Dear Diary & Listeners, 

There are a few moments that leave me truly speechless. There are fewer moments that leave me in an aftermath of tears. 

Tonight, you get to experience one of those with me. 

Welcome back to The Amanda Show I guess...

...but like

Be fucking nice to each other. For real. 

xoxo,

Amanda

Hey Listeners,

This episode marks the beginning of a very different season.

In Season 1, you heard me, raw and unraveling, in the thick of it. But Season 2? We're zooming out. Years have passed for Ashley—and what you're about to hear isn’t someone cracking wide open in real-time... it’s someone flipping back through the chapters, trying to make sense of a story she was too busy surviving to process.

You’ll literally hear us flipping pages—yes, actual pages—as Ashley tries to recall the timeline of how it all went down. It’s a little chaotic, sometimes blurry, but that’s the point. Trauma doesn’t always leave behind a neat trail. And when your life becomes a series of pivots you never planned for? Sometimes you need a notebook just to remember how you got here.

Ashley opens up about the shame she felt in her first major relationship—the kind of shame no one prepares you for. The kind that makes you doubt yourself. That makes you feel like something’s off, but you stay anyway. Because life is happening fast. And motherhood doesn’t come with a pause button for healing.

This is the start of Ashley’s story. And while she might not fully realize how much pain still lingers... you will.

We’re not rushing through it. We’re honoring it. One page at a time.

Thanks for being here.

—Amanda Arnier, Your Host

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Y'all....

Sometimes podcasting—especially when you're unpacking the darkest chapters of people’s lives—can really take a toll on you. Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries is locked and loaded, but let me be honest… prerecording everything, batching edits, and stepping away from the mic weekly? It messed me up more than I expected.

I thought I was being efficient. But in reality? It made it easier to disconnect. To avoid. To put it off.

So here’s my reset: Okay Hear Me Out is my way back to weekly mic time. Unfiltered, unscheduled, and a little unhinged.

Think Joe Rogan meets Theo Von—but with Midwest Feminine Energy and a lot more unpopular opinions (and maybe a little more sass).

Let’s talk. Weekly. Again.

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Ashley Klemm is a boudoir photographer, mother, and survivor who empowers women to feel their best in their own skin—both through her lens and her story. She’s known for capturing raw confidence and speaking her truth without a filter.

Ashley joins Amanda Arnier for the debut of Okay, Hear Me Out—talking toxic thought patterns, not-so-hot takes, and a whole lot of opposing viewpoints on modern dating, relationships, and everything in between.

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Dear Diary & Listeners,

There’s something unsettling about the way stories are told. Victims speak about their experiences. Predators speak about their victims.

When someone endures pain, betrayal, and manipulation, they share their story in an effort to heal, to be understood, to reclaim their truth. But the ones who inflicted that pain? They spend their time making sure you only hear their version of events. They rewrite history. They call their victims crazy, difficult, unstable—anything to discredit the person who knows exactly what they’ve done.

That’s why this episode is so important. Before you hear what happened to Ashley, you need to know who she is. The woman behind the story. Her background, her voice, her perspective—because understanding her as a human being is everything.

Once the truth unfolds, you’ll see why the people who try the hardest to silence victims are the ones with the most to hide.

Welcome to The Eye of the Storm...

Forever Speaking the Truth,

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Dear Diary & Listeners,

In this riveting Premiere Trailer for Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast, I will introduce you to Ashley Klemm—a woman whose story of love and betrayal is as intense as the storm rollin' in this season.

Ashley bares it all as she guides us through the highs of romance, the heartbreak of loss, and the devastation of manipulation, culminating in the harsh realities of a lengthy family court battle.

Brace yourselves for a raw and eye-opening journey that sets the tone for a season marked by turbulent truths and fierce resilience.

Forever Sharing Our Truths,

Amanda & Ashley

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Dear Diary & Listeners,

I’d be lying if I said getting to this last episode of The Dichotomy Diaries was anything close to a walk in the park. In truth, it’s been a grueling journey—one that has required me to face the ashes of my past and find a way to rise above them. Starting and maintaining this podcast has been the single hardest thing I’ve done, forcing me to dissect my experiences and uncover the roots of my pain. Much like the haunting echoes in Illenium’s From the Ashes, I've wrestled with being broken down only to rise again. That song is close to my heart because, just as Phoenix shaped who I am today, it’s also where I became my most broken. It's ironic: Phoenix both created and nearly destroyed me.

