Becoming Me

Episode 79     

Do you trust your emotions? Our lack of a good relationship with our emotions impact our ability to TRUST OURSELVES to make good decisions and spiritual discernment.

Trust is earned, even when it is with ourselves. And to lead ourselves well, we need to rebuild our trust in our emotions and let them play their critical role in our lives without overwhelming or dominating us.

This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

Watch this recording on YouTube.

Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.

CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:42) - Introduction
(00:04:32) - Trusting Our Emotions
(00:10:07) - Perception vs Neuroception
(00:15:06) - Discernment
(00:19:28) - Governance
(00:22:47) - Our Inner Critic
(00:26:20) - Why can't we Trust our Emotions?
(00:28:53) - What Happens when we can't Trust our Emotions?
(00:36:28) - Building Trust with My Emotions
(00:38:54) - Two Major Things that happen when we don't Trust our Emotions
(00:39:20) - #1. Emotionally Unhealthy Relationships
(00:39:55) - #2. Over-Spiritualising
(00:46:40) - Conclusion

TRANSCRIPT
Available here.

REFLECTION PROMPT
- Are you in touch with the ache in your own human experience?  How might God be seeking to be present to you in your suffering?

Support the show

SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT

Social Media:
Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.

Newsletter:
Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.

Support the Show:
Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)
One-time Donation

Leave a Review:
If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 78   

So many of us struggle with how to be at home with our Self and be secure.

When we don't feel secure in our own bodies, we will continue to look for security from sources outside of ourselves through exerting control. 

In this episode I share about the experience of coming home to ourselves and being able to be at rest.

This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

Watch this recording on YouTube.

Cf. Listen to Episode 4 | Living from the Inside Out

Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.

CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:36) - Introduction
(00:02:42) - Making the Connection
(00:04:05) - Being Overly Fixated
(00:04:36) - Dying to Self
(00:09:38) - Created for Love
(00:15:04) - Being at Home with Yourself
(00:22:00) - Who are You?
(00:27:40) - Acknowledging my Unhappiness
(00:36:24) - Our Core Layer
(00:39:06) - Subjective and Objective Redemption
(00:47:11) - Conclusion

TRANSCRIPT
Available here.

Support the show

SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT

Social Media:
Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.

Newsletter:
Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.

Support the Show:
Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)
One-time Donation

Leave a Review:
If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 77   

In this episode I talk about noticing the unique pattern of brokenness in our lives and why that's a crucial part of the interior journey.

The specific pattern of our brokenness contain clues and invitations to healing and also tells us something about the ways we were actually meant to live.

This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

Watch this recording on YouTube.

Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.

CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:22) - Introduction
(00:02:36) - What is "Interior"?
(00:06:13) - Patterns of Brokenness
(00:19:30) - Facing our Shame
(00:27:22) - Learning with Acceptance
(00:33:26) - Growing Towards Love
(00:38:17) - Conclusion

TRANSCRIPT
Available here.

Support the show

SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT

Social Media:
Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.

Newsletter:
Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.

Support the Show:
Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)
One-time Donation

Leave a Review:
If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 76 

This episode is the first in a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

On Day 1 I shared about how it was a very human experience of deep loneliness and abandonment as a teenager that led me to begin making my interior journey. It’s sometimes easy to forget that it is from the real and concrete contexts of our suffering that we recognise that we are created for more.

Watch this recording on YouTube.

Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.

CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:02:12) - Introduction
(00:06:26) - Experiencing Deep Loneliness
(00:09:27) - Emulating the Saints
(00:16:36) - Falling Over and Over
(00:18:42) - Being Human
(00:20:29) - Conclusion

TRANSCRIPT
Available here.

REFLECTION PROMPT
- Are you in touch with the ache in your own human experience?  How might God be seeking to be present to you in your suffering?

Support the show

SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT

Social Media:
Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.

Newsletter:
Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.

Support the Show:
Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)
One-time Donation

Leave a Review:
If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 75 

Have you ever felt trapped in a cycle of thinking of the better self you want to grow into, wanting to take action, but not knowing how to bridge the gap between where you are and where you think you should be?

Listen to this episode to discover how this common trap of "Perfectionist Paralysis" might be playing out in your own life and uncover the ways you can break free from this pattern.

Instead of running away from our fear of inadequacy, we explore how to let God catch up with us and guide our journey into greater holiness, wholeness and authenticity.

Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.

Share this episode via this episode page.

CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:00) - Introduction
(00:04:37) - Why Do We Get Stuck?
(00:12:09) - Fear of Failing
(00:15:50) - Staying Busy to Avoid God
(00:21:35) - 3 Ways To Stay Connected During Break
(00:29:53) - Conclusion

TRANSCRIPT
Available here.

