Join me and my boyfriend, Joshua Pánczér, on our living room floor as we dive into the nuances of expanding our capacity to hold the intensity of our experience. We explore the relationship between the inner masculine and inner feminine, the inner child and inner parent, and we also talk about farting a lot.

For a deeper dive into my journey of discovering casual ecstasy through eating disorder recovery, you can order my book “Fed Up: An Illustrated Guide to Food Freedom” at www.thefedupbook.com and follow me on Instagram at @TheFedUpBook.

Let’s dive into the deep end of human consciousness with Aisha Pema Salem. This conversation took place in March of 2021 at Nari Sanctuary on the Danish island of Møn. Pema talks about sinking deep into the feminine to truly be with the joy of grief and anger, and being courageous enough to become deeply honest. Pema invites us to remember the knowledge that has always been within us, and to stabilize in this remembrance. You can find out more about Aisha Pema and how to work with her at www.AishaSalem.com.

In this episode, Katie dives into her journey through disordered eating and addiction and explores how they were a portal to discovering the deeper truths of life she had been avoiding. For a deeper dive into Katie’s recovery journey, you can pre-order her book “Fed Up: An Illustrated Guide to Food Freedom” at www.thefedupbook.com and follow her on Instagram at @TheFedUpBook.

Katie turned 31 today and as a present to herself and to you she is joined by good friend Philip Wells (whom she met on the dating app "Hinge" a couple of years ago and didn't properly introduce in this episode, but did extensively talk about him in the previous episode "Squirting out Tears and Babies on Thanksgiving Eve") to discuss some of the biggest lessons that have come from the past year of her life. Nobody cries! But we try! And we laugh a lot! Recording this felt like the best birthday gift and I'm happy to share it with you. Thank you for being part of my life in whatever way you are.

Welcome to this slice of Katie's life as she emerges from a spell of sad and lonley holiday feelings, which don't often get shared, but are so important to share! Katie shares them with you AND tells the story of her day crying to a UNICEF canvaser. (Spoiler alert: There are no actual tears in this episode...there is laughter though! And a baby is born!) We discuss Buddhist life hacks for how to turn whatever you're feeling into a source of connection to all beings and I also tell you the story of my good friend and Thanksgiving host Philip who I met on a dating app. He made me cry on our first date with a poem (definitely a keeper!) and we ultimately decided we aren't meant to be romantically involved, but "it'd be great if we were in an arranged marriage!" Happy Thanksgiving and thanks for being here!

Join Katie in a post-coaching call high as she discusses moving towards desires, stumbling around her relationship with God resulting in an unintentional Pinocchio metaphor, and how to talk to kids like they're grown-ups and talk to yourself like you're a kid. Content warning: Includes hot off the press parenting secrets from a non-parent!

It wouldn't be Showing Up Messy without a messy blooper reel! This was my first flustered attempt to record the episode, with plenty of stopping and restarting and a window into my internal monologue. We could call this "Listen to Katie Overthink for 15 Minutes (so you don't feel so bad for overthinking yourself." Enjoy!

How many times can you restart a podcast?? As many times as you want! Join me as I reflect on all of the moves (including the literal geographic moves of intentional homelessness) I've made through the messy parts of my life to become more fully myself and driven to help other people do the same thing! We (the royal we) talk about love, attraction, travel, throat chakras, and more! You are cordially invited to join us on our journey.

Kai Mata is an Indonesian-American singer songwriter living in Bali who uses music as a way of connecting with others and sharing the most vulnerable parts of herself. On this episode, Kai shares a sneak peak of her new single "So Hard" and the story behind this catchy, lighthearted tune that dives into the serious topics of LGBTQ rights and social equality. Kai shares her experience growing up between America and Indonesia and how she has formed her own sense of belonging and identity. She works So Hard and listening to her music and insights is So Easy--enjoy this delightful, insightful episode!

Victoria Bradley (@victoriabradleystudio) is the Editor in Chief of TABLE magazine, an artist specializing in fine art nudes (check them out at www.victoriabradleystudio.com), and a die-hard Hanson fan who shares her secrets to living her values and creating a life full of collaboration, abundance, and joy. She also talks about the ways painting nudes has unlocked her daily meditation practice and transformed her relationship with her own body. This episode is Victoria Bradley's practical field guide to manifesting the gifts the universe has to offer (spoiler alert: a lot of it has to do with gratitude). Enjoy!