Ayla and Potato3s: A Nightly Message From Your Best Friend

I’m getting ready for a little trip — but I realized “vacation” isn’t just about where I go, it’s about how I let myself breathe. I talk about manifesting through feeling, missing my dog, being proud of what I create, and remembering that rest is still sacred work. This one’s soft, simple, and full of real life: packing, pizza, skincare, prayer, and love.

Today felt like an ordinary day that turned into a quiet win. I didn’t get my nap, but I finished my guided journal — 744 pages I once dreaded — and dedicated it to my teenage self. I realized I don’t make typical things because I’m not a typical person, and that’s something I’m finally proud of. This episode is about loving yourself through the long process — one breath, one page, one moment at a time

Today I talk about what it really means to find your way—especially when it feels like you’re “late.” Watching Chef’s Table reminded me that even the most talented people sometimes don’t figure it out until their forties… and that’s okay. I share what I’m learning about pouring into myself first, having courage to be seen, and trusting that my path will unfold in its own divine timing. This one’s quiet, real, and tender.

Today’s episode is really just… a reminder. A soft one. For me, for you, for us. I talk about switching directions in school (and realizing that’s actually okay), going to the Kelly Clarkson show, finishing 23 of the 30 things I’d been avoiding, and learning how to rest without guilt. I’m also starting a new creative project that feels big and important — the kind that can’t be done in one sitting. Somewhere in between the errands and the dreams, I’m remembering that progress can be quiet. That I don’t have to prove anything to be seen. And that keeping some cards close is part of protecting my peace

Today was a soft, funny, gratitude-soaked day. I talked about my dog’s reaction to my brother coming home, my $500 giveaway video, and the next steps in my “avoidance journey” — from researching a Hawaii trip to figuring out how to register my business. I got Kelly Clarkson tickets, had a big realization about being paid to create, and remembered that even small generosity is magic. I’m finally building something for me.

Today I finally realized—I’ve been the hero of my story all along. My mentor helped me see that everything I’ve been creating—podcasts, journals, paintings—is the business, and that it’s okay to get paid for being me. I had my first lightbulb moment at 45 years and 11 months old, and it changed everything. Between a lymphatic drainage massage, washing the dog, painting, and eating my first chopped cheese on a hero roll, I remembered: I’m allowed to take up space, be seen, and call it success

Today I bought myself a $5.99 robe and $21 worth of flowers — and somehow it felt like therapy. I rearranged them twice, took another nap without guilt, and reminded myself that loving myself is the work. I talk about leaving school, learning to surrender instead of trying to “help God out,” and realizing that some days are one-minute-at-a-time days. But even then — every day still has something good in it.

Today I realized I’ve already been living the dream I thought I was chasing. I withdrew from school—not because I failed, but because I finally understood what’s actually mine to do. Since 2019, I’ve wanted to create content that helps people heal and feel more alive, and… I’ve been doing that. Through my Substack, TikToks, books, podcasts—every bit of it counts. I don’t need a classroom or a paycheck to validate purpose. I’m living it. I’m grateful, growing, and even treating myself to $20 flowers tomorrow—because joy gets to be part of the purpose too.

Today I tried making homemade pasta for the first time—it totally flopped, but I learned a lot and laughed through it. That led me to think about how far I’ve come in five years: painting, podcasting, baking, Reiki, yoga, writing, creating meditations, and just becoming someone I actually like. I used to measure everything by money, but now I see that doing it—living it—is the real credit. This episode’s about giving myself grace for the process and celebrating growth that can’t be priced

Today’s episode is quieter, more grounded — just me reflecting on open windows, fresh air, and finally deciding to move out before my birthday. I talk about what it feels like to release old dreams (school, acting) and remember what still calls to me: hosting, connecting, creating. My outlook’s shifting — not spiraling, just softening into trust. I don’t know how it’ll all work, but I’m learning to love the not-knowing.