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Tabitha Chapman is not only  a survivor of NXIVM and the founder of International Cult Awareness Month, she is a therapist, founder of Freedom Train Project and much more. Raised in Assemblies of God, Tabitha lived in socially acceptable abusive environments as a child. Last year she founded International Cult Awareness Month in August, amidst a great personal loss.  Deep insights into childhood trauma and victim mentality, how children create predictability, enmeshment, what is reslience, why do we fe and so much more. Tabitha explains some incredibly interesting topics and answers questions like, why do we feel empty? What is resilience? Is a victim mentality really a thing? And many more. We hope you enjoy this deep and beautiful conversation, and that you find it as enlightening as we did. Check out some of Tabitha's projects and join us in the journey of raising cult awareness.

The Freedom Train Project (helps provide referrals to services to support stabilization to ensure safety as an utmost priority)
www.thefreedomtrainproject.org

International Cult Awareness Month
www.internationalcultawareness.org

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If you’ve seen the epic films American Psycho,  Chasing Amy or Dogma, you’ll probably recognize    our amazing guest, Guinevere Turner. Guinevere has written, starred in, and/or directed 34 films to date! Now Guinevere has written a book, When the World Didn't End. In her book, she details some of her experiences growing up in the Lyman family cult. Join us for a great discussion on Guinevere’s life, her book, finding life after  escape,  and various other culty topics.

The audio isn't stellar as our usual recording program wasn't operable, but I think you'll find the conversation worth listening to. 

Buy her book at
https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/651933/when-the-world-didnt-end-by-guinevere-turner/
Or help support your local bookstore by asking them to order it for you

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In this episode, Whisper and Jemima recap their tripto Louisville, Kentucky to attend theICSA (International Cultic Studies Association) Conference. 

Thanks to the generosity of ourlisteners, not only did they learn awhole heckin’ lot, but theymade `amazing connections, plans for advocacywork with incredible people, they also had a tonof fun, went on aboat, went underthe troll bridge,and much more!

Oh, and they sort of learned how to pronounce Louisville. (Trust, it's a thing.)

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The human brain seeks and recognizes patterns in our every day lives. Part of our survival instincts drive our brains to automatically see the negative patterns. Learning to recognize the beauty in every day life is starting to be recognized as a way to stimulate the polyvagal system, and it helps our brains to begin seeking the positive on a regular basis. Whisper and Jemima talk about polyvagal theory and the benefits of looking for the glimmers, the things that make your heart smile. Plus a few side stories and customary silliness. 

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Jo Lloyd Johnson's daughter changed everything, the moment their eyes met, Jo knew that she would be responsible for introducing the world to her child. What will she do if her world is not the world she wants for her child? 

“I spent most of my life trying to earn worth. But when I became a mother, I could not look at my child as I looked at myself. She was perfect. She was worthy. Slowly, she changed my black and white world into a world of vibrant colors.  Silenced in Eden is my journey into a new world, my faith deconstruction and journey to healing.” 
-- Jo Lloyd Johnson

This Mother's day, we remember and celebrate the strength and bravery of a mother's journey many of us know intimately: escaping a cult and breaking generational abuse, a mother’s journey to set herself and her children free. 

Purchase "Silenced in Eden" here: 
https://www.amazon.com/Silenced-Eden-Jo-Lloyd-Johnson/dp/B0BV4GMV1M/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=&sr=

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Health issues are becoming more common as the born-into-a-cult groups get older, and many of us struggle to know how to approach self care after being raised like robot soldiers with zero regard for our selves. 

In this episode Whisper and Jemima talk about the importance of listening to our bodies and asking for help before it's too late, and how hiding the trauma in our brains could cause the same effect in our bodies. 

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We're checking in with the newest member of the bionic knee club and just three days out of knee replacement surgery Jemima brings us hospital stories, inspiration, laughs and a little "slam" poetry. This episode is sure to make you smile. Which is good, because our last episode probably didn't.

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TRIGGER WARNING FOR THIS EPISODE: SA, CA, and victim blaming

We're bringing the "Cult Cringe" again..... In this episode Whisper and Jemima read another publication that was required reading for all Children of God cult members, titled "Flirty Little Teens Beware". This publication was directed at us, the children, and places the blame on us preteens and teenagers for those poor Christian men falling into the trap of lusting after a child. We do our best to process and file away the bullshit that we grew up with, continuing our quest for the freedom of our hearts and minds. 

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In this episode, we hear Sara Durham's story, from being born into a cult and raised under the crushing weight of extreme beliefs, through the cult imploding, beginning her healing journey and the work of “undoing”, to the beautiful place she is today. With encouragement, wit, and profound insights, Sara will cheer you on to believe in your own awesomeness too!   

"I'm at a place where I look in the mirror and…I love who stares back at me in the mirror and I don't feel like I'm broken anymore. "  --Sara Durham

Help us represent at ICSA:

https://gofund.me/e9c760d1

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"None of us are safe until all of us are safe." 
-A bold and true statement from this episode’s guest, Monique Ana.

Creating spaces where Survivors can experience different healing modalities is the mission at Victory Garden Sanctuary.  Born and raised in the same Children of God cult, Monique is now putting everything she has into making a safe space where survivors of human trafficking, labor trafficking and cult trafficking can find needed respite, regain connection with their deeper selves, and experience the healing power of nature all in one place. 

www.victorygardensanctuary.org
Heal Your Story ~ Find Your Magick by Monique Ana: https://youtu.be/BFXpSuN-bzs

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