaps.  as long as those guys are alive, they will be seeking someone to sleep with at that time it was an 80 year old female.

it makes sense. one time i was staying in a tent site homeless shelter, and it sounded like a girl was being pimped out in a tent somewhere near by.   i have been homeless for a while and havent seen or heard anything like that before.  there are more things like that in washington state than i ever saw i texas.  kind of nasty.   it actually is a lot more aggressive than texas at least to me. maybe not for everyone.

that is where my brother raped me, my mother died , where a restraining order was in place against my father, where that girl holly combest molested me