• You are struggling to mourn a mother whose relationship was emotionally complicated, high-conflict, or marked by addiction and depression.

• You feel deep guilt or shame for experiencing intense anger toward your deceased mother over choices she made during her life.

• You find yourself trapped in a "shame spiral," feeling like your complicated grief isn't validated by standard, soft mourning spaces.

• You are a mother running a business or leading a team who is fiercely committed to doing the hard work of unpacking ancestral trauma for your own children.

Inside the Episode:

Living in the Grace Left Behind: Channeling the profound, lifelong wisdom of a mother who taught that we are always held in the grace of an unknown power.

Connect with Nicole:

• 📧 Join the 4 O'Clock Club: Access our curated weekly inner circle newsletter sent every single Friday at 4:00 PM: Subscribe to the Club.

• ✨ Work with Me: Access deep-rooted transformational coaching to process what you've been carrying. Book your free connection call: Calendly.

• 📸 Instagram: Send a DM or share a voice memo of your own love note to be witnessed by our community: @thenicoleweston.

"Your cellular memory doesn't care about the calendar. The week after a major milestone is often when the high-functioning facade cracks and your body demands that you stop and feel."

The celebration has passed, the promotional emails have finally stopped flooding your inbox, and the world has moved on. But for motherless mothers, the days immediately following Mother's Day are often the heaviest. It is in this quiet aftermath that the exhaustion of holding a dual identity—being fiercely celebrated by your own children while deeply grieving the woman who once celebrated you—settles into your physical body.

In this high-impact solo episode, host Nicole Weston drops the polished presentation to sit with you in the tender, unpolished reality of a post-holiday emotional hangover. Nicole shares her personal journey of co-creating an active, vibrant spiritual relationship with her late mother, Lisa, rather than treating her memory like a closed chapter. She explores why major seasonal milestones trigger deep cellular trauma responses regardless of how many years have passed, and recounts the heartbreakingly beautiful moment her daughter asked, "Why didn't Nanny just bring her phone when she died?"—the exact question that birthed the global Can't Call Your Mom movement.

Finally, Nicole honors your grief by reading the names of mothers submitted by over 2,500 women within our community, reminding you that your love has a permanent home

Featured Free Resource

• Reclaim Your Identity:Mother loss is a permanent identity shift. Stop trying to glue the pieces of your old life back together and meet the woman you are becoming. Download Nicole's free 5-Part Integration Workbook, Becoming Her designed to help the motherless mother step out of survival mode and into clarity, peace, and confidence. 

This Episode Is For You If:

The Roll Call of Honor: A sacred moment dedicated to reading names from our global collective of 2,500+ motherless daughters.

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📸 Instagram: Send a DM or share a voice memo of your own love note to be witnessed by our community: @thenicoleweston.

"Grief is a lazy river—sometimes peaceful, sometimes white-water rapids. Nurturing your relationship with your mom in spirit becomes the ultimate guiding light to bring your nervous system home."

If the weeks leading up to Mother's Day leave you feeling exhausted, overstimulated, or quietly resentful of the commercialized noise in your inbox, you are not alone. For motherless mothers, navigating this season is a highly complex, multi-layered environment where you are trying to honor your own motherhood while holding a deep, physical ache for the woman who is no longer here.

In this raw, unfiltered roundtable episode, host Nicole Weston sits down with Miranda Malone (The Dead Mom Therapist) and Brittany Schmidt (Psychic Medium & Spiritual Mentor) for an unscripted, soul-led conversation on transforming seasonal grief into a sacred portal of connection.

Together, they unpack the reality of somatic anniversary triggers, the practice of "microdosing" your grief daily, and how to communicate with your children to break generational trauma around loss. Brittany and Miranda share their expert frameworks for reading spiritual synchronicities, establishing boundaries with in-laws during loaded holidays, and integrating your shadow parts so you can actively choose love over profound loneliness.

Featured Free Resource

• Reclaim Your Identity: Mother loss is more than a grief event—it is a permanent identity shift. Stop trying to glue the pieces of your old life back together. Download Nicole's free 5-Part Integration Workbook, Becoming Her, designed for the motherless mother who is ready to step out of survival mode and into clarity, peace, and confidence.

This Episode Is For You If:

• You experience an intense drop in your frustration tolerance and a rise in irritability 5 to 10 business days before Mother's Day arrives.

• Your mother passed away before you became a parent, and you struggle to celebrate yourself without highlighting her absence.

• You are highly spiritual but find yourself intellectualizing your feelings rather than letting your body physically move the grief.

