something also i remember about back then, you know recently you heard about the white vans driving around with the ice cream songs.  i saw something like that when i was in highschool or middle school. it was a very long 70s looking car that looked rusted or not in good condition, and it was playing the ice cream song but a bad audio of it  if it was on a cassette tape, the tape was worn and the song sounded bad.  it drove around at night. i saw it only once.

so i hopefully wont get roped in to this one. that is kind of one of the downsides of getting in to stuff that is in the media. it is kind of a tough situation. i was wondering with paige ocktubor when she changed her name to price and why.  i do not know my extended family very well but i heard that i have a relative that was married to or in a relationship with someone maybe famous in the golf industry. i think they also have the last name price, because it is a family name. i never knew much about it.  i have seen malcom in the middle before.  i dont really think of secular media as the same as church tv.   it would be wierd for me to watch malcom in the middle where malcom is like the muniz character. https://www.christianpost.com/news/frankie-muniz-declares-his-christian-faith-on-social-media.html

it would be eye opening to find out a model chose a last name price to help her career.  that is a new thing to me.   

 the golf person was supposedly in a relationship with  ramona/katie/maybe has a new name now, who is the mother of the cousin that sold drugs to me when i was eight. 

i remember ramona wanted to open a b&b, she thought of herself as a very good cook, she was described as an angel with a bent wing by my grandmother.  ramona used to weigh a lot more but lost the weight somehow. supposedly there are other stories about her hooking up with her sisters husbands and things. but i dont have confirmation on that.

 yes, i did laugh at the situation when roslyn did not know the answer to a math problem a long time ago. it was like, i was seven or something and i was like "haha no the answer is whatever it was"  it was just kind of like brotherly or sisterly. but i do remember when i said something, my grandmother turned to look at me and was like kind of upset that i laughed.  but when i saw her get upset, i was like oh no, my grandmother loves roslyn more.  i am pretty sure that is correct. i think my mother had already passed away at this point. i hope she didnt turn in to a stalker because of that. roslyn also used to weigh a lot more, but lost the weight somehow.  

they were both very trim the last time i reached out to them.

ramona, had an unstable situation with her children, and so i remember finding out that zoey and daniel were both placed in to foster care a few times.   

daniel is the one who wound up working briefly for something called a super collider in texas. but i heard it was shut down. he was proud of that. but i met daniel many years later when i moved to austin. i found out he had a wife with autism. on the day that i visited them, his wife would not speak to me or make eye contact. and my cousin daniel told me there would be a meal or something but when i showed up there wasnt anything or something was really off. i dont remember. just basically like, we talked about my visiting and then when i got there it was not really a good situation.   

so that is the last memory i have of daniel.  

didnt know i would share this someday. but back after highschool, there was some event where there was a concert, some of alumni were featured in an event, i was one of them. it wasnt really anything, its just something people volunteered to do. in the bulletin for the event there was some place to describe what the alumni were up to or what they were aspiring to do in the future. one of the sections of my space in the bulletin was missing information.   my uncle, who is a british man, talked to me about the bulletin after the event. he said did you notice the part of the bulletin where one of your sentences is missing what you aspire to do in the future. it was an incomplete sentence that said something like, "in the future, i aspire to be a "   it was a template that the school had put together for the visitors to fill out. he said your sentence is missing what you aspire to do.   then he made a joke saying , what do you aspire to do . you aspire to be a prostitute.      i dont think i really said much after he made the joke. but i do think that was the last time i visited their house.  back in the day, i was younger , so i just remember kind of freezing and looking over at him and my aunt and not really saying anything but kind of brushed off the joke.    i also remember when i first moved in with them  , i was only with them for a short period of time, but it was around halloween time. i dont really remember what my costume was supposed to be , but my aunt made a joke that i looked like a sexy teacher.   i am not sure if she joked around with all of her children like that because she would say wierd things i think sometimes, but it did stick out to me as maybe an insult.  that was when i was 8 or something.  it was after she made a joke about me using drugs.

its gonna be pretty interesting to find out i have a criminal cousin who was stalking me or something.   she is the one who connected with me when i was in grade school  and somehow got me to buy some drugs, then a few other things happened where she randomly showed up somehow in my life , for instance, her reporting me as a missing person, but i did not know her in person and am not sure how she would know where i was. 

when i think about the cousin zoey roslyn, i am not sure why she reported me missing, because i didnt have contact with her in person. i think i may have talked to her a couple of times on facebook in a message. but i think the last time i saw her in person was at the other cousins wedding.  it was very strange. i dont remember all of the way things happened, but i became homeless at some point or went somewhere, but i wasnt in contact with anyone really which wasnt unusual. then some time later, i got a call from a police officer telling me i was reported missing, then i found a couple of things on facebook where that cousin sent out a message saying i was missing.  but i am not sure how she would know i was missing  because i didnt know her in person.  i had not seen her in years.  so i am not sure who was looking for me, or how it turned in to that cousin sending a missing persons report. 

i am not going to say this is anything, but there were a couple of guys that i knew back in the highschool days that wound up dying. they were both guys i was actually romantically interested in.  but when they died, it had been a few years since i had seen them.  sometimes things like that make me wonder. 

my opinion is the u.s. is hanging on by a thread if i am the same level as a pope.  i was literally posting trash content five years ago and thought you would leave me alone, but i am near the level of a pope?  pretty nasty. i cannot help you 

you can rename it 

so i would say if a mental health professional ever catches someone being delusional in some way, they can probably prescribe medicine. its just that you dont want people to be given something that is abusive. because there are sick medical professionals out there. i wouldnt agree with forced medication probably.