As humans, we crave understanding. When faced with unanswered questions, we can either bury them or seek answers, no matter the cost. So, yes—I fucked around and found out, and I don't regret it. There were days I wanted to give up, to disappear from the internet entirely. But each day, I rose with purpose, determined to see this through. And while this process has been healing, it has also been intensely challenging, revealing both sadness and the joy of personal transformation.

Hosting this podcast has unintentionally filtered out the wrong people from my life—The Fuck Boy Filter, if you will. Those who approached me should have known that I have no patience for those who aren’t genuine or respectful. It's worked, more or less, but I have encountered some strange birds along the way. Thankfully, the DMs have slowed, and the wildest proposals now feel like a distant memory. Even better, the podcast has acted as a background check, a sort of litmus test for anyone new who enters my life.

I am so happy to mention that the new man in my life is beyond amazing. Though he respects my work and acknowledges my commitment, he hasn’t listened to a single episode. Initially, I was disappointed—it’s my art, after all. But then, I realized that not everyone needs to know every detail. True connection doesn’t need to know the scars in high definition; it can see the resilience in your eyes and recognize your strength without needing every gritty detail. I am positive that if he tuned in, he’d be fuming just a few minutes into the first episode. And honestly? I can’t blame him.

I hope this final episode brings you the closure it brought me. I hope you found value in listening to my journey, and if you did, I’d love to hear about it. My DMs are always open. 

As I wrap up Season 1 of The Dichotomy Diaries, I find myself reflecting on all I’ve endured and overcome. There were countless times when I was faced with people trying to burn down everything I had worked to rebuild. To those who wanted to see me fall, here’s my response: What do you want from me tonight? You wanna burn down everything in sight? I’ve walked through the flames and emerged stronger, unafraid of what comes next.

Because I’ve realized I’m not just surviving this fire; I’m thriving in it. So go on, light your matches, and watch as I rise from the ashes.

Thank you for standing beside me in the fire. Season 2 awaits...

Forever Speaking My Truth, 

Amanda L. Arnier, MLS

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Dear Diary & Listeners,

In this episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I welcome Kyree Oliver, the world’s leading masculinity coach featured on: FOX, CNBC, Inc., ABC, ESPN, MSN, NBC News, & CBS; for a thought-provoking discussion on personal transformation, relationships, and redefining masculinity. With a background in psychology and marketing, Kyree shares insights into what sets his coaching approach apart and why his clients seek him out after working with others.

The conversation dives into the balance between support and challenge, the power of storytelling in shaping identity, and the often-overlooked nuances of masculinity. Kyree and I explore the dynamics of relationships, the importance of authenticity, and the challenges of staying true to oneself in a world full of expectations. From navigating difficult conversations and setting boundaries to understanding the complexities of energy in relationships, this bonus episode offers a fresh perspective on what it means to grow and connect in today's world.

Whether you’re curious about the modern take on masculinity or looking for advice on personal growth and relationships, this episode is a must-listen. Don’t miss out on the powerful insights and practical advice that could change the way you see yourself and those around you.

Forever Speaking Truth,

Amanda Arnier, MLS

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Website: https://www.kyree.com

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TRIGGER WARNING: This episode of The Dichotomy Diaries discusses sexual assault in detail. If this topic is triggering for you, please take care of yourself and consider skipping this episode.

Dear Diary & Listeners,

The past few months have been a serious struggle for me. I’ve been dragging my feet on wrapping up Season 1 of the podcast, stuck in this frustrating writers' block. No matter what I did, I just couldn’t get the creative juices flowing like I used to, keeping me up late into the night creating for you all.

I think I know what sparked the shift, but it’s still a bit confusing. I reconnected with someone who just gets my brain. Being around him feels amazing—safe, even. It’s like all the overthinking noise in my head quieted down for a change. But here’s the thing: I need challenges in my life to stay motivated. I thrive on goals to work toward every day. This podcast was that challenge for me. 

But as Season 1 wrapped up and I got to the final interview, I looked around and thought, “WTF? This is too easy now.” And you know what? The most unexpected challenge I found was in my own head. My new relationship is healthy and fulfilling, but I’m literally challenging my traumatized brain every day not to go off the deep end and screw it all up. Can you imagine that feeling? Being completely happy and fulfilled, yet your brain is like, “ABORT! Everyone's a liar!” It’s a wild ride.