• You want to teach your children how to build an active, vibrant relationship with the maternal ancestors they cannot physically see.

Inside the Episode:

• The 5-Year Evolution: Moving from the initial five years of absolute energetic chaos into an integrated, spiritual relationship with your parent.

• Microdosing Your Grief: Concrete daily rituals—from buying specific flowers to ordering coffee in her name—to keep her connection loud and clear.

• Demanding Signier Signs: How to ask spirit for weirdly specific indicators, featuring Brittany's wild story of the purple Jeep, a birthday license plate, and an ice cream shop.

• The Death Meets Disco Energy: Shaking up traditional, somber Western mourning spaces by infusing high-vibrational music (like Billy Joel's Vienna) into grief circles.

• The 4-Minute Inner Child Shift: Nicole shares her real-time somatic framework for guiding her 7-year-old daughter through inner child integration before a major performance.

• The Final Phone Call: What Nicole, Miranda, and Brittany would say today if they could reach their mothers on the phone for one last conversation.

Connect with Our Guests:

🔮 Connect with Brittany: Access spiritual mentorship, mediumship tools, and breathwork frameworks a ⁠http://www.brittanyschmidt.ca⁠ 

🌿 Connect with Miranda: Explore the private Griever Circles and workshops inside the Dead Mom Club at⁠http://www.mirandamalone.co

Connect with Nicole:

• ✨ Work with Me: Access deep-rooted transformational coaching to process what you've been carrying. Book your free connection call: Calendly

• 📸 Instagram: Send a DM or share a voice memo of your own love note to be witnessed by our community: @thenicoleweston

"Generational wealth transfer isn't just paperwork—it's a high-conflict minefield of grief, family fractures, and financial turmoil because our society is deeply grief-illiterate."

When an anchor passes away, the legal reality of executor duties can trigger unexpected family conflict, blowing families apart just as they are trying to process intense heartbreak. Navigating these legal and financial complexes while simultaneously stepping into perimenopause, turning 50, and managing a business forces an ultimate, high-stakes re-evaluation of your identity.

In this profoundly honest and strategic conversation, Nicole Weston sits down with Lisa Kangethe—business owner, estate consultant, and financial strategist at the Wall of Wealth—to expose the unpolished realities of estate management after losing her mother, Sharon. Lisa shares her raw experience as a co-executor, the biological compound effect of navigating perimenopause and grief simultaneously, and the critical importance of medical and hormonal support when old coping mechanisms fail. This conversation is a definitive masterclass for any high-capacity woman holding immense burdens who needs to learn how to "go slow" and lead her family through life's biggest legal and emotional storms.

🛠️ Featured Free Resource

Download Nicole's free 5-Part Integration Workbook, Becoming Her designed for the motherless mother who is ready to step out of survival mode and into clarity, peace, and permanent confidence. (Be sure to check your spam/junk folder and mark the email as 'safe' to receive your download).

This Episode Is For You If:

• You are a co-executor or beneficiary currently navigating a complex estate transfer, inheritance, or unexpected family tension.

• You are a midlife woman experiencing perimenopause or menopause while trying to process the death of your mother.

• You find yourself in high-functioning "executor mode," staying busy to avoid the underlying wave of sadness.

• You are struggling with extreme indecisiveness, brain fog, and limited emotional capacity after a major loss.

Inside the Episode:

• The Executor Trap: Unpacking the financial turmoil and family fractures that surface during the first two years of managing an estate.

• The Midlife Duality: How turning 50 and navigating hormonal shifts compound the isolation of being a motherless daughter.

• Combating Grief Illiteracy: Shifting the narrative away from toxic positivity and utilizing tools like hormone replacement therapy (HRT) and dedicated trauma coaching.

• The Sixth Phase of Grief: Moving seamlessly through traditional frameworks to access David Kessler's model of finding meaning.

• The Power of Small Rituals: Practical, daily grounding anchors—from lighting specific candles to wearing your late mother's signature perfume.

Connect with Us:

• 💼 Connect with Lisa: Connect with Lisa Kangethe on LinkedIn and explore strategic wealth transfer resources directly at the Wall of Wealth.

• ✨ Work with Me: Access deep-rooted transformational coaching to process what you've been carrying. Book your free connection call: Calendly.

• 📸 Instagram: Send a DM or share a voice memo of your own love note to be witnessed by our community: @thenicoleweston.

"We are forever changed. So how do we let ourselves evolve through the grieving process and become who we're meant to become in this new chapter of our lives? I am her and she is me."

