i just saw a clip where stephen colbert was welcoming jimmy kimmel back. i have nothing to do with that. what i would say to colbert show or kimmel show is while i am talking to you about not being able to make money and offering to write a joke, there are 10 thousand people standing right next to me who want to take my place. they dont care that i am saying i didnt make money. they are thinking about themselves.   i kind of dont want to be pulled in to the 'making it in hollywood' race because i think hollywood has become a hometown to actors and their children. i am not trying to be mean when i say that, but when i think about someone trying to strive to become famous, i now think about how there are all these actors and their children who are kind of gatekeeping hollywood and judging people.   i think hollywood has been different each decade. it was different in the 80s with the first music videos on mtv. it was different in the 90s when the internet became more widely available. it was different in the 2000s , 2010s, with the smart phone and social media. that is the nice way to put it i think the 2000s were when there was a takeover of hollywood. but hollywood or the media belongs to everyone. not just the people who live in the zip codes. 

so i guess i am trying to say to kimmel show that i dont want to get pulled in to the hollywood 

its very embarrassing to think that someone would go to hollywood to try to be an actor, but they may get "snuffed" out because there is a teenage daughter of an actor somewhere that doesnt like them.   

not only did jimmy kimmel show use my content, they used it for a joke about charlie kirk. which put me directly in the middle of the situation.  this is why people keep looking at me as some kind of public figure.  i did not pay attention during the biden administration but what i am saying is that i did not pay attention to the media, it doesnt mean i am talking about the biden administration. it just means i am saying i did not follow the media. i dont know who puts the show together, but to me it is harmful to the jimmy kimmel show to use content like that from me for the show.  as much as i would like to think jimmy kimmel would reach out to me about writing a joke, i dont think that is what will happen. if they threw me in the middle of a charlie kirk joke, i think it just means they dont like me and wanted to give me trouble. 

when i said i wasnt paying attention, it does mean that i did not watch charlie kirk. i have seen a couple of parts of his shows but i did not know charlie kirk. i wouldnt have been able to tell you his name. 

the word parse. its a word i didnt use until i got involved in things like this. but i think it is important to parse the situation. the content i posted about a ballroom had to do with homeless people. a variation of that content appeared on jimmy kimmel. supposedly.  i was talking about homeless people.  i do not celebrate violence against charlie kirk.  just remember, i am a homeless who doesnt make money.  but the charlie kirk situation is eye opening. it has exposed a great set of folks who celebrate his death. that is not the america that i remember. it does seem pretty off.

if you want to know my opinion, i do think it is better to stop people like jimmy kimmel from participating in a back channel fight   i am kind of offended to be used on his show   especially when , if you like the content i have put out there, it could have helped me make money.  

its very tragic for me though because i am pretty old now  and being homeless for a long time changes your personality 

this is actually how i got in to trouble last time. instead of people approaching me directly, i would see content like mine show up places. this time, i think jimmy kimmel did use a content from what i said online for a joke on his show. about the ballrooms. i am not sure if that is why his show was cancelled but i read that the joke was the reason the show was cancelled.  so  i actually dont think its cool for i guess what could be considered my content to show up in jimmy kimmels show.   It seems like in america no one uses the police or anything to check on people. I am not trying to bring elon musk spacex or amazon in to the situation, but maybe that is what they were trying to do a year, by inviting me for an interview, so that I would not be a lone person out here when donald trump came back to be president. i would have never guessed he would be re elected. i just didnt think it would be possible.  but now that he is back the situation is very bad.  so i appreciate spacex and amazon reaching out to me if that was the reason, so that I wouldnt be a loner. but i didnt see it that way at the time, i saw it as being ghosted for four or five years and i was like i am not going to be able to meet any of these people now.     i dont understand how like this fight donald trump has with me keeps showing up in the media   instead of just me talking to someone in person.  but that is the thing i think someone tried to do the in person approach a year ago but to me that was way too late.   the fight that you have with me is a back channel fight   it is one of the reasons it seems like the u.s. is hanging on by a thread 

something also i remember about back then, you know recently you heard about the white vans driving around with the ice cream songs.  i saw something like that when i was in highschool or middle school. it was a very long 70s looking car that looked rusted or not in good condition, and it was playing the ice cream song but a bad audio of it  if it was on a cassette tape, the tape was worn and the song sounded bad.  it drove around at night. i saw it only once.