I Survived Suicide by Killing Myself | The Core — Trapper Searles

What happens when the version of you that helped you survive… is the very thing holding you back?

In this episode of Built For Love: The Core, Javier sits down with Trapper Searles—entrepreneur, speaker, and author of I Survived Suicide by Killing Myself—for a raw and deeply honest conversation about identity, pressure, and what it really takes to rebuild your life from the inside out.

This isn’t a surface-level conversation about healing.

This is about breaking… and choosing to rebuild.

Trapper opens up about the moment everything shifted, the internal battle most people never see, and the process of letting go of the version of himself that was built to survive—but not to live.

Together, we explore:

• Identity and emotional suppression

• The weight of expectation and internal pressure

• Letting go of who you’ve been

• Rebuilding with intention, truth, and self-awareness

If you’ve ever felt caught between who you were and who you’re becoming… this conversation will hit.

Because sometimes transformation doesn’t begin with growth—

it begins with letting something go.

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🔗 Connect with Trapper:

🌐 Website: https://trappersearles.com

📘 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/trappersearles

📸 Instagram: @trappersearles

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🎧 Listen to Built For Love:

All Platforms: https://beacons.ai/builtforlove

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Because love isn’t something we chase…

it’s something we’re built for.

Welcome to a new era of Built For Love.

In this first monthly energy forecast, Javier Ortega is joined by astrologer Regina Mirando and tarot reader Eddie Valdovinos to explore the deeper themes shaping April.

After a season that may have felt unclear, heavy, or emotionally overwhelming…

this month brings something different.

Clarity. Movement. Intention.

With all planets moving direct and strong Aries energy leading the way, April is no longer about sitting in the unknown.

It’s about taking aligned action—without rushing the process.

Together, we break down:

• The collective energy of the month

• The balance between stillness and movement

• What each zodiac sign can expect

Aries and Taurus take center stage, highlighting the shift between structure and ease, discipline and self-worth.

From there, we move through all 12 signs with intuitive insights and grounded guidance to help you navigate what’s unfolding in your life.

This episode is a reminder that:

You don’t need to force what’s next.

You just need to move with intention.

You’re not behind. You’re being aligned.

And remember…

Love isn’t something we chase, it’s something we’re built for.

00:00 Intro

02:30 April Overview

05:00 Aries Forecast

11:45 Taurus Forecast

17:00 Gemini

19:00 Cancer

22:00 Leo

24:00 Virgo

26:30 Libra

29:30 Scorpio

32:00 Sagittarius

34:40 Capricorn

37:00 Aquarius

39:50 Pisces

42:30 Final Message

This is the beginning of a new era of Built For Love.

In this opening episode of Season 2, Javier Ortega shares the evolution behind the podcast and the deeper truth that shaped this next chapter.

After stepping out of an 11-year relationship and moving through a transformative period of self-discovery, Javier reflects on what it means to return to yourself—and rebuild from a place of truth.

This episode explores the idea that healing isn’t a destination, but a relationship. That every connection introduces us to a version of ourselves. And that love is not something we simply find, but something we learn to hold, sustain, and expand.

Season 2 is designed as a toolbox—offering conversations, perspectives, and real-life experiences to support your growth, awareness, and evolution.

Whether you’re healing, becoming, or learning to love in a new way… this space is for you.

Because love isn’t something we chase—

it’s something we’re built for.

Inside Gay Dating & Love — w/ Eddie Valdovinos (@Valdovinosvv) | @CLCTV7
In this intimate sit-down, host Javier Ortega opens the door to a real conversation with best friend Eddie Valdovinos—NYC production hairstylist, intuitive tarot reader, and member of @CLCTV7. Together they unpack what it means to date and love as queer men in their 30s: identity, intention, compatibility, spirituality, and the shift from performance to presence. From hookup culture to deeper connection, from chemistry to true compatibility, Javier and Eddie explore healing past patterns, letting go, and building relationships that feel like peace.
If you’re single, rebuilding, or redefining love, this episode is an invitation to slow down, get clear, and choose what expands you.
Because love isn’t something we chase, it’s something we’re built for.

Guest: Eddie Valdovinos — IG/TikTok: @Valdovinosvv | Collective: @CLCTV7
Host: Javier Ortega — IG: @clctv7 + @builtforlovepodcast

What if the stars could help you understand your patterns in love?

In this eye-opening episode of Built For Love, host Javier Ortega sits down with Regina Mirando—astrological counselor, tarot reader, and soul evolution guide with over 25 years of experience—to decode how cosmic alignment shapes connection. From the emotional truths behind moon signs to the deeper meanings of Mars, Venus, and Pluto in relationships, this conversation unpacks more than just zodiac clichés.

We explore:

•What really determines compatibility beyond sun signs

•Why certain signs feel like home, and others trigger your growth

•How astrology mirrors our soul’s journey, patterns, and relationship needs

•Javier’s own chart revelations (hello Cancer moon!)

•How to stop self-abandoning in love and start honoring your emotional needs

Whether you’re astrology-curious or a seasoned stargazer, this episode is a powerful guide for anyone wanting to love more consciously—and attract deeper, more authentic relationships.

Guest Info:

IG: @witchywomanintx

Email: [email protected]

✨ Love isn’t something we chase. It’s something we’re built for. ✨

Twin Flames: The Real Deal w/ Manjinder Sidhu aka Mani

In this episode, Javier Ortega dives into the depth and nuance of the Twin Flame journey with spiritual teacher and human rights advocate Manjinder Sidhu, aka Mani (@myspiritualsoul).

Together, they explore what Twin Flames really are, how to navigate the emotional and spiritual awakening they trigger, and why the journey is ultimately about self-alignment—not romantic obsession.

Whether you're on a Twin Flame path or simply navigating deep soul connections, this episode offers grounded wisdom and clarity.

Learn more about Mani at: ManjinderSidhu.co.uk

There are people who inspire change—and then there are people who change the way we see ourselves. In this deeply moving episode of Built For Love, Javier Ortega sits down with visionary speaker, author, and healing catalyst Candice Moore. From surviving foster care and addiction to becoming a global leader in emotional fitness and transformation, Candice shares her profound journey of resilience and radical self-love.

Together, they explore themes of emotional homelessness, core beliefs, addiction beyond substances, and what it truly means to live from your gut—not your wounds. Candice unpacks how to reclaim your worth, make your body sacred again, and practice self-forgiveness in a world that rarely teaches it.

Whether you’ve battled addiction, people-pleasing, shame, or simply the question of whether you’re lovable as you are—this conversation will meet you where you are and lovingly challenge you to rise.

Because love isn’t supposed to hurt—love renews.

Connect with Candice Moore:

Website: www.moore-grace.com

Workbook: Let’s Unpack Core Beliefs

Episode 1: Lessons in Love & Healing w/ Kevin Troiano

What does it really mean to heal?

In this deeply personal and powerful premiere episode, I sit down with intuitive healer and breathworker Kevin Troiano.

Together, we explore the raw truth behind healing: the patterns we inherit, the pain we hide in plain sight, and the journey of reclaiming our worth.

We dive into:

• The hidden weight of being a “helper-holic”
• Psychological sobriety & non-triumphant healing
• The power of showing up fully human
• Childhood trauma, identity, and how we unknowingly shape our adult relationships
• What it means to move from survival to true connection

This episode isn’t about fixing you—it’s about feeling you.

Because love isn’t something we chase. It’s something we’re built for.

New episodes every other Tuesday. Available on all podcast platforms + YouTube.