"This is not a pretty episode. It is a true one. Because strong, capable, loving women are not supposed to be furious at their dead moms. Except that we are."

You expected the deep sadness. You expected the tears at the holidays or the habit of reaching for your phone to call her on an ordinary afternoon. What you did not expect was the white-hot rage. Looking at a photograph of your mother and feeling a burning fury instead of softness can trigger a secondary, suffocating wave of shame: How can I be angry at the person I miss the most?

In this solo deep dive, Nicole Weston goes straight to the dark corners most grief communities refuse to touch: the unedited anger we carry toward the parent we lost.

She exposes the "shame spiral"—being furious, and then immediately judging yourself for that fury—and explains why this emotion is actually a brilliant protective shield for a traumatized nervous system.

This episode delivers a raw permission slip to stop managing your symptoms and offers concrete, somatic rituals to safely alchemize that rage.

🛠️ Featured Free Resource

• Release the Weight: Download Nicole's free guide, The Anger That Nobody Warned Me About Workbook, to learn how to move rage out of your body safely and without judgment.

This Episode Is For You If:

• You are trapped in a shame cycle, judging your thoughts and feeling like a bad daughter for being angry at your late mom.
• You notice your unexpressed grief is turning inward, showing up as physical exhaustion, emotional numbness, or sudden irritation.
• You are a high-capacity woman whose identity relies on "holding it together," leaving no safe outlet for messy, ugly feelings.
• You want to stop performing your grief and finally understand what your body is trying to signal.

Inside the Episode:

• The Shock of Grief Rage: Why sudden fury at a deceased parent is a normal survival response, not a character flaw.
• The Bodyguard to Sadness: Exploring the biological reasons your nervous system leverages anger to protect you from overwhelming heartbreak.
• Where Suppressed Emotions Go: The internal costs of having nowhere to put your rage, and how it leaks out into your business, marriage, and parenting.
• Four Somatic Rage Rituals: Step-by-step physical practices to move anger through and out of your body safely with intention.
• Getting to the Root: How a single deep-dive session using the Quantum Change Process™ can permanently release decades of accumulated grief, guilt, and self-judgment.

Connect with Nicole:

✨ Work with Me: Access deep-rooted transformational coaching to process what you've been carrying. Book your free connection call: Calendly

📸 Instagram: Send a DM or share a voice memo of your own love note to be witnessed by our community: @thenicoleweston

"There's not a lot of spaces where you can openly talk about how angry you are at your dead mom. I'm the one that's living. I'm the one going through the emotions. And if I don't move it, it's going to move me".

"Nobody warned you about the absolute rage. You expected the bottomless sadness, but the fury? The blistering kind that makes you look at a photograph of your late mother and scream, “Why did you leave me?” 

That is the taboo side of loss that society forces into the shadows. In this raw, necessary solo episode, Nicole Weston opens up about the one grief emotion she was least prepared to face: the profound anger that followed her mother's death.

Even as a trained coach, this rage refused to budge through conventional books, support groups, or traditional talk therapy. Speaking from an integrated place five years out, Nicole reflects on the structural function of your anger, why being furious at a loved one who died is a natural response, and how survival mode can quietly extinguish your inner spark without your consent.

🛠️ Featured Free Resource

• Move Your Anger Safely: Download Nicole's free Anger Workbook Guide to access concrete somatic frameworks for releasing the rage without judgment.

This Episode Is For You If:

• You are deeply blindsided by the raw volatility of your anger and feel like it is a character flaw.
• You found that year two of your grief journey actually hit harder and left you feeling more isolated than year one.
• Your go-to perfectionism and coping mechanisms are failing to move the heavy emotional density you carry.
• You are looking for an unpolished, safe environment to voice the complicated realities of mother loss.

Inside the Episode:

• The Daily Blindside: Why conventional coaching tools and emotional maps can fail when faced with visceral grief rage.
• The Year-Two Trap: How high-capacity women use perfectionism to hide survival mode, and how that smothers your inner light.
• Love with Nowhere to Go: Redefining your fury not as a moral failing, but as a deep, profound expression of love that has lost its physical anchor.
• Alchemizing the Rage: The exact moment Nicole realized her anger was a protective shield, allowing her to say, "Thank you, rage. You kept me alive."

Connect with Nicole:

• ✨ Work with Me: Access deep-rooted transformational coaching to process what you've been carrying. Book your free connection call: Calendly
• 📸 Instagram: Send a DM or share a voice memo of your own love note to be witnessed by our community: @thenicoleweston

In this raw and honest guest episode, Nicole sits down with Nicki to explore the exhausting reality of being "the strong one" while navigating the back-to-back loss of her mother and brother. You’ll hear a real conversation about survival mode, the business of death, and the messy, necessary journey of reclaiming yourself after the darkness of grief hits.