True leadership isn't about maintaining a polished, transactional corporate image; it is about becoming a fully integrated personal and professional human. When you choose to lead your life and business from a heart-centered place, you stop fighting to be right and instead allow profound personal grief to evolve your identity, your boundaries, and your capacity to hold space for others.

In this grounding conversation, Nicole Weston sits down with Heather Haigh—executive coach, co-founder of Women.Lead.Now., and author of Living by HEART—to unpack the long-term practice of emotional integration.

Heather shares how initiating her heart-led path 13 years ago gave her the emotional capacity to remain completely present with her parents during their final years. She opens up about navigating deep ideological values divides with her father Stuart, transforming a painful maternal wound into profound leadership wisdom, and the undeniable ancestral signs—from a snowy white owl in her Toronto backyard to loons on the cottage dock—that prove love doesn't end at death.

This Episode Is For You If:

• You want to bridge your deep internal healing journey with your professional identity as an executive or wealth leader.

• You are navigating intense ideological, political, or lifestyle differences with an aging parent and want to choose relationship over resentment.

• You carry lingering guilt or pain from a parent's sharp words and want to alchemize that emotional wound into wisdom.

• You actively find comfort in signs, symbols, and synchronicities from the other side but want to ground them into your practical life.

Inside the Episode:

• The 13-Year Framework: How Heather's early investment in systemic development and emotional intelligence brought deep peace to her caregiving years.

• The Stuart Divide: A conscious strategy for loving a parent through a profound values gap without abandoning your own truth.

• From Wound to Wisdom: Processing the heavy moment her mother called her a bully, and how Heather integrated that pain to step into her next chapter.

• Portals of Connection: Utilizing music and specific signs—like the white owl that appeared on the day of her mother Margaret's passing—as vehicles for somatic release.

• The Evolution of Identity: Why holding onto who you were before a parent died creates internal friction, and how to allow yourself to expand instead.

Connect with Us:

• 📖 Heather's Book: Purchase your copy of Living by HEART and explore the Evolved Team Leadership™ Method directly at www.livingbyheart.ca

• ✨ Work with Me: Access deep-rooted transformational coaching to process what you've been carrying. Book your free connection call: Calendly.

• 📸 Instagram: Send a DM or share a voice memo of your own love note to be witnessed by our community: @thenicoleweston.

"Dying doesn't make someone a saint. Healing requires us to meet the needs of the inner child at the exact age the loss occurred."

In this profound and unapologetic episode, Nicole Weston sits down with Miranda Malone—clinical therapist, founder of the Dead Mom Club, and known online as "The Dead Mom Therapist." Miranda shares her personal story of losing her mother, Rosalie Ann Malone, at just five months old.

Together, they explore the psychological mechanics of anxious attachment, the therapeutic power of daily micro-grief rituals, and the taboo truth that "dying doesn't make someone a saint."

They also dive into spiritual frameworks like soul contracts and predestiny, discussing how their mothers' transitions paved the structural pathways for their current missions to support grieving women worldwide.

This Episode Is For You If:

• You experienced mother loss at a very young age and struggle with anxious attachment, overperforming, or self-abandonment in your current relationships.

• You are ready to explore deep inner child work that targets the exact developmental age your trauma or loss occurred.

• You want to build a sustainable, comforting routine of daily grief rituals that anchor your late mother's memory into your modern lifestyle.

• You are looking for a non-judgmental, specialized community that validates all forms of maternal loss, regardless of timeline.

Inside the Episode:

• The Power of Ritual: Miranda’s personal practice of connecting with Rosalie through targeted actions, like purchasing specific flowers and ordering coffee in her name.

• The Blueprint of Anxious Attachment: Unpacking how early maternal loss wires the nervous system for self-abandonment and fear of disconnection in business and marriage.

• Tending the Infant Self: A practical guide to reframing inner child work by meeting the biological and emotional needs of the age your loss occurred.

• The Dead Mom Club Ecosystem: An insider look at Miranda's virtual sanctuary, featuring monthly Griever Circles, workshops, and the private "Griever Lounge" for global support.

Connect with Us:

• 🚪 Join the Circle: Access specialized monthly griever workshops directly via the Dead Mom Club Checkout.

• ✨ Work with Me: Access deep-rooted transformational coaching to process what you've been carrying. Book your free connection call: Calendly.

• 📸 Instagram: Send a DM or share a voice memo of your own love note to be witnessed by our community: @thenicoleweston.

"I would do anything to have her back. But this is what it is—so how can we expand it into more?"

