Becoming Me

Episode 89     

What’s the difference between controlling our emotions and regulating them? We often try to control our emotions in order to “be loving” but by doing so we actually make it harder for us to make authentic connections.

In this episode I share my experience on the difference between controlling my emotions and learning to regulate by attuning to them and the impact this has on my ability to be a safer space for myself and others.

This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

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CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:17) - Introduction
(00:02:43) - Big (Negative) Emotions
(00:08:40) - Allowing ourselves to Feel
(00:11:14) - Attuning to our Emotions
(00:19:11) - Our Younger Emotions
(00:26:20) - The Core Self
(00:29:36) - Conclusion

TRANSCRIPT
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REFLECTION PROMPT
Think about a time where you felt upset, sad or angry. Did you try to control your emotions? Were you able to let yourself feel those emotions? Try and come up with one way in which you can better attune to yourself and your emotions.

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Episode 88     

Illness. Burn out. Relationships breaking down. Death. Losing a job. Giving birth. These are some of life’s interruptions that can throw us off our carefully planned lives and make us feel destabilised.

Our instinct is usually to over-function and overcome these interruptions, but as INTERIOR PILGRIMS we have the option of seeing these interruptions as God’s invitation for us to do the REAL work of growing in freedom, restoration and love.

In this episode I talk about how life’s interruptions can be a painful grace we need to lean into instead of fight off.

This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

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CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:32) - Introduction
(00:01:36) - What Interruptions have you Experienced?
(00:05:32) - Questioning my Fundamentals
(00:06:59) - The Hidden Stories
(00:08:23) - What's the Good News?
(00:11:12) - Doubling Down or Freezing
(00:12:05) - Reinforcing our Scripts
(00:20:25) - Invitation to Surrender
(00:27:48) - Interior Integration
(00:30:53) - Conclusion

TRANSCRIPT
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REFLECTION PROMPT
Have you experienced interruptions in your life or in your interior journey? Reflect on one instance. How did you feel? What was your response? Think about how your scripts played a part in your response. Make some space for yourself and picture yourself surrendering all your current and even past interruptions.

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Episode 87     

In the interior journey it's not how slow or fast you are but the quality of the energy and presence you embody that shows how much space is within you. Slowing down is a way of cultivating that SPACE within us that enables us to exercise our freedom to choose our responses.

For many of us addicted to busyness, preoccupation and speed, we may not be able to slow down with our own efforts. Even when we think we have slowed down, in reality we are not slowing down nearly enough. Listen to my sharing in this episode on how we can move towards slowing down and becoming more free.

This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

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CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:32) - Introduction
(00:03:32) - Slowing Down
(00:11:41) - Not Feeling Safe
(00:17:31) - Hiding Behind Our Personas
(00:19:59) - Stopping When We Finally Break
(00:27:03) - Conclusion

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REFLECTION PROMPT
Are you constantly busying yourself and ignoring the boundaries that should be set? Do you live a life of space? Think about why you constantly busy yourself and what you can do to live more intentionally, and to make more space for yourself.

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Episode 86     

How well do you know yourself? The more specific and concrete we can get about knowing the way we are uniquely created and how to be aligned with our design, the freer and more confident we become in making our journey and in taking up the unique mission God created us to do.

In this episode I share some real life examples of individuals who have developed greater freedom and confidence because they gotten a lot more specific in their self-knowledge.

This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

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CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:35) - Introduction
(00:02:52) - Not Fitting In
(00:11:02) - Finding Our Fit
(00:11:21) - 1. Being Concrete about your Scripts
(00:15:34) - 2. What are our Strengths and Specific Gifts?
(00:23:22) - Self-Knowlegde: Extroversion and Intraversion
(00:33:19) - Self-Knowlegde and Self-Acceptance
(00:36:09) - Aligning our Gifts with where we are
(00:43:02) - Conclusion

TRANSCRIPT
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REFLECTION PROMPT
Do you feel like you there is a mismatch between your strengths and where you are in liffe? If you are not aware of what your strengths might be at this moment, sit with yourself and think about what activity at work, or at home that has given you immense joy.

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Episode 85     

We are often used to getting results in many areas of life by working harder, pushing past our limits and bypassing our weaknesses. Most of us try to approach our spiritual and interior lives in the same way when we begin to take our interior journey seriously.

Yet these methods that we default to actually backfire when we try to use them to grow in integration and authenticity and wholeness in Christ. In this episode I discuss why that is the case.

This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

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CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:30) - Introduction
(00:03:45) - Our Inner Critic
(00:08:09) - Being Stuck and Regressing
(00:11:42) - Pondering what's beneath our Addictive Behaviours
(00:21:07) - Knowing when it is Time to Receive
(00:26:05) - Spiritual Ascetism
(00:29:40) - Putting Ascetism in Context
(00:33:29) - How much Slack should I be giving Myself?
(00:36:28) - Try Softer
(00:38:50) - Conclusion

TRANSCRIPT
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REFLECTION PROMPT
Have you ever found yourself stuck or regressing at some point in your interior journey?If this has happened to you before, have you tried to push through with zeal to make sure you're moving forward at all costs? Sometimes, we need to able to take a step back and fall into rest. We need to learn to receive.