Nicki is a women’s self worth and freedom facilitator. She teaches women to put themselves first, especially after a major life event like loss or a divorce. She empowers women to be brave, break free from limiting beliefs, set healthy boundaries, and rediscover their worth. Nicki’s mission is to help women not just survive big things, but use them as a catalyst for growth, healing, and lasting empowerment. She is passionate about helping women move from self doubt and disconnection to clarity, self trust, and real internal power. She is a certified root cause therapy practitioner and uses this to help women reveal and release limiting beliefs and regulate their nervous systems. Her work is about real change, grounded in action, power, and possibility,

Website: www.healingufirstcoaching.com

This episode includes an open and honest conversation about the darkest moments of grief, including intrusive thoughts about not wanting and knowing how to live without their loved ones. This is shared with love, courage, and the hope that you feel less alone.

If you are currently struggling with thoughts of self-harm or suicide, please reach out for support.

DISCLAIMER

Can't Call Your Mom is a podcast for storytelling, connection, and community. It is not a substitute for professional mental health support, therapy, or crisis intervention. The experiences shared here are personal and are not intended as medical or psychological advice. If you or someone you love is struggling, please reach out to a qualified mental health professional.

If you are in crisis or need immediate support:

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Connect with Nicole:

✨ Work with Me: Access deep-rooted transformational coaching to process what you've been carrying. Book your free connection call:⁠ ⁠⁠https://calendly.com/nicoleweston/20-minute-connection-call⁠⁠⁠

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"Grief doesn't need an audience. But it does get lighter when we witness it and hold it together."

Five years after losing her mother Lisa, Nicole Weston steps into a softer, deeply sacred space to model a practice essential to long-term healing: pure expression. Grief cannot simply be managed or processed logically; it must be spoken out loud, witnessed, and held.

In this episode, Nicole shares an intimate look at how grief hides within the body and resurfaces when we least expect it. From navigating a sudden emotional trigger in a medical clinic during fertility treatments to missing the mundane, ordinary 4:00 PM daily phone calls, she explores what it looks like to move past anger and resentment to land fully back into love.

• You struggle with sudden, intense waves of physical or emotional grief in public spaces.

• You miss the small, ordinary details of your day that only mattered to your mom.

• You want to rewrite how your family handles loss and emotional expression.

• You need a reminder that you are not failing, your heart is simply healing.

• The Lab Story: Standing alone during fertility treatments and the somatic impact of hearing her mother's name, "Lisa," called out loud.

• A Live Love Note: An unfiltered, tender, and surprisingly funny spoken-word letter dedicated directly to her late mother.

• The 4 O'Clock Void: Processing the specific ache of losing the one person who held all of your smallest, ordinary daily stories.

• Generational Redefinition: How Nicole's daughter Hannah is becoming part of a rewritten family narrative around grief.

  
  

  ✨ Work with Me: Access deep-rooted transformational coaching to process what you've been carrying. Book your free connection call: ⁠https://calendly.com/nicoleweston/20-minute-connection-call⁠

  📸 Instagram: Send a DM or share a voice memo of your own love note to be witnessed by our community: https://www.instagram.com/thenicoleweston/

Losing My Mom: Grief, Identity Collapse, and Rebuilding After Loss

"She picked up on the second ring. She always picked up on the second ring."

It was an ordinary Monday morning in May. Nicole Weston was braiding her daughter’s hair, breathing in the life she built, when a single phone call shifted her entire world in an instant. Her mother had passed away, and everything she knew about her capacity, resilience, and identity cracked open.

In this raw, unfiltered premier episode, transformational life coach and Quantum Change Process™ practitioner Nicole Weston pulls back the curtain on the silent identity crisis that follows a mother's death. She shares why she spent years searching for a space where grief and ambition could coexist—and why, when she couldn't find it, she chose to build it.

• You are mothering your own children without the presence of your mother.

• You are actively running a professional business or leading a team while carrying a weight the world has no space for.

• You feel heavy guilt for still wanting to build, earn, and scale your business while navigating deep loss.

• You are the "strong one" who holds everyone else together while quietly falling apart inside.

• The Reality of May 3rd, 2021: The morning Nicole arrived at her mom's house and the immediate collapse of her identity.
• The Bedtime Question: How a raw moment with her daughter Hannah became the catalyst for this movement.
• The Unspoken Darkness: Navigating the anger, profound self-judgment, and internal isolation that life coaches aren't supposed to talk about.




✨ Work with Me: Ready to stop managing the symptoms of your grief and get straight to the root? Book your free connection call: ⁠https://calendly.com/nicoleweston/20-minute-connection-call⁠

📸 Instagram: Share your story, send a voice note, or connect directly with Nicole: https://www.instagram.com/thenicoleweston/

Welcome to Can't Call Your Mom, the podcast for women who are living, loving, and leading after losing their mom. For the motherless mothers who are raising babies, running businesses, and showing up for everyone else, all while carrying a grief most of the world doesn't have space for.

