Awkwardish

Anger isn’t me “losing it” — it’s my body finally telling the truth.

In this episode, I talk about the anger I spent years swallowing, why it shows up in healing, and how I learned to stop treating it like a personal failure.

I get into:

• ​the guilt we carry around feeling angry
• ​how gendered conditioning teaches us to turn anger inward
• ​the cultural and religious messages that silence many
• ​the grief underneath being angry at one’s past self
• ​what our anger may actually be trying to tell us

If you’re in your anger era, you’re not failing;

you’re healing — out loud, on purpose, and without apology.

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Healing isn’t always cinematic. Sometimes it’s quiet, slow, and deeply unremarkable — but still sacred.

In this episode, we explore the “boring” seasons of healing: the plateaus, the pauses, and the subtle progress that rarely gets celebrated.

If you’ve ever felt like nothing is happening, this conversation reminds you that stillness is not regression — it’s recalibration.

Some seasons aren’t about blooming. They’re about rooting.

Keywords: healing journey, mental health podcast, emotional growth, trauma‑informed healing, self‑care, slow recovery, gentle progress, authenticity, mindfulness, self‑compassion, nonlinear healing, personal development, self‑love, resilience, inner peace

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In today’s episode, we’re talking about the quiet, in‑between space of becoming — the soft, human process of changing without losing the versions of ourselves that once kept us safe.

If you’ve been feeling unfamiliar to yourself lately… or noticing small shifts you can’t quite name yet… this conversation is for you. We’re exploring:

• ​ the versions of us we built to survive
• ​ the fear of outgrowing identities that once protected us
• ​ the guilt and grief that can come with change
• ​ how to grow with intention, softness, and honesty
• ​ why becoming someone new doesn’t erase who you were

This episode is gentle, reflective, and rooted in the idea that you’re allowed to evolve at your own pace — without rushing, without apologizing, and without abandoning the past versions of you who carried you here.

If you’re in a season of becoming, you’re not alone.

A gentle reminder

If this episode brought up big feelings, you don’t have to hold that alone. Reaching out to someone you trust — a friend, a family member, or a mental health professional — can make a real difference. You deserve care and connection.

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Healing isn’t linear — and this week reminded me of that.

Some days moved gently, some didn’t move at all, and instead of forcing momentum, I had to learn how to honor the slower parts of my healing without judging myself for them.

In this episode, I talk about slow courage — the kind that whispers instead of roars, the kind that shows up even on the backwards days, the kind that lets you start again without shame.

If you’ve been feeling behind or softer than usual, this space is for you.

TW: mental health, anxiety, nonlinear healing

*this weeks episode was a few days late due to technical difficulties

This week, I’m coming to you from a very human place. My body is scared. My hands are shaky. My nervous system is loud.

Instead of pretending I’m okay or skipping an episode, I wanted to show up gently — exactly as I am.In this short, honest conversation, I talk about:

• ​what anxiety feels like in the body
• ​how fear can shrink your world
• ​the guilt that lingers after a mistake
• ​why avoidance is a normal response
• ​how to show up softly when you don’t feel strong.
• ​ If you’re in a season where everything feels tender or overwhelming, I hope this episode reminds you that you’re not alone, you’re not failing, and you’re allowed to be human. Take a breath with me. We’ll get through this one gently.

In this episode, I explore the stories of public figures who have lived with bipolar disorder — from Lil Nas X and Selena Gomez to Mariah Carey, Kanye West, and Demi Lovato.

Not as gossip. Not as spectacle. But as human beings navigating their minds under the brightest lights imaginable.

This is a soft, reflective walk through crisis, diagnosis, stigma, and healing — woven with my own experience of living with bipolar I.

A reminder that none of us are alone, and that treatment, compassion, and understanding can change everything.

TW: mental health, bipolar disorder, mania, stigma

This week, I unpack the myth of the “strong survivor” — and the even heavier myth of the “strong Black woman.” No trauma dumping, no graphic details. Just truth, tenderness, and community care.

We explore the pressure to perform strength, the emotional cost of being everyone’s anchor, and what it means to reclaim softness as a form of power. If you’re tired of being the strong one, this space is for you.

You deserve rest. You deserve care. You deserve to be human.

In this episode, I try to break down the most common misconceptions that harm survivors of domestic violence — and the truths they wish people understood. No graphic details, no trauma dumping. Just clarity, compassion, and community care.

Together we’ll explore why leaving is a process, how social entrapment keeps survivors isolated, what abuse can look like behind closed doors, and what real support actually feels like. If you’re a survivor, someone who loves a survivor, or someone who wants to show up with more understanding, this space is for you.

You deserve safety. You deserve softness. You deserve a life that honors your spirit.

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Hey friends, it’s Ruby — welcome back to Awkwardish. Today’s episode is a little different… it’s just me, giving you a real life update. We’re talking Red Petal Project, my bipolar I diagnosis, and what the future of this channel looks like. It’s honest, it’s raw, and yes… it’s awkward in all the best ways. Let’s get into it.

If anything in this episode stirred up big emotions, please reach out to someone you trust or a qualified mental health professional for support. You deserve care and connection. 988 is also a wonderful resource, and they are available 24/7, by call or text, even if you don’t have phone service.

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