A live-to-tape entry exploring another potential lockdown, culling the toxic parts of yourself, and camouflage.  

25 minutes of live-to-tape ramblings about what came to me while standing in my kitchen.

.A first of its kind, written from scratch, entry.

Covering an introduction into the Maturity Assessment Profile (MAP) and communication and thought processes, this entry explores my issues around communicating with others.

A live-to-tape session reflecting on a previous post about lying, and how becoming aware of problems can have the effect of making things worse before they get better. 

I touch on how I hide behind logic, a weight of sadness, and being good company. 

”When you tell the truth, what happens is good.

Regardless of what happens.“

What's the deal with groups of friends choosing to distract themselves with their phones? What did we do before we had things in our hands to stare at? I judge this behaviour while being guilty of doing it myself. 

Our connection to each other seems to be a cause of my feeling lonely. And I can't help but blame you for it.

An update on a previous entry where I mentioned the direction of this podcast as well as what I’ve been learning from Susanne Cook-Greuter’s research paper on ego development.

I also touch on growing and recognizing the parts of self and the links between dichotomies and ancient teachings. Drawing comparisons between the mind of a child and the mind of an adult.

if you’d like to read the research paper I’m currently studying you can do so here:

http://www.cook-greuter.com/Cook-Greuter%209%20levels%20paper%20new%201.1'14%2097p%5B1%5D.pdf

You’re gonna come on an adventure with me while I figure out what I’m doing here, who I am, what I’m about, and what’s up with this podcast?

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Upon reflection I don’t think I’m using this medium as best it can be used. A trend seems to be appearing that I’d rather not humour. As such, we’re going to take this podcast in a different direction.

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Touch on “demons”, avoiding “performance“, changing your mind, creating structure, ideas on future entries... 

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im talking so god damned fast

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Maybe I’ll figure out why it’s so important to me to figure myself out by figuring myself out. 

In a past entry I had mentioned meeting my dragons and whether or not I would know what to do when meeting.

I think I met a dragon, and I don’t know what to do about it. 

What the fuck is going on?!