Ayla and Potato3s: A Nightly Message From Your Best Friend

It’s 3 a.m., and I’m running on excitement more than sleep. I’m heading to New York, and even though I’ve been before, this trip feels different, like a turning point. My dad unexpectedly stood up for me about how my brother takes me for granted, which hit deep. I baked, packed, reapplied for food stamps, and even considered a tattoo. I’m nervous but prepared, trusting that opportunities will unfold. This is my reset moment.

Today I did a thing, I launched my own Substack with a $5.55 subscription and a ‘Sacred Spark’ founder circle. It felt so different to start something with the intention of being paid. I talked for hours with my sister-in-law, shared my art journey from coloring books to painting, and even gave her crayons and a formula to try. My body’s sore from assisted pull-ups, but my heart’s full from creating, teaching, and dreaming of leaving a home where I don’t feel heard. I’m building my own way out.

I tell you about a weird gym day (shirt inside-out, sauna, +5 lbs muscle), bake brown-butter toffee cookies, and wrestle with pouring from an empty cup aka how to care for myself while still giving to others. Short, messy, grateful.

I finished Love in a Hopeless Place, upgraded my vision board to “receive significant deposits consistently,” and squeezed in a killer gym session (three pull-ups! 🎉). Still juggling bills and family noise, but choosing gratitude and action : New York is next, we’ll see what clarity shows up

Today I felt the highs and lows of life—hope for $8,000, gratitude for $23, and the reality of unpaid bills. I reminded myself of my journey since 2006, of self-love, screaming masks, and building my company. It’s messy, but I’m still here

I riff about manifestation (I write and read a letter to my future partner for 30 days), wrestle with whether my optimism is delusional, and share a wild, healing moment: I prayed and laid hands on my dad’s knee and he slept afterward. I also talk school, building my website, packing for New York, and choosing comfort (rain boots on a plane). Gentle, honest, and oddly practical

Today was a mess of frustration and small victories… I finally launched sovereigntyworks.com after fighting with website tools, crying, yelling, and leaning on Canva’s AI to make it look “Zen.” I kept the landing page simple (email-only waitlist) and even thought about people who’re bedbound and might need my scream-mask most. Did shadow work, checked my money (got an $8 refund — hooray), wrestled with ADHD thoughts about spending, and planned for my New York trip. Progress looks messy, but it’s progress

Today I practiced gratitude in the smallest ways by checking my bank accounts, paying off tiny debts, and realizing I have more than I thought. An unexpected $8.32 and a $7 gift reminded me that freedom starts with micro-wins. I organized my closet, kept up with shadow work and acting practice, and celebrated both health and discipline in my routines. I’m learning that success isn’t just the big breakthroughs; it’s showing up daily, grateful and consistent. I am already a success

I took myself to the lake, did shadow work, and tried mirror-gazing and then I did something bold and put a private old video up for sale. Tonight I practice simple regulation (two-minute noticing), celebrate a $7 Founder Circle win, and get grateful for the weird little things.

Hey, my little potato… tonight I’m doing gratitude out loud. I’m grateful for my body, my little wins (gym class, hitting protein goals), the laptop and car that showed up when I needed them, and friends who see me. I talked about my healing practice, the rituals that steady me (kundalini, anointing, reading my manifesting letter), and why I’m choosing rest when my body needs it. Even on messy, tired days I’m stacking small wins and practicing gratitude because those tiny things add up. I love you, and I’ll talk to you tomorrow.

Here’s the link to my friend on Spotify https://open.spotify.com/artist/5upD0rnTECW9Tkj2cRNRCH?si=lS1WcDzbRzWP65IzpM3g7g and YouTube https://youtube.com/channel/UC-q8040HEjkE8N1pdQ04PPQ?si=qRtqTSFUgVrzHxQ3