Ayla and Potato3s: A Nightly Message From Your Best Friend

Day 2 of my 46 new things: I tried a new flavor of Bloom (juicy orange!) and accidentally turned the whole day into an orange theme — orange drinks, orange lessons, orange surrender. I cried on a call I almost skipped, finished editing my 500-count meditation, and reminded myself that progress isn’t about crashing out. It’s about showing up, softly, one thing at a time.

was totally convinced my assessment was due today, spent hours fighting with a glitchy website, and nearly crashed out, only to find out it’s not due for three more weeks. 😂 It turned into a lesson about publishing as I go, giving myself grace, and trusting that things work out (even if not how I plan).

Hey, my little potato 💛 Today I finally recorded my first guided meditation for Insight Timer (counting backwards from 500!). I also share a messy, funny story about getting sick at dinner, reflect on how my friendships have grown, and talk about dreaming of vacations, soul tribe, and finishing my to-do list. It’s real life in the messy middle.

Today I did something big for me: I called bill collectors, unpacked my suitcase at my brother’s house for the first time in years, and literally took up space. I’m facing debt, tasks, and fears head-on, planning 46 new experiences before my 46th birthday. I’m proud of me

I spent the day at the park with a friend, swapped sandwich recommendations, reflected on finishing 40 days of Kundalini yoga, and realized I’ve accomplished more than I thought—80+ paintings, Substack articles, workouts, and showing up for myself. I’m taking a week to reset, list what I’ve been avoiding, and keep building the life my inner little girl will be proud of

Today I shared how friendships, both old and new are shaping me. From park conversations that feel like time warps, to little moments with the dog who adores me, to realizing my Virgo-level lava cake hacks, it’s all about gratitude, healing, and being seen. God’s got me. I got you. We’ve got us.

In this episode, I sit down with my six-year-old self through a letter, a conversation across time. I tell her the things I wish someone had told me back then: that she’s brave, that what happened wasn’t her fault, that she’s smart, creative, intuitive, and worthy of love. I share how the very things that once got me in trouble: distraction, curiosity and imagination became superpowers later in life. I remind her (and myself) that we are more than any one moment, that we matter, and that our pivotal moment hasn’t even arrived yet. This is me practicing “obtained opportunities” by healing my past and stepping into my future

I talked about what it’s like to finally feel safe after years of walking on eggshells: learning to trust ease, receive hugs, share my truth without gaslighting, and let daily moments slowly rebuild my confidence.

Today I let myself slow down and rediscover simple joys such as good food, quiet parks, and honest reflection. I joined a dating app, thought about my routines, remembered how far I’ve come, and chose to keep going one more day.

I arrived in New York with $1.15, trust, and a dog waiting to love me. Things worked out better than expected: money showed up, support appeared, and I felt a quiet joy. This season is about replacing old patterns with new trust.