Most of us come from hard starts.We have rough childhoods that cause us to create rough adulthoods, and so most of us are stuck in the hood.And we all know the hood ain’t pretty.The hood can humble you...But the hood can humble you if you let it. The hood can teach you how to fend for yourself.The hood gives you stories to learn from if you’re willing to do the work. But to learn is a choice, isn't it?Just like it’s a choice to wake up and brush your teeth...To read and to empower yourself with good news.Every day we wake up with choices. We can choose to let our current reality keep us stuck. We can choose to be a victim.We can choose to stay a hood rat and let the other rats keep us trapped.Or we can choose to practice the art of self-mastery...We can choose to rise above what keeps us stuck no matter what.We can do whatever it takes and create a vision for ourself that’s so audacious it feels impossible, and aim for that.And every day wake up and invest in that.Invest in your craft. Invest in yourself.Invest in feeling good.And let humility, and work ethic lead you to higher grounds.Believe it’s possible or don’t believe, you choose what to believe and beliefs create your reality.That is all I wanted to say.Thank you for listening...Good day.SOCIAL MEDIA // @ArtistSarahLong artistsarahlong.com artistsarahlongstore.com  EMAIL // [email protected]

It’s a good day to be alive....Cuz this is now. Yesterday was then. Tomorrow is coming but it’s not for certain, my friend. Tomorrow is an illusionIllusion aren’t real.Illusions are real if you think they’re real.What is real anyway?Oh, something you can see...Ok.Seeing is perspective, and perspective changes everything.What is everything?All of the things we can imagine?So then everything is fake if imagination isn’t real. So nothing is real.But no thing is something if you want it to be. Like two cents can feel worthless, but some cents is better than no cents, ya dig?So I’d rather be a real something than a fake nothing would you agree?Or do you disagree?Don’t answer me.Your opinion doesn’t matter to me.I’m just thinking out loud to my self...Whoever that is...It’s still something I’m trying to figure out.But I know I never will.So what’s the point in being here?I don’t know dear?Where are we going now that we’re here?Nowhere dear.We are staying right here...It’s a nice place to be.So it makes sense to me.It’s better than running...Running is hard on the knees.And the knees need you to honor their feelings. So do your feet.So it’s good to stay and grow and dig your roots deep.It's good to find a place to stay safe.It's good to find a place to feel safe.Like this place...It’s full of everything you need.So your needs will always be met.You’ll always have good sex.You’ll always have a nice paycheck.You’ll always have cool cats.Cats are nice to have.Cats are nice to cuddle with.Cats are nice to pet.It’s nice to have pets.Pets make you feel loved when you don’t have a human to love.Humans are hard to love when they don’t love their human self. Self is hard to love if you’ve felt shamed and guilt for being who you are.Shame makes us cover-up.Cover up causes a lot of problems.Problems keep you stuck.Stuck is hard to get out of.So is quicksand.Once you’re in it you need a helping hand.Sometimes a lot of hands.Where do you find hands when your stuck in no man's land?Oh, I know...You call someone you know.What if you don’t know anyone with hands, bro?Then you're stuck in quicksand forever yo.Where is no man's land?I don’t even know.Some place unknown.How do you get there?I don’t even know?How do you find your way home?You don’t.Yes, you do...All you have to do is find your heart.She’ll lead you to wherever you want to go...I don’t know where I wanna go, but going is fun.So think about this hun...You have so many options if you let yourself, love.Have you thought about this tho?Thought about what?How much you’re afraid to love?How much you’re afraid to love?How much you’re afraid to love?Do you think that’s what keeps your heartbroken?Heartbreaks are hard to fix.Especially if you don’t fix them quick...Cuz then you risk the broken pieces goin' missin'And where do they go when the pieces go when they go missin?They seem like they disappear into thin air like they weren’t even there. So how do you fill in the cracks when you don’t have all the right equipment?Oh I know, you find new p

