Katrina Pope (@katrinagpope) is an NYC-based standup comedian and self-proclaimed "wife-motivator." In this episode, we discuss how messy relationships create the best material and how vulnerability is the key to life both on and off stage.

Los Angeles-based writer, producer, improvisor Michael Barryte joins Katie to talk about the messy parts of his creative process--how he tricks himself into focusing on tasks, how nature has taught him to be more present, and insights from a recent solo-trip to Iceland. Will either one of them cry?! Listen to find out!

In a conversation taking place immediately after the coaching call in episode 5, Rebekah Nanfria shares about her journey as a professional actor and how she shows up in the messy parts of life as a coach--"If you choose to show up in your messiness, that's where all the magic happens." Rebekah has challenged me to show up in my life in a way I didn't even realize I wasn't showing up and I loved talking with her about her side of our coaching relationship. To learn more about Rebekah and what coaching is, you can visit http://www.rebekahnanfriacoaching.com/

This week's episode is a real life coaching call with Katie's life coach Rebekah Nanfria. Rebekah guides Katie to dive deep into what "Showing Up Messy" really means and take steps towards showing up more honestly in life. If you dream of being a voyeuristic fly on the wall during someone's therapy session, you'll love this episode! We laugh, we cry, we say "um" a lot, come join the messy party. And join us next week for part 2 when we learn about Rebekah's life and creative process.

To learn more about Rebekah and/or coaching, visit http://www.rebekahnanfriacoaching.com/

Katie is joined again by Alex Van der Hoek who has just completed week two of the Artist's Way. Katie shares about unexpected realizations that hit her after deciding to quit standup. Alex talks about feeling permission to be a "narcissist" and create freely when it's his birthday. Come get messy with us!

PS: Next week's episode will feature a LIVE coaching call with Rebekah Nanfria (Katie's life coach name-dropped in this episode). Get a head start learning all about her here: http://www.rebekahnanfriacoaching.com/

This week's episode features comedian/healer/rapper Kate Wolff (@theKateWolff), who talks about coming out of the rap closet and how art can help us express our intense emotions in a way that helps instead of hurts others. Other lightbulb-y moments involve: reclaiming the childlike part of ourselves that is fully alive in the present moment, accepting (not necessarily loving) all the parts of ourselves, and following the natural flow of our curiosity to create the things that want to come out of us. Kate just released her first comedy album "11:11" (available on iTunes) and debut rap video "Labia Game" (https://youtu.be/C6a9pla7PkU).

Join Katie in her coffin-like closet as she talks about how her relationship with food and recovery from disordered eating relate to "showing up" in her creative life. As promised (by Katie, to herself), this episode has been left messy and unedited (except for one pregnant "trying to remember something" pause in the middle which was literally just minutes of silence). While we're making the description too long, Katie also mentions how she felt "fat" as a Kindergartener (which was true), but she never clarified that the reason she perceived that to be a bad thing was due to a larger systemic problem of fatphobia, to which there could be an entire episode devoted. Fatness is neither good nor bad! The incredible book that inspired this episode (though Katie still has not finished reading it) is called "Women, Food, and God" by Geneen Roth.

Welcome to "The B-sides" (aka the *messy parts*) of Showing Up Messy. In this bonus episode, you can hear the outtakes, the agonizing attempts of recording and re-recording the perfect podcast intro, and the unedited conversation that took place immediately after recording episode. We laugh. We cry. We get messy AF.

Welcome to Showing Up Messy! This inaugural episode was recorded before the title was even finalized--so messy right?! That's what you came for. In this first episode, Katie Barbaro (@katiebarb) talks with Alex van der Hoek (@alexvanderhoek) as he embarks his journey into Julia Cameron's The Artist's Way (which Katie shamelessly proselytized to him and everyone else in her life). Join us and our first-show jitters as we discuss everything from morning page brainstorms to deciding where we want to lean our ladders.

Do you like that podcast jingle up top?! That was created by the wonderful and brilliant Alex Aleco! So many Alexes have contributed to the making of this podcast.

Showing Up Messy is a podcast about the messy parts of the creative process and how we often need to show up before we feel "ready." In each episode, Katie Barbaro (NYC-based comedian, writer, and recovering perfectionist) will talk with someone new about what showing up means to them. You are officially invited to join the conversation, launching March 2018. Subscribe now!

*Music composed and performed by Alex Aleco.