Here’s the thing I didn’t know: there are people out there who see you struggling, who actually help and affirm your feelings, and who can take a horrible situation born from trauma and make it better. Yep, not worse—better.

So, that brings me to why I’m sharing what I’m sharing today. I’m going to take you back to something that happened to me about 11 years ago. It was traumatic then, and it still is to think about (I definitely had a few mini panic attacks while recording this—watch it on YouTube if you want to see how wild it was). I’ll walk you through one of my first Tinder dates, back when it was the hottest dating app out there.

As I always say, shame has no home inside me. I made some bad choices that put me in danger, and I need to own up to that. I want to share it with you so you can see, 1) we all make mistakes, 2) how serious those mistakes can be, 3) what you can do to avoid them, and 4) the tools you need to stay safe in this crazy dating world.

Maybe it’s because I feel safe, seen, and truly loved right now, but I really want to get this off my chest. I’m not going to lie, though—this is rough. It’s graphic, and if you have any issues with content related to sexual assault, I suggest you skip this episode.

As always, thanks for giving me a place to be 100% myself. Thank you for listening to me without judgment. You all keep me going. Oh, and PS: I’m so glad to be back on the mic.

Forever Sharing My Truth, 

Amanda 

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Dear Diary & Listeners, 

I did an interview a while back with two LOVELY ladies by the name of Behk & LAH. If you haven't heard it yet, you're about to. 

Enjoy!

Amanda

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In this special collaboration episode, Behk & LAH of "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" sit down with Amanda Arnier, the insightful host of "The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast." Together, they explore emotional intricacies in relationships, focusing on the challenges of dealing with narcissists and toxic people. 

Topics Discussed:

• Meet Amanda Arnier of the podcast, The Dichotomy Diaries

Amanda brings her unique perspective from "The Dichotomy Diaries," where she recounts her relationship with Dick and shares the experiences of other women who were also involved with him. This episode discusses the complexities of narcissists, strategies for navigating toxic dynamics, and the importance of sharing these stories for healing.

Please tune in for an intimate and revealing dialogue that offers a deeper understanding of Amanda’s mission and the powerful stories she shares with her audience.

Subscribe and listen to "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" and "The Dichotomy Diaries" on your favorite podcast platforms. Don't forget to rate, review, and share! 

Book mentioned in this episode:

The Road Less Traveled: A New Psychology of Love, Values, and Spiritual Growth by M. Scott Peck M.D.

Content Warning: This episode discusses various forms of toxic abuse, narcissistic abuse, and any topics that may disturb some listeners. Listener discretion is advised. 

We are not doctors or therapists; you should not take our opinions as medical advice.

Hosts: Behk & LAH

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Dear Diary & Listener's,

I cannot tell you how excited I was to book this interview, with Dr. Nadine Macaluso. While most of you may not know her immediately by just mentioning her name- most of you probably know her story.

Dr. Nadine Macaluso was married to Jordan Belfort, The Wolf of Wall Street. Her character, name changed, was played by the beautiful Margo Robbie in the Scorsese director box office hit!

Join Dr. Nae and I as we discuss so many topics dear to both of our hearts.

In this episode Dr. Nadine Macaluso, a licensed marriage and family therapist, shares her story of being married to Jordan Belfort, the Wolf of Wall Street, and how it led her to write a book and become an advocate for trauma bonding and pathological lovers.

She discusses the challenges of having her life portrayed in a movie and the lack of control she had over the narrative. Dr. Macaluso emphasizes the importance of self-reflection and understanding one's own vulnerabilities in order to break free from toxic relationships. She also explores the concept of cognitive dissonance and the difficulty of leaving an abusive partner.

The conversation explores the themes of healing from trauma bonds, finding one's voice, and navigating new relationships after abuse. Dr. Nae and I emphasize the importance of self-compassion and grace in the healing process. The conversation also touches on the challenges of co-parenting and the impact of trauma bonds on children. We both share their personal experiences and offer hope for post-traumatic growth and reinvention.

Forever Speaking My Truth,

Amanda

Be sure to check below for Dr. Nadine's website where you can order her book Run Like Hell and explore many of her free tools, like the Self Compassion Assessment we discussed in this episode. Give Dr. Nae a follow on her social media, all linked below as well!

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