When a maternal anchor passes away, her legacy doesn’t disappear; it reshapes itself within the daughters left behind. For Kelsey Reidl, her mother Heather was a passionate gatherer of people—someone who meticulously wrote out recipe cards for friends and refused to sit down at her own dinner parties because she was too busy tending to those she loved. Four years after Heather’s passing, that same community-building energy flows directly through Kelsey's life and business.

In this beautiful and deeply reflective conversation, Nicole Weston sits down with Kelsey Reidl to explore the delicate transition between the internal darkness of loss and the arrival of unexpected light. Kelsey opens up about the unique, isolating ache of being a motherless woman who was not yet a mother, and the profound moment her son Freddy was born on Christmas Day—her late mother’s absolute favorite holiday. Together, they dissect the sharp boundary between toxic positivity and genuinely searching for healing "glimmers," while offering insight into how different family members process the very same loss on completely different timelines.

This Episode Is For You If:

• You are navigating the complex identity transition of stepping into motherhood or pregnancy without your own mother here to guide you.

• You feel stuck between family members who handle grief differently—some consumed by the past, others running toward the future.

• You are highly skeptical of toxic positivity but are searching for a realistic way to find peace and hope after a devastating loss.

• You want to explore how ancestral energy and a mother's love can continue to guide your major life decisions from the other side.

Inside the Episode:

• The Christmas Day Miracle: Processing the birth of Kelsey’s son Freddy and how the timing cracked open a heart that felt permanently broken.

• The Dual-Identity Void: Shedding light on the quiet emotional darkness experienced by motherless daughters before they have children of their own.

• Glimmers vs. Forced Positivity: Why finding meaning in loss isn't about pretending a tragedy is good, but rather about refusing to let your capacity for love stop growing.

• The Peace of the Present: Unpacking the transformative concept: "When you're depressed, you live in the past. When you're anxious, you live in the future. But when you're at peace, you live in the present."

• Rebuilding Systemic Beliefs: How profound heartbreak can shake your spiritual foundations, and how to safely find your way back to personal trust and expansion.

Connect with Nicole:

• ✨ Work with Me: Access deep-rooted transformational coaching to process what you've been carrying. Book your free connection call: Calendly

• 📸 Instagram: Send a DM or share a voice memo of your own love note to be witnessed by our community: @thenicoleweston

"If you have difficulty saying no and someone is requesting something from you—typically your time, your energy, or your money—I want you to ask yourself: Am I saying yes because I fear this person's disapproval? If the answer is yes, you must say no."

Nobody prepared you for the impossible weight of trying to show up as a present mother, an ambitious business owner, and an intentional partner while silently carrying a loss that has no timeline and no rulebook. Grieving the loss of your mother requires immense energy, yet high-capacity women often default to people-pleasing, abandoning their own healing to keep everyone else comfortable.

In this deeply personal solo coaching session, Nicole Weston coaches her younger self through the essential boundaries needed to protect a raw nervous system. Introducing her signature ME First Framework (focusing on Mental and Emotional capacity), Nicole shares a compassionate, step-by-step roadmap to communicate your actual capacity to those who love you most. She provides practical tools modeled after Avalon Empowerment to help you stop saying yes when your body is screaming no, allowing you to navigate death anniversaries and emotionally loaded seasons with true intention.

This Episode Is For You If:

• You constantly feel like a fraud for struggling, judging yourself for not "bouncing back" faster into your business or family routines.

• You frequently agree to external obligations out of a deep-seated fear of disapproval or an unmet need for validation.

• You treat your grief like an invisible wound, hiding your pain because you feel society has left no space for your real timeline.

• You are heading into a heavy anniversary or holiday season and feel completely unequipped to manage the emotional drainage.

Inside the Episode:

• The ME First Framework: How to prioritize your mental and emotional well-being as a non-negotiable tool for physical healing.

• The Mindset Shift on Capacity: Moving seamlessly from the critical inner voice of "I should be able to handle this" to a space of compassionate permission.

• The Three Questions for Ultimate Clarity: A strict litmus test to analyze whether your commitments are born from genuine desire or a fear of disconnection.

• Protecting Your Sacred Dates: Practical boundaries and scripts to set with family members before death anniversaries and milestone events arrive.

Connect with Nicole:

• ✨ Work with Me: Access deep-rooted transformational coaching to process what you've been carrying. Book your free connection call:

• 📸 Instagram: Send a DM or share a voice memo of your own love note to be witnessed by our community:

Note: The "Saying No" boundary steps featured in this episode are structurally modeled after Avalon Empowerment frameworks.

Your feelings are not connected to your identity. How you feel does not define your worth. Your feelings are simply information, letting you know what is stored in your body and what you are being asked to move."