Hey bro, what's up with you?Not much. Just been thinking about stuff. Like what?Oh, you know how I made a plan but it didn’t go as planned.I dunno what happened and to be honest, I have no idea where I am and I don’t know what’s happening or what the fack I’m supposed to do next. And I hate that cuz I like to know what to expect. All I can tell you is I’m being forced to do things that seem pretty pointless.She calls it self-soothing and she says it's worth the time it takes.And I’m like, this chick is gone cray-cray...Self-soothing is a great way to waste time if ya ask me.And I think we need to back to reality.We need to start working harder if we're ever going to achieve our dreams.But she never listens to me anymore.Instead, she just chills and daydreams about really boring things.What’s she daydream about?Oh, you know...Sometimes she dreams about heaven on earth, sometimes it’s waterparks and waterslides. Sometimes it’s warm apple pie.And It’s messed up because she was never like this until then cancer shit happened.Ever since then, she’s completely lost itAnd I’ve tried to talk to her about it.I told her she needs to let go of the fairytale and come back to the real world....But she just ignored me like my opinion didn’t matter.Then I tried to suffocate her in her sleep just to scare her a bit so she’d see that I'm necessary to her existence as a human being. But it didn’t work.And now she blames me for all her pain...But I’m like, not surprised because that’s typical.People like her can’t ever take responsibility for themselves.She can’t admit that she’s the reason I freaked out, because she’s not listening to me and I demand to be heard. But instead of listening to me, she writes these letters to someone named Beverley and she tells her about her plans to create a new reality.She talks about her new life in the afterlife and so I’m like, where is she going...?Did she already go and is that why I feel like a ghost?So did she die?Or did I?And is that why I can’t get through to her like I could before? So then are we in two different worlds?This is what I don't know, and this is why I don’t know who I am or where I am and why I am...or who I am. But I what I do know is for certain, is that I will not accept this kind of treatment anymore.And the way I see it, if she wants to ignore me, I’ll just have to keep giving her neck pain and maybe some restless legs and a few canker sores so she knows what it feels not be free to express yourself.Maybe then she’ll stop pretending I don’t exist.Maybe then she’ll realize I’m the one she needs to make amends with. Until then, her plans to be great will never work out.How can they when I’m the one who helps her do the work? The work that works.I don’t sit around all day and daydream. I get things done.Ok. You keep telling yourself that but nothing you ever do is ever fun. And that’s why I don’t want to listen to you anymore. And yes, I can still hear you, through the door.I just don’t need you anymore, so I ignore.So you can try to hurt me, but I’m surrounded by light and love, so good luck.  But if you decide to raise your frequency and start listening to me and what I want, then maybe we can be friends again.Until then...You're dead to me.SOCIAL MEDIA // @ArtistSarahLong artistsarahlong.com artistsarahlongstore.com  EMAIL // [email protected]

These ones for you...I’ve been thinking about you. You Black people. You White people. You yellow people. You red people. Orange people. Green people. Blue people. Purple people.Rich people. Poor people. People with a limp. People with a lisp. People with cancer, Alzheimer’s, dementia, Parkinson’s, MS, fibromyalgia, diabetes, Hashimoto’s, Crohn’s, chronic fatigue, heart disease. People who are gay, people who are straight. People who are bi. People who lie. People tell the truth. People go to school. People who have a degree. People have a Ph.D. People who have nothing. People who have fancy things. People who have nice cars. People who walk. People who take the bus. People who use plastic bags. People who use reusable bags. People who don’t have bags. People who eat organic foods. People who don’t eat. People who snore when they sleep. People who commit heinous crimes. People who do prison time. People who never get caught for their crimes. People who steal, people who give. People who laugh really hard at stupid shit. People who don’t laugh at all. People with straight teeth. People with crooked teeth. People who read. People who can’t read. People who hurt babies. People who are babies. People who didn’t breast-feed. People who have big breasts. People who have no breasts. People who have sex. People who are afraid of sex. People who were raped. People who rape. People who take. People who make love. People who use lotion. People with nice skin. People with long hair. People with short hair.People who kill. People who care about people who killed.People who fly planes. People who do amazing things like jump off of high buildings. People who drive fast. People who drive slow. People who do drugs. People who don’t. People who have kids and people that can’t. People that don’t want kids so they don’t.People who invest in stocks and bonds. People who invest in nothing at all. People who own homes. People who don’t feel safe at home. People who have nice clothes. People who wear uniforms. People who don’t have clothes. People who don’t like hip-hop. People who don’t like country. People who love hip-hop. People who love country. People who believe in Jesus. People who believe in Spirit. People who have Spirit. People who’ve lost their soul. People who have no place to call home. People who like mayo. People who like ketchup. People who think they rule the world. People who have lost hope. People who carry guns. People who carry love. People who smoke cigarettes. People who toke cannabis. People who take hot baths. People who take cold showers. People who dye their hair. People with gray hair. People who have short hair. People who are boys. People who are girls. People who are both boy and girl. People who transform from boy to girl. People transform from girl to boy. People who don’t identify with a specific gender type. People who cry. People who keep all their tears inside. People with big dicks. People with big clits. People with small balls. People with tall vaginas. People who come from China. People who hate China

