R we going backwards in time? Or at least in reverse presentation in scatterphobic bliss...?

falanex discovers canarapy(the study of existing as a canarapist) and quickly becomes disillusioned by the ratrace of being the only canarapist ...that matters. In this chaotic, rushed, and timeless telling, lies a hope that the listener finds a lil canarapist in not only themselves...but in everyone....see!? Thas why everyone had to die in the end....oops.