bycam

a reflection on the first week in a new city - feeling ungrounded, unfamiliar, and deeply inside my own mind as i learn how to settle into a place that isn’t home yet.

the apps. dating apps or friend dating apps? dating in 2026, good lord.

To have Charisma

creating a feeling, to be known by you

first stop in this nomad journey, boston for 3 months. did i like it, love it, will i move there, will i end up there? who knows

take yourself on a damn date & try not to be on your phone. be aware of your surroundings and people watch. you wont regret it.

when leaving in philly i always wanted to go to dinner or go out on the town by myself. just another way to show myself i can lean on myself and not have to wait for someone to do something with & i actually really enjoyed it. it was the perfect event and something CLAIRE wanted to do. enjoy.

i wanted to prove to myself that those low feelings will also pass and look at that i was right.

with all these challenges -  i take a deep breath and realize that this is what I have asked for for the last year of my life. the nomad life

ive been having a hard time making those day to day decisions, with the fear that if i make one decision over the other, it’ll change what’s supposed to happen? when i say that out loud, it makes me realize whatever decision i make is meant to happen and i have to lean into that and be confident with that.