Losing a mother changes everything, but losing her during the COVID-19 pandemic added layers of collective trauma and forced isolation that the world is still refusing to openly discuss. For so many of us, pandemic restrictions meant we were blocked from holding her hand, stripped of the choice to say goodbye, and forced to skip the essential communal rituals and funerals that help process initial heartbreak.

In this raw and deeply necessary solo episode, Nicole Weston shares her personal experience with the complex guilt of pandemic loss. After posting a video about her mom's last holiday, she was blindsided by public judgment, hate, and scrutiny in the comments regarding pandemic rules. Nicole uses this experience to highlight why we must change the cultural narrative around grief. Drawing on frameworks from Brené Brown, she breaks down how unexamined guilt can morph into toxic identity shame, keeping you stuck in survival mode and convincing you that you aren't worthy of building a beautiful life.🛠️ Featured Free Resource

• Move Your Complex Emotions: Download Nicole's free Anger Workbook Guide to stop stuffing your rage and begin releasing the heavy weight stored in your body.

This Episode Is For You If:

• You lost your mother during COVID-19 and carry unresolved guilt over the circumstances, restrictions, or lack of a final goodbye.

• You are constantly judging yourself for how you are handling your grief, feeling trapped by the opinions and expectations of others.

• You struggle to separate your feelings from your core identity, frequently spiralling from "I did something wrong" to "I am wrong."

• You notice your grief re-emerging during everyday milestones and family celebrations, even years after the initial loss.

Inside the Episode:

• The Scrutiny of Pandemic Loss: Nicole's perspective on witnessing internet judgment while navigating the reality of her mother's death.

• The Weight of Forced Isolation: How being denied the choice to gather in community with family alters the biological trajectory of grief.

• Guilt vs. Shame: Pulling apart behavior-focused guilt from identity-shattering shame to open a pathway for true self-compassion.

• Emotions as Information: A concrete shift to help you view anger, rage, and sadness as mere biological indicators of what needs to be moved from your body.

Connect with Nicole:

• ✨ Work with Me: Access deep-rooted transformational coaching to process what you've been carrying. Book your free connection call: Calendly

• 📸 Instagram: Send a DM or share a voice memo of your own love note to be witnessed by our community: @thenicoleweston

"Healing isn't about moving on. It's about moving with. Joy and grief can exist in the very same hand, at the very same time."

How do you survive when your entire world collapses in layers? After facing the unimaginable heartbreak of losing her daughter Harper, followed just one year later by the death of her mother Tracy, Tara Porter spent years in high-functioning survival mode, pushing her profound grief down to hold her family together. It wasn’t until she stopped numbing the pain that her true healing journey began.

In this raw and deeply moving conversation, Nicole Weston sits down with Tara Porter—interior designer and creator of the global movement On Fridays We Dance—to explore the unedited reality of compound grief.

Tara shares her powerful turning point of sobriety, how the body naturally stores trauma in layers, and how a silly kitchen tradition with her late mother evolved into an international social media movement that helps thousands of women process their pain, find community, and dance their way back to joy

.🛠️ Featured Free Resource

• Process the Heavy Emotions: Download Nicole's free Anger Workbook Guide to access concrete somatic frameworks for safely moving grief out of your body.

This Episode Is For You If:

• You are carrying compound or consecutive losses and feel completely buried under the layers of your grief.

• You are tired of high-functioning survival mode and want to transition from numbing your pain to safely feeling it.

• You feel guilty for experiencing moments of joy, laughter, or creativity while honoring someone you love who passed away.

• You want to understand how somatic movement and storytelling can help regulate a traumatized nervous system.
  

Inside the Episode:

• The Onion Layer of Loss: Understanding why grief is non-linear and how your body unburies trauma only when it knows you are ready.

• The Power of Sobriety in Healing: Tara’s personal choice to stop drinking five years ago and face her raw emotional landscape without filters.

• The Birth of a Movement: How On Fridays We Dance grew from private kitchen memories with Tracy into a lifeline for thousands on Instagram.

• The Gift of Being Witnessed: Why "I see you" are the most transformative words a grieving motherless daughter can hear.

Connect with us:

• 💃 Connect with Tara: Follow Tara Porter on Instagram and join the global movement to heal through movement: @taraporterofficial1
• ✨ Work with Me: Access deep-rooted transformational coaching to process what you've been carrying. Book your free connection call: Calendly
• 📸 Instagram: Send a DM or share a voice memo of your own love note to be witnessed by our community: @thenicoleweston