I'm Nicole Weston, transformational life coach, mother, wife, business owner, and a motherless mother just like you. I searched for a place where I could bring all of me, the grief and the ambition, the healing and the hustle. I couldn't find it. So I built it.

This isn't a grief support group. It's not a business podcast. It's not a parenting show. It's all of those things and none of those things. It's a space for the whole woman, the one who holds it all and finally has somewhere to set it down.

Each week you can expect episodes designed to bring you connection, hope, desire and action. I will share insights, love notes and interviews with women who are doing the deep work, integrating who they were before loss with who they are becoming. Because you don't have to choose between healing and ambition. You never did.

Grief is heavy and it gets lighter when we carry it together.

This is the podcast you've been searching for. And this is your community.

New episodes every week. Subscribe now and share this with a woman in your life who needs to hear it — because I promise you, you know someone who does.

Can't Call Your Mom, because grief is not the end of your story. It's the beginning of your becoming.

Love Nicole

Come-unity is everything in my world!

I believe this to my core because I first hand experience as to how it has helped me, supported me and expanded me.

I am sharing what can happen when we gather in community while on the journey of self-love and expansion.

Connect with Nicole:

Register for Nicole’s free Masterclass: She’s Dead. Now what? May 6th @12pm ET 

⁠https://www.nicoleweston.ca/masterclassgrief⁠

Book a free 20 minute introductory call with Nicole  

 https://nicoleweston.as.me/introductorycall

Nicole's free Anger Workbook Guide: ⁠nicoleweston.ca/workbook⁠

Website: ⁠www.nicoleweston.ca⁠

Instagram: ⁠ @thenicoleweston⁠

Produced by Nicole Weston & Co-Produced by Hunter Blackett

Photography by Heather Whitcombe⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.whitcombecreative.com/⁠⁠

If This Episode Resonated: Please subscribe, leave a review, and share this with a woman in your life who is carrying this. You know someone who lost her mom during Covid and has never had a space to talk about it. Send it to her. Every share reaches another motherless mother who is searching for this community.

I am diving even deeper into 3 toxic self love habits you might be practicing.

Denial of your unique human experience being a bIG topic I unpack today.

Connect with Nicole:

Register for Nicole’s free Masterclass: She’s Dead. Now what? May 6th @12pm ET 

⁠https://www.nicoleweston.ca/masterclassgrief⁠

Book a free 20 minute introductory call with Nicole  

 https://nicoleweston.as.me/introductorycall

Nicole's free Anger Workbook Guide: ⁠nicoleweston.ca/workbook⁠

Website: ⁠www.nicoleweston.ca⁠

Instagram: ⁠ @thenicoleweston⁠

Produced by Nicole Weston & Co-Produced by Hunter Blackett

Photography by Heather Whitcombe⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.whitcombecreative.com/⁠⁠

If This Episode Resonated: Please subscribe, leave a review, and share this with a woman in your life who is carrying this. You know someone who lost her mom during Covid and has never had a space to talk about it. Send it to her. Every share reaches another motherless mother who is searching for this community.

Today I want to share three practices I invite you to become aware of.

Why? Because you are a human first and we need to get back into the business of being a human.

You’re here because you LOVE yourself and you're on the journey of living more intentionally and manifesting your dreams. But something feels off AND this is what I share with you today.

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Today I am sharing one of the most popular episodes on my podcasts. The evolution of motherhood.

Kelley and I dive into the evolving roles of motherhood and how mothers are essentially our first “life coach”.  We talk about the importance of letting go of guilt and creating space for gentleness so we can ask for help and be fully present for our children.

Kelley shares her story from the early days of being a mother and shares all the ‘realness’. Kelley believes her story can help redefine motherhood, “because it is all about how we can use our own inner healing as a pathway to motherhood.

That we can allow ourselves to move through guilt, shame, insecurities by further exploring the roots of those challenges in a way that helps us heal them.

I’m also very big on releasing the “right” and “wrong” of motherhood and to explore motherhood as everyone’s “right” journey and that our children do indeed choose us as a way for us to move through our own Self and to become who our children need us to be for them and their healing. It is about releasing self judgement and moving to unconditional love.”

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Special book for listeners: www.evolvednlpbook.com

Disclaimer: The information, opinions, recommendations and content presented in this podcast are for general information purposes only, and because each person is unique please consult your healthcare professional for any medical related questions. Any reliance on the information provided in this podcast is done at your own risk. The Podcast is not to be considered as professional or medical advice. In no way does listening, reading, emailing or interacting on social media with our content establish a coach-client relationship.

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