i have been told before by an african american that there is no place on the planet for me.    that isnt really the way that i think   but current day   it must be the way people in the u.s. think about others

so just today, i walked in to a chinese market where only asian people and amazonian indian people were  and they did not accept me.   i also walked past a father and son where the father was white and the son was half asian and half white.  and they know i am not asian and the father despised me 

i would also like to add that one time i ordered take out about four months ago in seattle from an asian restaurant within a mile of where i was.  i cant say that i didnt have a wierd feeling about the restaurant, but when i brought the food home, there were tons of pubic hairs in the fried rice.  several.   seems unlikely it was an accident.  probably the cook grabbed the pubic hairs while they were cooking to put it in the food.   it was take out so they did that. had i ordered it and dined in  i doubt they would have done that because if i sat down with the food, if i was in the restaurant, i would have addressed it in front of the customers probably.

i sometimes think i have no more "value" in some sense to people than ground rat meat

i also noticed current day that a chinese store in seattle hires tribal native american looking people with the long skull and prominent indian features.  they are treated very lowly by the chinese supermarket. and when i walked in to the supermarket i was treated even lower than the tribal indian people working there and the chinese owners and staff.  i was not accepted there.  the only conclusion i can make is that i am kind of white in there but not the right white   

sometimes it seems like being half white (and specifically tribal indian like amazonian type) (i am actually 1/4 indian type) means i am the "rape" class

i was walking down the street today and saw a man and a younger guy walking together and i figured out they were father and son.  the son looks half white and half asian probably.   when i looked over at the father who is white,  he despised me.   so i am not the same as a half white half asian 

i noticed in seattle there was a plaque that says in the 1800s the workers felt they were being displaced by chinese immigrants and the city sent the chinese immigrants to san francisco

being 1/4 indian amazonian type  and 3/4 european  has put me in the rape class 

i think maybe americans are second class citizens to the world.   i think that what biden and harris were doing before handled that a lot better than whatever is going on now.