Living with two selves. One the world sees, one you know is real. In this episode, we discuss W.E.B. DuBois’ double consciousness from “Strivings of the Negro People”, explore the tension of being misseen, and reflect on reclaiming your whole self—soft, strong, and unapologetically human.

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In this episode of Buttercup on Melancholy Hill, we peel back the layers of Judas Iscariot—not just as a betrayer, but as a broken man who couldn’t believe he was still loved.

We explore the tension between prophecy and free will, guilt and grace, and ask the question no one wants to touch:
Could Judas have been forgiven?
And if he had waited just three more days—
Would he have seen the love that was still reaching for him, even in the dark?

Through Scripture, soul-searching reflection, and a tender spoken-word poem, this episode invites you to reconsider the stories we write off as tragic… and the parts of ourselves we think are too far gone to be redeemed.

This isn’t just about Judas.
It’s about us—the ones who’ve messed up, run away, and still long to be called friend.

In this episode of Buttercup on Melancholy Hill, we delve into the multifaceted meanings of consumption—bodily, spiritual, and psychological—through Vincent Woodard’s The Delectable Negro and the writings of Olaudah Equiano. What does it mean to be consumed by a faith that was forced upon you? How can the same religion that justified slavery become a source of personal salvation? Through poetry, reflection, and a quiet unraveling, we ask: when we consume the divine, what part of us is eaten too?