I've found that the hard part is knowing that life is all about choices and still fucking up. Choosing to believe the best in me instead of always focusing on the worst that to be honest only I can see. Sometimes it's putting myself to work harder and move past it, other times admitting that's just how it is. I did my best and it has to be good enough. Holding on to negative thinking about me, by me, only serves to punish me. It doesn't help. Other times it's just realizing that because I see it, does not make it real. I've been wrong in my life more than I've been right. Just knowing that fact helps me feel better about me. Take an accurate look at the good in your life. If you are responsible for all the bad you are responsible for every good.

Check it.

When you have "negative" "7" whatever event or thought or memory

That means you have "positive" "7" just to get back to zero

I know it's corny but that is a fact. For me I am always focusing on the worst case scenario (thanks to the army and childhood "issues") trying to stop some impending action I do not want to happen.

Physically

I can only control two things in life. My actions, and My reactions. Focusing on manipulating these was the beginning of shadow work for me. Essentially becoming more methodical and less reactionary.

In my head I can talk, I can I guess I would say think? And some other thing that is more physical like I actually feel things I can only describe as E-motion or energy.

Emotionally.

It's harder because theres no fucking manual for our feelings except in therapy. Your thoughts become words. Your words become actions. Changing thoughts is a challenge, you honestly have to question EVERYTHING you think. The why, why. Why (insert literally any question about a thought or memory) then why (whatever it is you feel is an issue) and continue.

This is the part for me that is the fucking hardest to see. All these whys lead back to a decisive point. It's either based in love ( I love this) or fear (I'm afraid of this) even fear is just loves’ shadow. But I digress

Everytime you try you get closer to succeed.

Growth fucking hurts. It gets better , like all things, it gets easier with time and practice. For me the key has been trying to be a better man today than yesterday, if not today, its okay tomorrow is a new day.

If you think you are up for a challenge.

Go to the mirror and stare at yourself in the eyes for sixty seconds. Like really look into your heart. Then say OUTLOUD one positive thing about "you" to "you". If you are like me the first time will fucking break you.

If you can't do that. I recommend calling somebody, a professional somebody. There are tools that they teach that makes this shit fucking easy

I want to be clear. It gets easier, it never stops being work.

Two guys talking about life, some lows have highs, and the American Stonehenge. Snoop, I love you brother, I've always looked up to you.

“Ain't never been much of the church type

But I believe in the last days

I walk through Hell almost every night

But I believe it's a pathway”

https://youtu.be/it_04dk_97E

“You wonder what is spinning backwards in the falling maze

Call it quits, you in the midst of all your longest days

This is the place and I ain’t fortunate to call it home

It feels dark here it gets harder when 'ye all alone”

https://youtu.be/rf87L2LT8lw

Nixons energy here will make anyone smile. Just listen if you are feeling off. His stories will make you die laughing.

Culture

https://youtu.be/IYO78Xw1GjU

Capitol Würzburg Fight Night After Yung LA Appearance On April 3rd 2010

https://youtu.be/JwEJ0CEUysQ

Links

Georgia Guidestones

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Georgia_Guidestones

Spotify - https://open.spotify.com/show/1xopSYZMBzqMr72mRVErse?si=XKE_6k2aQw6PZMOUxP_4JQ

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Twitter - @brothersintime1

IG - Brothers_in_Time

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Just two guys talking about Safe Spaces, Heroes and Cocaine. 

https://open.spotify.com/episode/5eGG0Khdk7ion28wEYcDbS?si=f-u4XmuCSHqdUruAkRYtMQ

“I've cost you everything

But I'm not the one to blame

The bottom of a barrel

Is a place you run for

Hope... There's no hope…”

https://youtu.be/woTP0MrH4gA

“He missed out on his wife

So he decides to go and grab a knife

And take himself to the other side of the sun

Cause if he stays here then more pain'll just come”

https://youtu.be/GemK_tzubIY

MetaPhysical Level, Negative Language, The ultimate Reality is NOT, Apophatic

Mythological, Divine is like, Symbolism, Kataphatic

Levels Of Leadership

Direct

Organizational

Strategic

Culture

Triple Frontier - Netflix

Restrepo - https://watchdocumentaries.com/restrepo/

Hornets Nest

No Greater Love

Allan Watts - Akira the Don

https://open.spotify.com/album/3nbCR6OsvvZTYI0yXNGxFA?si=VuNIkuirRYG4PnObatB3ug

https://youtu.be/PagNM_oxssE

Links

Neller, Robert B. “ MARINE CORPS FORCE INTEGRATION CAMPAIGN PLAN.” United

States Marine Corps, 2015. https://www.fitness.marines.mil/Portals/211/Docs/MARINE%20CORPS%20FORCE%20INTEGRATION%20CAMPAIGN%20PLAN.pdf

McCarthy, David. "Women in Combat: A Perspective from Affective Science." Scholar.harvard.edu/. N.p., n.d.

http://scholar.harvard.edu/files/jenniferlerner/files/mccarthy_david_-_women_in_combat_a_perspective_from_affective_science.pdf

Spotify - https://open.spotify.com/show/1xopSYZMBzqMr72mRVErse?si=XKE_6k2aQw6PZMOUxP_4JQ

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Two friends talking about Life, Meta, and the nature of the beast.  Mike I really do want to become more like you.

“What if Heaven was Hell and vice versa?

If I told you, go to Hell, would you tell I cursed ya?

I reimbursed ya with the truth so you know my fate

And pray I die, I'm that nigga that they love to hate”

https://youtu.be/kVl9g4Hd1PY

“Regret sits heavy in your chest

Until sometimes it gets so hard to breathe

Sometimes it just won't go away

And you start to fear, it'll never leave”

https://youtu.be/E-hiA2J6gR4

I can only control my actions and my reactions

When I feel resistance

I find my disintegration

“Every man takes the limits of his own field of vision for the limits of the world”

-Arthur Schopenhauer

At 1:32 It is Kali, not Shiva

At 1:20:40 I was thinking Absolute Power corrupts absolutely, My ADHD ruined the segway into comics with Spider Man's Uncle Ben “With Great Power Comes Great Responsibility”

Jon Jon, I took a lot from this experience and I hope you know I love you.

Culture

Hunters - Amazon Prime

Stranger Things - Netflix

Links

Operation Paperclip

https://www.history.com/news/what-was-operation-paperclip

Council of Nicaea 325

https://www.britannica.com/event/First-Council-of-Nicaea-325

Deuteronomy 22: 28-29

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Just two men talking about truth, trust, and communication. Thank you for taking the first step with me Martinez.

“All my friends are heathens, take it slow

Wait for them to ask you who you know

Please don't make any sudden moves

You don't know the half of the abuse”

https://youtu.be/UprcpdwuwCg

“You know we've got some work to do

Oh, what a sight to see this dapper Shadow appear!

Perambulating, undulating, increasing near

And following the ripened, heightened scent of my fear

A friend or foe?”

https://youtu.be/DFqKETh5YQY

Therapy, Counseling, Introspection, Shamanic principles. However you define the EMP, It has the same purpose. Every Mental Practice, Is at its core, AS YOU SEE THEM, Enlightenment Doctrine.

Culture References

Stranger Things

Fight Club

Links

Terry Crews - https://youtu.be/F1v4o646SsA

Michael Brelo Trial -  https://youtu.be/LBxqosOyZuU

Quantum Observer -  https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/1998/02/980227055013.htm

What the Bleep do we really know - https://youtu.be/pCWvRI8G5s4

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