I’ve a theory that as we near possibility of those things we want most (at an innermost, spiritual level), we meet and expose layer after layer of defence. Defences unwittingly created in youth to avoid the pain, like disappointment, shame, judgement, loneliness and everything else. Feelings we stand a good chance of experiencing if we take risks, and things (inevitably) go wrong, in pursuit of what we desire.
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