We usually don’t realize how much something is fucking us up until about ten years after the trauma.I think that’s because we’re not taught how to deal with emotions, so no one does. Instead, we run away from them. We distract ourselves.We find things to do that feel good and it usually involves doing things that doesn’t do a body good.That’s how our Monsters get worse.It’s what happens when you shut your emotions off. When you ignore them.It’s literally the same as closing the door in someone’s face, only it’s your own face.It’s your own heart.It’s your inner child and they aren’t happy about certain things that happened in your past and they don’t know how to process the pain.But what they really want is to feel loved.They wanna cry and let the rage out.They wanna know they aren’t alone.And they get even more upset the longer you go keeping the door close.And no matter what you do to block them out, they don’t go away. They stay. They bang on your brains. They will make you do crazy things. They’ll make you self hate in a variety of ways and the self-hate will cause you to do mean things...Especially to the people closest to you because they’re close to you. And you know you do it...You know you have these personality traits that don’t make you look great.You know you do stuff that you’re not proud of and the resistance within causes the pain to build up more and more momentum.You then the frustration causes you to get even more aggressive in your approach to shutting your feelings out.You put up walls and you bury yourself in stuff.You turn the music up so you can’t hear how much they hurt. How much they need you to care about yourself. But they can hear you. And they see you. Because the walls are actually see-through...And the reality is we can only live like this for so long.Eventually, one of you is gonna lose control, and freak out.And that’s when someone will kill themselves or you’ll finally stop ignoring the pain and face yourself.Either way, the only way to win the war within is to heal the heart.To take down the walls and go through all the stuff you’ve put up that’s blocking you off. To take down the walls and go through all the stuff you’ve put up that’s blocking you off.And to open the door and let your feelings come out.But be sure that when you do that you have surround yourself with light and love so that you feel supported as you fall apart.The more you do this process, the more you’ll let go of all the stuff that makes you feel miserable, and eventually, you won’t feel the way you always did because your monster won’t be in the background making you feel like shit.Instead, you’ll feel at peace.You’ll feel loved.And you’ll be free. This is how you get control of yourself and your life and create an extraordinary life.This is what we all want but most of us aren’t willing to do the work to stop being who we’ve become long enough to change the momentum.And that’s why we’re all in for quite a ride...But the good news is, it’s never too late to start creating a new life...You just have to be willing to...die.SOCIAL MEDIA // @ArtistSarahLong artistsarahlong.com artistsarahlongstore.com  EMAIL // [email protected]

