S1:E12 - Butterfly Language

Dear Diary (& Listeners),

As I sit here today writing this, it is January 1st, 2024. 

A New Year always brings reflection. 

I can't help but think about where I was on this exact day last year. 

I remember waking up in an empty bed. 

I always enjoyed waking up and having the first view of my day be my husbands face. This day was different. The night prior I had felt like we were a team. He was leading with WE. He had outwardly demonstrated what I had been asking for, for so long. 

And yet here I was, waking up on the first day of the New Year, wondering where he was...

At this point, I'm sure you won't be shocked to hear that he was naked on camera, doing a video call with one of his regular clients...

It hit me different this morning. So much so that I remember it a year later. 

The reality that no matter what had happened yesterday, my current days would most likely always consist of THIS...was horrifying. 

I thought I was seeing change in him, but in reality- it was me wishing change on him. 

Dick will forever be a Caterpillar person. 

And I speak Butterfly Language. 

In Episode 12 you will witness Dick's aggression increase incrementally. You'll also join me on the ever-so-frequent rollercoaster of a "Run Up" where Dick will eventually hit a BIG jackpot. We will head to Arizona for my favorite week of the year and return once again as my birthday approaches. Excitement turns to anxiety when I uncover yet another demonstration of his promiscuous personality...

Forever Speaking My Truth,

Amanda Arnier, MLS

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