Ayla and Potato3s: A Nightly Message From Your Best Friend

This episode includes discussions of family conflict, emotional abuse, accusations around sexuality, past sexual trauma, pregnancy, yelling, and references to being physically hit. Please listen with care and take breaks if you need to. Your nervous system matters

Today unraveled in ways I didn’t expect. I spent the morning with my dad at his office, talked with my sister, dreamed up a workshop I’m excited about, and ran errands with a single $10 bill that somehow covered everything. But the day ended in a blowout with my mom — all starting with steak knives in a drawer. Old wounds came up, things were said, and I stood up for myself louder than I wanted to. I’m not proud of all of it, but I’m human, and I’m learning. My sister and I talked afterward, and I know tomorrow will be better. Thank you for listening.

I went swimming today and accidentally did 31 minutes instead of 30, created a new stroke I’m calling “floating butterfly,” and ended up talking to a stranger in the spa for an hour and a half. He reminded me I’m on the right path, and my dad surprised me by offering to buy me a new laptop. I’m proud of my website progress, my journaling, and how aligned my week felt. Everything is unfolding exactly how it should — including meeting you here.

Today I rambled with a warm neck, a cold body, and a very confused thermostat — but I also finished the first draft of my website, updated my journal, and worked out even though I was exhausted. I’m learning to slow down, honor my pace, and stop stressing my body into holding onto this cortisol belly. Tomorrow I meet with my mentor, eat my little protein yogurt, and finally go swimming. I’m overwhelmed but proud of myself… and grateful you’re here with me through all of it.

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Today felt like a return to alignment. I got my mammogram, met a sweet Persian tech, treated myself to pizza and Dr. Pepper, crushed my dead hang at the gym, and recorded a beautiful podcast conversation. I journaled, doodled smiley faces, and felt proud that my art journal turned out even better than I imagined. Someone who bought it told me it helped them let go of perfectionism — and that made my whole day. Life feels easy again, like divine timing is quietly working behind the scenes.

Today I talked about what ease and divine timing actually look like in real life — the messy, funny, unexpected kind. From doodling circles and squares in my “40 Days to Transformation” journal to discovering new ways to flow, I realized even simple things can teach patience, efficiency, and trust. I shared wins like my 9% dead-hang increase, my first persimmon (never again with the skin!), and someone ordering my journal on TikTok. Life keeps reminding me: what’s mine truly comes with ease and divine timing.

Today felt like a cosmic test I didn’t sign up for. I held a 34-second dead hang at the gym — small win — but then spent the rest of the day wrestling with tech issues, delays, and my own frustration. Three calls to TransUnion, a spiritual practice that left me questioning if I did it wrong, and a random rap song from my “song of the day” ritual that made zero sense.

It was one of those days that makes you ask, “Am I being tested or guided?”

And maybe both.

Because even when things didn’t go right, I still showed up. I still tried. I still listened for direction — even when it felt quiet.

So if you’re having one of those days too, maybe this is your reminder:

Balance doesn’t mean peace. It means persistence.

Today was calls on calls on calls — friend calls, class calls, even a doctor call. I got my thyroid results back (turns out 75 was too much 😅), tried on new swimsuits, cooked, did readings, turned in homework, and still found time to manifest being paid for my creativity. Somewhere between the calls, I remembered that healing doesn’t have to be complicated — sometimes it’s as simple as reminding myself and others: you are more than enough.

Today was one of those quietly full days that didn’t feel like much until I said it out loud — class, painting, thank-you emails, a nap, tomato-soup cake, and a few new manifestations. I’m learning how to honor rest, hydration, and creativity the same way I honor progress. I dreamed about future book deals and let myself exist in the middle of figuring it all out. I love you, and I’m proud of both of us for just being here — learning, doing, trying.

Today I got both journals—40 Days to Transformation and 369 Days of Luck, Blessings and Love —fully fixed, formatted, and published (finally!). I talk about Adobe chaos, Canva breakthroughs, and how proud I am for figuring it all out. Then I share my new weekly “numbers experiment,” a little life structure with meaning behind each day, plus my next art + website goals. It’s been a big, productive, heart-full day. I love you.

369 Days of Luck, Blessings and Love https://a.co/d/arIswD1

40 Days To Transformation https://a.co/d/fy649of

Today was a good day — even when things went sideways. The gym closed, red-light therapy died mid-session, and still, I kept smiling. I resized journals, wrote a new letter to my readers, did two podcast interviews (one with 125K listeners!), and somehow felt lighter by the end of it all. I even got invited onto another show — he found me! I’m learning clarity, living my wishes, and disappearing beautifully in meditation. You’re gonna feel the joy in this one. 💫