Burp

TW: sexual abuse, graphic SA, self-harm, suicide. Please take of yourself.

RAINN- 18006564673

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Suicide hotline- 988

Losing my virginity at a young age has had a giant impact on my life. I discuss how my first "relationship" has carried into who I am today. There is a lot of tea in this episode. I share a lot of things that looked different from the outside perspective. I think I was extremely misunderstood, and now that I am finally understanding myself better, I want to share with everyone else. I also think so many of these things aren't talked about and if someone would've shed some light on them for me my life would be so different.

please give yourself a hug

Explaining how anxiety and depression show up in my life. Also, a lot of random shit. I want to take breaks in between telling all my stupid boy stories. This is a little bit of a fluffer. It was fun and made me feel a lot better... sometimes a bitch just needs to yap.

Trigger Warning: sexual abuse.

National sexual assault hotline: 800-656-4673

Reddit story I shared @thiccurlydesiqueen

I feel really misunderstood about my past self. I think if I could really shed light on one thing it's this kind of thing. I have been objectified and slut shamed since I first got tits in third grade... I learned my place in this world and how to present myself at a really young and influenceable age. I share some of my first experiences with boys and with my body. I think it's time I share my truth. This is just the beginning. It will probably be the topic of at least a few episodes or however long it takes me to share all the things that had an impact on my view of myself, my body and my sexuality. and my relationship towards boys.

Really honest anddd really all over the place. I have so many thoughts and ideas. I'm trying to explain everything happening but idk if anyone else will get it. it felt good for me. I still know nothing and have no answers, but I do have lots of thoughts.

first 10 mins is just an update of my current state... sad... Then, I talk about my current relationships and some unhealthy habits I have. I play with the idea of reconnecting with people from my past relationships. I get a little deeper into my sexuality and my relationships with straight men vs. women/other. Also, how I deal with heartbreak and learning to love myself.

I used my day off to have an "ok what now" kind of vibe. I went to the park to go walk but ended up doing a lot more than just walking. I got out of my comfort zone a little bit and it felt really freeing. Then I ramble about some other stuff in my life and talk about piercings.

NEW MIC OMG OMG... yayayayay it sounds so much better holy shit. It still takes me like 15-20 mins to really get in my zone and stop rambling, sorry ish. ghost stories, dying, and bugs.

Whoever is listening, thank you for being here. ily <3

better than the last one. I'm still unsure about audio corrections. I talk more about my life and people who had a big influence on me. also throw in some hobbies and other randomness.

audio is super messy, but I tried and am still trying to figure it out. you can tell once I kind of get into my zone it becomes less all over the place.