REFLECTION PROMPT
- In what ways might you be running away from God at this point in your life?
- Is there something you can do to just stop running away from him or is it too scary to stop running away from him?
- Is there someone you can ask to help you not get busier and more distracted, but to help you just hold yourself where you are and discover that God is holding you too. 

Support the show

SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT

Social Media:
Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.

Newsletter:
Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.

Support the Show:
Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)
One-time Donation

Leave a Review:
If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 74     

Have you ever wondered how our relationship with God can be influenced by our family of origin and faith communities?

Join me in a special conversation with Brya Hanan, a licensed marriage and family therapist and life coach, as we explore the often overlooked connection between feeling safe with God and our experiences within our faith communities and families. Discover the importance of safety as the foundation for trust, surrender, and taking risks to fully become who God created us to be.

In this thought-provoking episode, we also discuss the complexities of navigating faith, relationship boundaries, and attachment styles, as well as the role of interior work in our spiritual journeys.

Learn how faith and embodied trauma healing can go hand-in-hand by integrating psychology, neuroscience, and faith in the pursuit of personal growth and a deeper relationship with God.

Share this episode via this episode page.

CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:30) - Introduction
(00:01:05) - Introduction to Brya Hanan
(00:14:22) - Feeling Safe with God
(00:19:10) - Truly Knowing that I Am Loved
(00:26:39) - How do I know if I Feel Safe with Someone?
(00:29:52) - Attachment, Safety, and Faith Dysfunction
(00:34:51) - Enmeshment & Spiritual Bypassing
(00:42:20) - Navigating Faith & Boundaries
(00:51:36) - When our Faith becomes an Obstacle to Healing
(01:07:26) - An Invitation
(01:08:47) - Conclusion

TRANSCRIPT
Available here.

REFLECTION PROMPT
- I invite you to just sit with how you felt as you listened.
- Pay attention to the shifts in your emotions; how your body may have reacted as you listened to certain parts of th episode.
- There’s an invitation for you to be with yourself, especially with the more vulnerable, the wounded parts of yourself.
- Be gentle with yourself and maybe look for someone, a safe person, to share any thoughts, any insights or any feelings that may have emerged.

Support the show

SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT

Social Media:
Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.

Newsletter:
Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.

Support the Show:
Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)
One-time Donation

Leave a Review:
If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 73     

Those of us who desire to become more loving and self-transcending can mistakenly believe that our God-given desire for self-fulfilment is something innately selfish. If we are afraid to embrace and lean into our longing for self-fulfilment, we will not be able to become the unique individuals that God created us to be.

In this episode I explain how our longing for self-fulfilment is a powerful means through which God calls us into the specific and unrepeatable personal vocation we are each created to live - which is in turn the most loving and fruitful service we can offer others.

Share this episode via this episode page.

RESOURCES
Clarity Consultative-Coaching with Ann Yeong

CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:05:05) - Introduction
(00:06:37) - The Objection
(00:09:40) - Created for Self-Fufillment
(00:12:53) - Serving where the Need is
(00:18:12) - Aligning Ourselves to Our Gifts and Purpose
(00:22:26) - Sometimes being Hindered
(00:26:26) - The Orchestra Analogy
(00:31:15) - What about the Cross?
(00:35:25) - PRAXIS: Listen. Ponder. Act
(00:37:46) - Conclusion
Available here.

TRANSCRIPT
Available here.

REFLECTION PROMPT
Listen.
- As you listened to this episode,  what part of my sharing resonates with you?

Ponder.
- How that fear of being self-serving or selfish may have prevented you from taking action to move you forward in becoming the person that God created you to be?

Act.
- Take a moment to list down just three things you've done in the past, where you felt really fulfilled, really alive.

Support the show

SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT

Social Media:
Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.

Newsletter:
Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.

Support the Show:
Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)
One-time Donation

Leave a Review:
If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 72   

Are you aware of the invisible chains of unfreedom and how they keep you from expressing and becoming your true self? 

In this episode you will hear me share about three specific ways our life scripts block our path to becoming who God created us to be - in ways you may not have even realised.

Anyone who is serious about discerning their personal vocation can benefit from listening to this episode.

Share this episode via this episode page.

RESOURCES
Clarity Consultative-Coaching with Ann Yeong

CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:08:30) - Introduction
(00:15:12) - What are Life Scripts?
(00:17:59) - #1: Constricting Ourselves
(00:21:05) - #2: Distoring our Gifts
(00:30:35) - #3: Externally Directed
(00:36:11) - Recap
(00:38:26) - Tell-tale Signs we are Living our of our Personas
(00:42:45) - PRAXIS: Listen. Ponder. Act
(00:45:43) - Conclusion
Available here.

