Borderline Unstable

How about we take a break from the back-to-back trauma dumping and just breathe a little.

Today I want to answer some questions, react to some comments, introduce the me I am now and give you a small glimpse into my beautiful, chaotic, sometimes emotionally charged life.

Don’t worry- if you thought the tea pot ran empty, trust me, there’s still a plethora of piping hot tea left to spill. I just need a damn break from reliving some of the worst parts of my life.

Next week I’ll be back with another “wait… wtf did she just say” episode and babes, I’m just getting started.

We've spent the first four episodes getting into some pretty heavy shit. You've heard about things that happened to me, things that shaped me, and things I'm still working through. But there's a whole person here outside those experiences, and I thought it was time you got to know the goofy little emotional gremlin behind the mic.

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In this episode, the fallout from mom and Jim's divorce brings a whole new kind of chaos.

There are secret visits, complicated loyalties, meeting #3, and a suicide attempt that changed the landscape of our lives.

Then comes life with #3- which apparently includes white gloves, a racoon, a drunk driver, an angry step-sister, and one very bizarre demand involving someone's teeth.

This is another chapter of a childhood where “normal” was apparently not on the menu.

Content Note: This episode discusses childhood trauma, domestic violence, suicide/self-harm, family conflict and firearms. 

Sometimes you don’t realize you’re learning how to survive. You just think you’re being a good, obedient kid.

In this episode, I go back to some of the moments that taught me about fear, compliance, and the people who were supposed to protect me.

From childhood experiences that shaped my fight, flight, freeze and fawn responses to the complicated ways those survival skills followed me into adulthood, this one gets HEAVY.

There’s family history, some seriously questionable “keepin’ it the family” math, domestic Violence, firearms, and a few stories that were harder to tell than I expected.

And yes… apparently I eventually stopped hiding in people’s buttcracks.

Content Note: This episode discusses childhood sexual abuse, domestic violence, firearms, threats of violence, and trauma.

At the end of the episode, I also share a simple breathing exercise that you can use if you need a moment to come back down. 

Soo.. Remember when I said Episode 1 was just the map? Yeah. Here’s where we actually start getting into the shit.

In this episode, I go back to one of my earliest childhood memories and the childhood experiences that shaped far more of my life than I understood at the time. There’s trauma. There's some questionable childhood logic. There’s Tang.

And unfortunately…

There’s a dick.

Content Note: This episode discusses childhood trauma, abuse, and sexual content involving a minor. 

Every story has a beginning, just so happens mine started in Vegas-baby.

In the first episode of Borderline Unstable, I’m giving you the broad strokes of the childhood that shaped me- the people, the chaos, the places, and the pieces of my past that eventually became the foundation for everything that came after.

This isn’t the whole story. Not even close. Consider this the map before we start getting lost.

Content Note: This podcast discusses trauma, abuse, mental illness, and other difficult subjects. Specific content warnings will be provided when appropriate.