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Episode 84     

Many of us struggle between demanding standards of virtue and holiness from ourselves/others and being compassionate as we know we are called to be.

In this episode I invite you to observe the energy underlying your zeal or your desire to be compassionate. Are these tied to a fear of falling short somehow? Do you feel pushed or are you drawn from a place of loving freedom?

I also explain how integration will help you navigate this particular tension with greater ease and grace.

This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

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CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:32) - Introduction
(00:01:49) - Am I Compassionate with Myself?
(00:03:55) - Revisiting the Three Layers
(00:06:42) - Being Overzealous
(00:08:33) - Uable to Accept Reality
(00:16:36) - Being Overly Compassionate
(00:19:51) - Where are the Energies within you coming from?
(00:24:41) - Balancing Zeal and Compassion
(00:27:29) - Conclusion

TRANSCRIPT
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REFLECTION PROMPT
Do you identify more as someone who is over zealous or overly compassionate? Reflect on why is it you lean more towards being overly zealous or compassionate. Could it be that there is a reality that you are unable to accept?

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Episode 83     

In today’s episode I responded to a question about FREEDOM.

What does it mean to be interiorly free? What is that freedom like? How do we recognise when we are unfree? How can we become more free?

Listen to this episode to hear me discuss these questions from a practical and experiential perspective.

This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

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CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:31) - Introduction
(00:01:54) - Responding from a Place of Freedom
(00:06:45) - Self-Interest
(00:14:37) - What is Freedom?
(00:19:19) - Recognising Healing in Ourselves
(00:23:51) - How to Choose from a Place of Freedom?
(00:30:52) - Navigating the In-Between
(00:36:57) - Conclusion

TRANSCRIPT
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REFLECTION PROMPT
What are your own experiences of unfreedom and freedom? Do you recognise the signs and fruits of healing in your journey? Perhaps, there are aspects of your journey in which you are afraid to face or let go of. Reflect on these aspects and think about how you can increase your experience of being loved and of receiving love. Is this something you can boldly ask God for help with?

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Episode 82     

What do we need to successfully embark and stay on the interior journey? In this episode I explain three factors that we often miss out in our understanding of the interior journey  - and they are Timing, Grace and Readiness.

If you've been frustrated at your lack of progress even though you've been putting in effort, it may be due to one or more of these factors being missing.

This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

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CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:35) - Introduction
(00:03:43) - The Treasure Within
(00:06:53) - Protagonists Of Our Own Story
(00:16:58) - Wave of Grace
(00:18:41) - Readiness
(00:25:41) - Timing, Grace & Readiness
(00:28:49) - Conclusion

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REFLECTION PROMPT
Are you aware of the aspects of Timing, Grace and Readiness in your Interior Journey? Think about your own journey in these aspects. 

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Episode 81     

One mark of a lack of interior integration is SPIRITUALISING. And this can have real detrimental impact on ourselves, our families and our communities.

In this episode I talk about three specific ways spiritualising can blind us from reality, keep us from actually loving, and even helps keep real evil under a spiritualised wrap.

This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

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CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:49) - Introduction
(00:03:35) - What is Spiritualising?
(00:06:57) - 1. Blinds us from Emotional Wounds
(00:11:20) - Over Spiritualising as a "Leader"
(00:15:25) - 2. Blinds us from our Creatureliness
(00:21:51) - Honouring our Limits
(00:24:18) - Addictive Patterns
(00:29:25) - 3. Blinds us from Seeing Others as Human Beings to be Loved
(00:34:17) - Has it Happened to You?
(00:41:37) - Conclusion

TRANSCRIPT
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REFLECTION PROMPT
Have you been a victim of spiritualisation? Or perhaps, you have unknowingly been someone who has over-spiritualised, yourself. Try and recognise one instance in your life, or in the life of someone else that you know.

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Episode 80     

The most difficult and courageous thing I've ever had to do in the interior journey was confront the TRUTH of my relationship with my parents and the ways they have wounded me even though they loved me the best they could.

In this episode I share why acknowledging the painful truth of how our parents have wounded us is a non-negotiable for anyone wanting to become integrated, and also how we can be hopeful even when nothing external changes.

This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight.

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RESOURCE
Adam Young's The Place We Find Ourselves Podcast Ep 2

CHAPTER MARKERS
(00:00:25) - Introduction
(00:01:30) - Parental Wounds
(00:08:11) - The Place We Find Ourselves
(00:11:58) - My Own Interior Journey
(00:14:44) - 3 Parts of my Journey
(00:15:02) - 1st Part - Being Trapped in my Younger Self
(00:24:00) - 2nd Part - Being a Safe Adult
(00:39:27) - 3rd Part - Becoming Freer
(00:41:25) - Attuning to Myself & Others
(00:51:20) - Recognising Some Signs of Being Ready
(00:52:31) - Conclusion

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