Bill Bennet Fit Over 50

13 Clear Traits of a Psychopath (Spot Them)

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My Narcissist Abuse Story

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Goodbye To My Narcisstic Ex

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Goodbye To My Narcisstic Ex

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Allie X

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HG Tudor

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Dr Ramani

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Merideth Miller

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My Narcissist Abuse Story

https://youtu.be/BW9oi1585kY

Goodbye To My Narcisstic Ex

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Allie X

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HG Tudor

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Dr Ramani

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Merideth Miller

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This will probably be the last music set of the year. Enjoy!

Do I Look Fat In This Outfit? by Bill Bennett

The Real Reason Why There Is A Nursing Shortage by Bill Bennett

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I was in yoga today and right before class started one of the girls that always stands behind ( I stand in the very front ) me says “ How are you doing ?” I said good…. She replies “ you don’t know do you ?”

I look at her puzzled.

She said “ your buddy, Caleb”

I didn’t reply.

She said “ he was killed” My eyes watered up and I felt like I was hit by a truck. Then without missing a beat the instructor starts the class.

She meant well but I wish she would of told me after class.

It took everything I had not to loose it. I wanted to actually leave outside for a moment.

But I realized. That’s what yoga practice is about. Facing head on life’s challenges and getting through them with grace not like a bull in a china shop.

So I closed my eyes and dedicated my practice to Caleb.

After class I found out that he and his team died in a crash. No survivors.

Caleb and I were yoga buddies, not much more. He came to my boot camp a few times and said it was too easy. Lol. I tried to beat him down but he was strong as a bull.

Caleb was straight and actually most my friends are. But I remember when he first found out I was gay , I worried that like many other straight guys that he would step back.

Caleb didn’t. He didn’t care.

Caleb was a free spirit.

He was a helicopter pilot for a crisis team that fought forest fires. He actually was in Australia for 6 months fighting fires there and I didn’t know he was back.

He loved what he did.

Most guys that do crisis work , are kinda… well full of themselves.

He was not. And actually he was the one who told me I should go for helicopter crisis nursing.

So today has been difficult.

It seems so unfair that people who are truly good people are taken from us when there are so many other people I know are terrible humans ; and nothing ever happens to them.

The only thing that helps me get through times like this , when my mind is going to a bad place is remixing music.

I can put my headphones for hours and can shut the world out and how angry I am it right now.

One day I was with Caleb and ABBA came on in my jeep.

Where most straight guys would cringe. He owned it and started dancing…. I laughed. He said “ Dancing Queen is my jam “ , we both laughed.

This mix is for you buddy.

Thank you for being a light in a world that is so dark.

You inspired me.

B2

My thoughts as I travel across the country doing crisis nursing.

The Making Of UNFUCKWITHABLE by Bill Bennett

This album is dedicated to the people that used to love that tried to silence or harm me. The ones that would take their love away from me and bread crumb me when they needed something. the ones that told me I was too old , too fat , disposable and that something was wrong with me.

But these fuckers can live in sunlight.

One of the reasons this project took so long was because I let these vampires into my life, my heart and my bed.

I was also in a brutal 9-month court battle with my ex-partner, and to make it worse I was not prepared to learn more of his lies as the courts unfolded his true colors.

A complete con artist and psychopath.

I’m talking Lifetime may be buying the rights soon.

The most surprising part was learning he had a plan to kill me at the end but did not go through with it. Yet he got the drugs in me then raped me when I was groggy and filmed it for his collection. Which he used to bait guys on Scrif and Grinder.

Imagine having someone inside you and holding you thinking you found your partner , to later on finding out that he wanted you gone band was filing you without your knowledge

And who do you talk to about that ? If I heard someone talking about that I would think they were insane. So I kept it to myself.

And I had to process this while I was working ain a Covid ICU putting people in body bags at the hospital.

I Then I did something stupid. I sent my ex groceries. My thought at the time was I was hoping it could just stop his insanity. It took it to another level. I was not allowed to do that so he filed the complaint and I was put in the general population of the Baltimore State Prison. I was the only white guy in there.

Just when I thought there was no way he could hurt me anymore then he did. It went to a whole new level.

When I finally got out and was able to get home; I bought a bag of blow, a bottle of vodka, and a few razor blades and I sat in the bathtub. I was planning on taking my life.

Until I saw my dogs all sitting in the doorway looking at me. I crawled out of the tub and layer on the floor with them. I cried all night. They never left my side.

It was then that the universe forced me into a fire I did not want to go into. Nor one that I thought I had the strength to endure. Taking a true look at myself and asking why did I let this man do this to me.

It would of been easier to play the victim. But I gave him the scissors multiple times , hoping I would get difficult results.

I died that night , I do not mean physically, I mean spiritually.

I have never been in so much pain , so alone or scared.

I had given all of myself to someone who I just wanted to love me.

Isn’t that what we all want?

And just like my father that rejected me for being who I am.

When I looked in the mirror , I saw a broken 50 year old man but inside was that 4th grader just wanting to be held. To be told it’s going to be ok and mostly that I was loved.

For 50 fucking years that’s al I ever wanted.

And what a cliche it is but quoting the Wizard of Oz when the good witch tells Dorothy. “ you had the power all along “.

Loving yourself , setting boundaries and staying far away from toxic people has to be the hardest lesson we face.

Many choose to numb themselves with sugar , drugs , sex and /or alcohol instead of looking in that mirror.

Fuck, I did for 50 years.

Not anymore.

This album, set or whatever you want to call it is my story. It is my walk through the fire and my rise from the ashes on the other side.

Nobody will ever take away my confidence again.

If this speaks to you.

I'm waiting on the other side.

The cool thing about when you get over here…

you will be "UNFUCKWITHABLE 👆"

🙏🏻

Bill Bennett