TRANSCRIPT
Available here.

REFLECTION PROMPT
Listen.
- As you listened to this episode, what resonated with you?

Ponder.
-  TWhen was the last time you kind of experienced yourself just automatically reacting in a certain way, in a particular situation, and then later wondering, why did I do that?
- Why is it that I always react that way?
- Try to remember that last time you had such an experience.

Act.
- Try and name that memory that may have come up in step two.
- Why did I react that way or why is it that I always seem to react that way in this kind of circumstance?
- See if you can name what was it that you were trying to do; what were you trying to prove about yourself? 
- Cultivate that awareness; what are the patterns that you find yourself repeating? Who are you trying to be? What are you trying to prove?

Support the show

SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT

Social Media:
Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.

Newsletter:
Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.

Support the Show:
Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)
One-time Donation

Leave a Review:
If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 71 

Even when we have been on the interior journey for a while and have grown in self-knowledge and self-acceptance, we may find that we still struggle to integrate our new awareness into our daily living. Why is that?

In this episode I delve deeper using my own current ongoing struggle of integration to explain why it is that even when we have become much clearer on who we are, we can still find it very difficult to let our be-ing match our understanding and experience.

Share this episode via this episode page.

RESOURCES
Ep 4: Living from the Inside Out
Ep 62: The Four Layers of Self-Knowledge

CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:28) - Introduction
(00:04:02) - Common Assumptions we Make
(00:05:34) - It's not that Simple
(00:07:18) - No "One-Size-Fits-All"
(00:10:14) - Framework #1: The 3 Layers of Living
(00:11:55) - Framework #2: The 4 Layers of Self-Knowledge
(00:16:36) - My Traits – 1. Kinesthetic Learner
(00:22:06) - My Traits – 2. Comprehension before Conviction
(00:22:50) - My Traits – 3. Being Explorative
(00:24:22) - My Traits – 4. Not being Hurried
(00:26:37) - My Traits can be Different from my Scripts
(00:28:12) - My Perfectionist Script
(00:44:28) - PRAXIS: Listen. Ponder. Act
(00:46:37) - Conclusion
Available here.

TRANSCRIPT
Available here.

REFLECTION PROMPT
Listen.
- As you listened to me share and talk in this episode, what resonated with you?
- What struck you?

Ponder.
- Can you think of one way that you struggle with God's design for you?
- Notice in your day-to-day living if there is some part of you that resists certain aspects of this design? - What is that aspect?

Act.
- Write this down: I believe I struggle to accept [this part of myself] because [identify a script that goes against this aspect of God's design for you].
- Fill in the blanks, fill in your answers into the [square brackets].

Support the show

SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT

Social Media:
Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.

Newsletter:
Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.

Support the Show:
Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)
One-time Donation

Leave a Review:
If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 70

One of the constant challenges we face on our road into authenticity and wholeness is the burden of  other people's expectations of us. What we don't often realise is that the "form" of these expectations can change greatly when we are in different seasons of our life, even when we have undergone conversion and growth.

In this episode I share with you three very different seasons in my life and how the initial liberation of one season led to new burdens of expectations that were of a very different nature from the season before.

Share this episode via this episode page.

CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:02:04) - Introduction
(00:04:35) - Being Shackled by Expectations
(00:12:43) - Examples of the Burdens of Expectation
(00:13:14) - Expectations in the First Season of My Life
(00:18:05) - Expectations in the Second Season of My Life
(00:25:43) - Additional & New Burdens of Expectations
(00:34:53) - Another Call, Another Season
(00:38:50) - Making Sense of God's Call
(00:43:53) - Discerning Personal Vocation
(00:44:57) - What Cross do I Decide on Carrying
(00:46:45) - Q & A
(00:48:48) - PRAXIS: Listen. Ponder. Act
(00:51:15) - Conclusion
Available here.

TRANSCRIPT
Available here.

REFLECTION PROMPT
Listen.
- As you listened to this episode, what struck you?
- What part of my sharing resonated with you?

Ponder.
-  Whose expectations are you most afraid of not fulfilling, and why?

Act.
- Identify what you are afraid of losing if you do not live up to those expectations.
- Where is that fear coming from? 

Support the show

SUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORT

Social Media:
Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.

Newsletter:
Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.

Support the Show:
Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)
One-time Donation

Leave a Review:
If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.