Yeah so I got a lot to say, there's a lot of things I've been thinking about lately and I just wanted to share them with you cuz it seems to me, it seems to me, it seems to me, that there’s a lot of strange things going on behind the scenes, and I don’t know about you but I just don’t think anything is what it seems.Too many questions and too much chaos happening all at once and look at what it’s doing to us? It's making us fight for justice.Fight for equality.Fight to stop history from once again repeating itself over and over again.It’s causing the frustration within to act out and protest for a cause we call black lives matter, which is in fact funded by a white guy who goes by the name of George Soros.Whom by the way doesn’t actually give a shit about equality. So more than anything it’s just a ploy to fight for a cause that isn’t going away. But how can it when it’s become a self-fulling prophecy?Cuz if black lives mattered we wouldn't need to call it Black lives matter, because black lives would just matter. All people would matter.And the racism wouldn't be obvious like it is. And so if you think I’m out of line for suggesting this guy is part of corporate crime, then ask yourself...Why didn’t black lives matter to this extent when there wasn’t a pandemic?When it wasn't an election year?So why is George Floyd’s case such a sensitive situation, when we all know cops killing black people, yeah it goes on all the time am I right?So what...Is George Gloyd more special than all the other innocent black people that've been killed by cops...So people like  Aura Rosser, and Breonna Taylor, and Stephon Clark and Alton Sterling and Tanisha Anderson?Just to name a few...Or is it because George Floyd's death was caught on camera that we care more about this than we cared about them?Because you have to agree that it's really odd timing that this sorta thing happened the way it did, given the hard times with the COVID shit. And when we look at all the pieces of things, the reality is media controls everything, and their objective is to manipulate the narrative so human beings don’t feel safe.Why would they do such a thing?Because then humans will panic and do crazy things which weakens your body field, suppressing your immune system, causing you to self-sabotage in ways that make you buy things you don’t really need, just to fill the voids of never feeling peace. And so the question is, are all these things really happening or is it just part of the illusion? Is George Floyd even really dead?Did 4 cops really standby and let some bystander record their crimes?Cuz that just blows my mind unless they aren't really cops. Or maybe someone paid them to play the part as part of the plan to control the world. Who’s plan is it?It’s hard to say.I’m sure it’s all orchestrated by a group of old white guys who control the economy.So how do we know this isn't just another way to divide and distract us from what really matters the most, which is the awakening we need to achieve in order to save the world...In order to stop the control.The awakening we need in order to see the truth?The awakening we need in order to create the New World.A new world where racism and segregation is no longer part of our world. And we were so close.The downtime brought to us by COVID 19 was designed to help you slow down the momentum and change your perspective on things. And it was working. But then BOOM. 

Yeah, yeah, yeah, so my weakest color energy is orange yo, which is why I find it hard to be entrepreneur yo, even though I know I am one, it's in my blood bro. But so is the energy from my karmic imprinting, which is a lot of fear and uncertainty so it makes it really hard for me to believe I can achieve my dreams. And it's not that my dreams are really that big of a deal if you ask me. It's not that they were unrealistic. More than anything, more than anything, more than anything, I just wanna be happy ya know. I wanna feel the feelings of feeling in love because I never really had that ya know. But I can feel a shift my energy lately and it seems like, it seems like, it seems like the more I surround myself with color energy, the more I fall in love with myself, the more I feel the confidence to be the entrepreneur I wanna be. And I wanna be as good as GaryVee. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I know I know I know, he could've manipulated his entire story to make it look like he's as awesome as he seems. But I doubt it. I think he's genuinely a really awesome person just like he seems. And what I like about Gary Vee is ya know, he can just be himself ya know. He's so real and so good with people, it just seems like he really gives a fuck about the individual. And he's taught me how to be a more loving human being. And he's taught me how to be a more loving human being. And he's taught me how to be a more loving human being. And that's what I needed to see because being a loving human being doesn't come natural to me. I think it's my monster but it's hard to say.It could just be me Anyway, I'm just sayin' I think that's the solution to being happy and successful. Is to see with love and to let go of the need to control outcomes. SOCIAL MEDIA // @ArtistSarahLong artistsarahlong.com artistsarahlongstore.com  EMAIL // [email protected]

