Camera Experiments

Being yourself is such a complicated topic, this is me trying to wrap my head around it, and talking about why I love talking and why I hate parties and how that can't possibly make any sense... but who cares, we're all complicated beings anyway.

yeah. i said film when talking about Waiting for Godot, i meant book, u know what I meant.

i did something! non-film related! it was very cool and i'm excited to do more things!

all about burn-out and taking a "vacation" from taking vacations from work.

read the title.

in which i cry, so i'm sorry about that.

being vulnerable is very difficult.

if you feel alone, lost or unwelcome where you are, this is for you.

and if you feel like no one loves you, i do, and i am here.

List of things I accomplished this year:

- Produced and finished production on JFA (largest project I've done so far)

- Directed a short film on 35mm Kodak stock in Italy!

- Got a full time job in a production office

- Went to California & Nevada

- Started Waddling Duck (my banner & soon to be Prod Co.)

- Made and met a lot of new friends (from all over the world)

- Signed on to 3 more large projects for 2024

- Learned to stay where my honesty and bluntness and openness and kindness and vulnerability are valued

- Tried something new: SILENT REVUE

- AD'd for the first time ever

OSWALD TEASER:

https://youtu.be/SCsbhYYoTYc?si=2XPApiLE7gPBnwpV

OSWALD ORIGINAL:

https://youtu.be/u0Hi779_Ta4?si=CJVGaOxxG9L-bnRg

What creative process, man, honestly, I feel like I'm bullshitting over here - my "creative process" has only just started to appear. I've always loved to write, and always loved to read, so it was a natural progression into journaling for, not only my mental health, but for documenting the ideas that popped up randomly throughout the day. Stories about my life, the traumas, the great points, scheduling my time to work on projects - it's all in there.

Note: I mention making a Pt. 2 of my Bullies episode. I'm not sure what that will be about yet, but I intend on it being hopeful. Just for anyone wondering. :)

I started a Production Company, woo!

In this episode, I talk about the positive feelings I've been having around filmmaking, going out to events, starting new and gigantic projects - and actually finishing some! I talk about what I've been up to recently as well.

You can find me here:

@wddlng on Instagram

@renzaa on Letterboxd

*Was testing out using my air pods as a microphone...I do not recommend it.*

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