Hey, it's me again...I was just wondering...Do you wish you didn’t leave so much?Do you wish you around more for her when she was young? When she was being controlled and manipulated by him...Do you wish you did more to stop it?To step in and take her out of that toxic situation.Do you wish you fought harder to protect her so she didn’t become a victim?I know she wishes you did.Because she deals with the grief every day, to this day.She wishes someone cared enough to stop what was happening. To stop the abuse. To say hey this isn’t OK, you asshole, go away. And she wishes someone showed her how awesome she was before she started to hate herself in every way, and the Monster she’s become as a way to protect herself from the likes of him. Which actually caused her to become a magnet for people like him. But don’t worry friend...She forgives you cuz that's who she is. But me...I'm still pissed because I don’t understand why you did what you did. And I just want answers which I know I’ll probably never get. But that doesn’t mean I’m not gonna pursue this. I am committed to taking her pain away fully and completely, so whoever caused it is going to pay. Thank you for listening...Good Day. SOCIAL MEDIA // @ArtistSarahLong artistsarahlong.com artistsarahlongstore.com  EMAIL // [email protected]

I don’t even know you...Do I?I mean, I remember pieces of you.I remember your smell and the way your home felt. I remember your laugh and the way you held your glass of wine and the way you looked when you were having a good time.And I remember you liked to have a good time. I think that’s why I loved about you so much....You showed me what it was like to have fun. To be in love. To feel loved. But, sometimes I wonder if maybe I made you up?Or maybe what I remember of you is only like 1% of you and maybe the rest of you wasn’t what I thought. The sides of you I didn’t see.The sides I didn’t get to know because you weren’t around much.Cuz you guys always had be down south, didn’t ya?Which always made me wonder...What was so good about down south?And I aspired to find out!And I did.I went to your favorite place, and I’ll be honest I didn’t see why it was so great. And so I don’t think it was worth always leaving me...if you know what I mean. But maybe you just had different priorities then.Maybe you didn’t love the way I thought you did. Maybe you were just the kind of person that just did your own thing...And maybe that’s why she’s the way she is and I’m the way I am. Maybe we all needed you and you didn’t want to be needed so you left us in constant disappointment.And I confess...I’ve been in that state of being since you left.But I digress.I just wanted to say I miss you like crazy, and sometimes I wonder why? It’s been so long since you died sometimes I wonder if you were even real or just another illusion in my mind's eye?SOCIAL MEDIA // @ArtistSarahLong artistsarahlong.com artistsarahlongstore.com  EMAIL // [email protected]

Yo, what's up?Not much, ummm but I do confess, I just wanna get something off my chest. It's not that I'm upset, it's just that I have this weight of resentment I’ve been carrying since you did what you did. Because the truth is I tried to pretend it didn’t happen, but I know it did because I know things I sometimes wish I didn’t. So I confess, I always saw the inconsistencies in you but I didn’t wanna believe they were true.I have a tendency to see the good in people even though they aren’t good people.And you...I see how you controlled and manipulate everything I did, just so I wouldn’t become who I  am.And I see how insecure you are and how much you hate yourself, even though you think you don’t.Which causes you to lie and defend your self.And I see how much you’re afraid to love so you try to force love but it never works out. So then you feel even more insecure when love doesn’t love you back, and I see how not feeling loved makes you attack. And that’s when your coping mechanisms and the strange things you do really come through everything you do.And I’m not trying to make you feel bad about yourself, I just want to help you out, by letting you know, you let your Monster out and you got sloppy in your approach, so the truth leaked out.And so I saw all the strange things you said just to cover up what you did. Like the crimes you committed. The break and enter, and the pre-meditated murder, and then the actual murder itself.And for a while, I was trapped between two worlds, struggling to make sense of what happened to myself. I thought maybe I was the one that killed her. But that’s because I didn’t want to believe it was you. But now I know it was and it sucks cuz I hate when hurt people hurt people. But the health detective in me is laughing hysterically because I know you think you got away with it. I know you sit back watching me drown in my quest, and you're just waiting for me to go back to the way things were before. When you were in control...When you thought you were so slick. When you thought your plan went perfect.But guess what?You fucked with the wrong chick...Killing me was the worst thing you could do because I'm back from the dead and I have all the information I need to expose you. So stay tuned. I just wanted to warn you...I’m on the loose.And like I said I'm not upset but I just have to tie up my loose ends. SOCIAL MEDIA // @ArtistSarahLong artistsarahlong.com artistsarahlongstore.com  EMAIL // [email protected]